Chapter IV — Crome yellow
byChapter IV begins with Denis experiencing a morning of quiet indecision, his mood shaped by small choices that feel disproportionately important. Faced with a choice between black and white shoes, he examines himself in the mirror with exaggerated care. Though well-dressed in patent leather, he remains unconvinced by his own reflection—both proud and self-critical. This duality echoes through his behavior as he descends to breakfast, where he finds Jenny already present. Their interaction is fragmented, a patchwork of mismatched remarks and awkward pauses. Denis tries to reach her through conversation, but the exchange feels like two scripts being read simultaneously without overlap.
Jenny, expressive and aloof, reacts with detached curiosity, never quite connecting with what Denis is trying to say. His thoughts, filled with unspoken emotions and abstract ideas, are lost on her. She listens, occasionally responding, but never truly engaging on the level he desires. For Denis, who craves depth, the disjointed dialogue reinforces his sense of social and emotional dislocation. Jenny’s silence feels impenetrable, even when punctuated by laughter or observation. This brief encounter sets the stage for Denis’s continual frustration throughout the day—a desire for closeness thwarted by misalignment. It becomes clear that Jenny, though physically present, remains emotionally distant.
After breakfast, Denis’s encounter with Anne reveals another layer of his longing. The moment is tainted by his own self-consciousness as she casually comments on his appearance. What Denis hoped might be a tender interaction begins instead with awkwardness. Still, Anne’s presence sparks his enthusiasm, and he follows her into the garden where their conversation gradually gains momentum. There, they explore ideas that have weighed heavily on Denis’s mind: the purpose of learning, the value of experience, and the emotional void left by abstract understanding. Anne’s clear-eyed realism both attracts and unsettles him. She lives by instinct and directness, not reflection or books.
Denis, by contrast, is buried under intellectual weight. His education, which he once prized, now feels like a barrier to living fully. He envies Anne’s clarity, her ability to enjoy life without dissecting it. When he tries to express his thoughts, he ends up sounding pompous or overly philosophical. Inside, though, he’s just someone trying to be seen and understood. But Anne, composed and relaxed, doesn’t reach for deeper meaning where none is needed. She listens with tolerance, not empathy. The mismatch is gentle but unmistakable—Denis lives in his head, while Anne lives in the world.
As they walk, the garden becomes a metaphor for their contrasting outlooks. Its order and color reflect Anne’s grounded nature, while for Denis, each flower seems to provoke an inner dialogue. He talks of ideals, symbols, and the tyranny of intellect. Anne counters with experience—sunlight, touch, and honesty. To her, the world is not something to interpret but to engage with directly. Denis, meanwhile, remains caught between wanting to impress her and simply wanting to belong beside her. He admires her, not just for her beauty, but for the ease with which she accepts reality.
In the background of their conversation is the unspoken tension of Denis’s love. Every comment, every glance from Anne feels layered with possibilities that remain just out of reach. His heart is full, yet his tongue is tied by fear of rejection or, worse, misunderstanding. He imagines moments of confession but cannot summon the courage to act. Each silence is filled with what he cannot say. For Anne, these moments carry no weight. She sees Denis as thoughtful but self-involved, perhaps even charming in a distant way. The emotional gulf between them widens even as they walk side by side.
Their exchange reflects a larger contrast between the intellectual life and the emotional life. Denis represents those who seek answers in philosophy and literature but struggle to act on their emotions. Anne embodies those who live with fewer words but greater freedom. Neither is entirely wrong, but they speak different emotional languages. Denis’s internal conflict intensifies as he realizes this difference may keep him from truly connecting with anyone, not just Anne. His world is shaped by doubt, self-awareness, and longing. Hers is shaped by choice, simplicity, and grounded action. This dynamic leaves Denis feeling both admiration and despair.
The chapter ends without resolution, yet it achieves something deeper—a clear portrayal of Denis’s internal tension. His inability to articulate love reflects his broader crisis: a paralysis of feeling in a life overrun by thought. Anne becomes both a symbol of what he desires and a mirror reflecting his limitations. Readers are left to feel Denis’s ache—not only for romance but for simplicity, for release from the maze of introspection. In this quiet chapter, emotional complexity unfolds not through action, but through the silences between words, the hesitations, and the distance that thinking too much can create.