In Chap­ter 113 of “All the Col­ors of the Dark,” the pro­tag­o­nist, Saint, is at her wed­ding, stand­ing before the towns­peo­ple and her groom, Jim­my, in a for­mal set­ting. Despite her best efforts to smile and recite her vows, she expe­ri­ences an emo­tion­al moment when she spots Patch, a sig­nif­i­cant per­son from her past, briefly meet­ing his gaze before he dis­ap­pears. After the cer­e­mo­ny, as guests throw con­fet­ti out­side, she slips away from her hus­band to seek out Patch, who has stayed away from the fes­tiv­i­ties. Their con­ver­sa­tion reflects their deep his­to­ry: Patch shares a bit about his life while Saint reveals that their mutu­al friend, Sam­my, is doing well.

Saint con­tem­plates her cur­rent life with Jim­my. She wres­tles with feel­ings of dis­con­tent, know­ing Jim­my’s expec­ta­tions for their future con­trast sharply with her own desires. Although she reas­sures Patch that Jim­my treats her well, she inter­nal­ly grap­ples with the real­iza­tion that she is mak­ing sac­ri­fices and set­ting aside her aspi­ra­tions, includ­ing her career as a cop, for the life Jim­my envi­sions for them, which requires her to aban­don her iden­ti­ty.

In a poignant inter­ac­tion, Patch embraces Saint, both are aware of the emo­tion­al grav­i­ty of their con­nec­tion. “I miss you,” she whis­pers, to which Patch responds, “Every day.” Their con­ver­sa­tion hints at unspo­ken truths and unre­solved feel­ings, but they acknowl­edge that dis­cussing them may not bring about change.

Return­ing to the recep­tion, Saint is greet­ed by Jim­my, who com­pli­ments her appear­ance and light­ly teas­es her hair­style choice. As the cel­e­bra­tion con­tin­ues, Saint engages with the guests, putting on a front of hap­pi­ness despite her emo­tion­al tur­moil. The chap­ter clos­es with an inti­mate moment between Saint and Jim­my on the dance floor. As they sway to music, she sings soft­ly, evok­ing her hid­den feel­ings while nav­i­gat­ing her con­flict­ing emo­tions about love and iden­ti­ty. The con­trast between her inner thoughts and her out­ward per­for­mance cap­tures her strug­gle for con­nec­tion and ful­fill­ment.