Chapter XXIV — Crome yellow
byChapter XXIV opens with Denis entering a quiet drawing room and coming across Jenny’s red sketchbook—an unassuming object that quickly becomes a mirror he’s unprepared to face. Curiosity leads him to flip through its pages, despite an earlier hint that its contents are not meant for his eyes. Inside, Jenny has rendered everyone at Crome in brutally honest caricatures, each accompanied by pointed captions. The humor is sharp, but what stings most is the accuracy. For Denis, her drawing reduces his self-image to a parody—an awkward man with intellectual airs, marked by self-conscious envy and social hesitations. The discovery is jarring. He realizes he isn’t the quiet observer he believed himself to be, but rather a figure observed, dissected, and even mocked. This overturns his belief in the privacy of his inner world. He has been seen clearly, and not kindly, by someone he never expected to judge him so deeply.
The impact of this revelation lingers as Denis steps outside. Wandering the garden, his eyes catch the idle strut of a peacock, brilliant yet foolish in its exaggerated display. He sees in the bird a version of himself—decorative, trying to impress, but ultimately absurd. Under the shade of an ilex tree, he grapples with the discomfort of this new self-awareness. The realization that others perceive him differently from how he views himself becomes hard to shake. It’s not just embarrassment—it’s a kind of identity crisis. For the first time, Denis truly understands that other people’s perspectives hold weight, and that his place in the world is shaped not only by thought, but by action—or lack thereof. The idea that his cleverness is not enough and that his posturing has not gone unnoticed leaves him unsteady.
Soon after, he finds Mary sitting beneath a statue of Venus, looking as vulnerable as he feels. Their conversation begins gently, rooted in shared experiences of rejection and discomfort. Mary, still affected by Ivor’s sudden departure and a postcard that closed that chapter with polite cruelty, speaks candidly. She discusses love not as romance, but as a series of moments where expectation collides with reality. Denis listens, still smarting from Jenny’s drawing, and finds comfort in Mary’s honesty. There is no performance in her words, only the rawness of experience. They talk of loneliness, of misunderstanding, and of the fear of showing too much. These reflections blur the line between personal pain and philosophical inquiry. Together, they hover in that strange space where intimacy and distance coexist.
But as always in Crome, personal moments are not left to unfold naturally. The gong rings, a signal that dinner awaits and that reflection must be paused. The spell between Denis and Mary breaks, and reality asserts itself once more. They rise from the grass, returning to the house and its routines, as if nothing had been said. Yet something has shifted. Denis carries with him the echo of Jenny’s image and the weight of Mary’s quiet suffering. The day has left a mark—not in triumph or clarity, but in a deeper sense of humility. He cannot unsee what was drawn, nor can he dismiss what was said. These encounters leave him more grounded, less shielded by ideas, and more aware of the delicate absurdity that surrounds all human connection.
This chapter doesn’t offer resolution, but rather an opening. Denis begins to understand that self-perception must coexist with how others see us, and that neither can stand alone. He learns, through discomfort, that art—whether Jenny’s sketches or his own half-written poems—can reveal more than it intends. His dialogue with Mary reinforces that love and loss are not dramatic climaxes but quiet shifts, often revealed in awkward silences and unspoken questions. Crome Yellow continues to paint its world in contrasts—sharp satire and soft emotion, comedy and sincerity—and this chapter lies at their intersection. Denis may not know yet how to act differently, but for the first time, he clearly sees that something must change.