Chapter XXII — Crome yellow
byChapter XXII begins with Denis withdrawing into the quiet of his room, seeking a space where thought might flourish into creativity. The stillness helps at first. He believes that writing—specifically a piece inspired by Anne and the pain of unreturned affection—might ease his restlessness. But just as his pen hesitates above the page, he glances out the window and sees Anne walking with Gombauld. The image strikes with sudden force. Whatever clarity Denis had been building collapses beneath a wave of envy and frustration. Gombauld, with his easy confidence, seems to win Anne’s attention effortlessly. Denis, now too agitated to focus, abandons the pretense of work and descends from his room, his thoughts loud with uncertainty. Seeking distraction or perhaps validation, he steps out, only to find Mr. Scogan waiting, always eager to fill silence with theory.
Scogan, delighted by company, steers Denis into conversation without asking. As they pass Henry Wimbush and Mary engaged in a leisurely game of bowls, Scogan’s thoughts leap far beyond the garden. He begins expounding on the idea of sanity versus madness—not as medical conditions, but as forces that shape human history. Reason, he claims, may explain the world, but it never moves it. What truly changes things are moments of madness—belief so strong it overrules doubt. Great leaders, he argues, are not those who think clearly, but those who feel intensely. Denis listens, half-engaged, trying to tether his scattered emotions to Scogan’s controlled enthusiasm. There’s something disorienting about watching someone so assured in abstract thought, especially when your own heart refuses to settle.
As their walk continues, Scogan outlines his imagined society—a Rational State engineered for harmony through structured madness. He proposes three castes: the Directors, thinkers tasked with planning; the Men of Faith, whose fervor is channeled but never allowed to command; and the Herd, those who follow with unquestioning loyalty. It’s a machine built from psychology, each part aware of its limits, governed not by freedom but by efficiency. Madness becomes useful when managed, and passion, once unpredictable, is reduced to fuel under supervision. Denis, already struggling to define himself in any real world, finds this artificial vision even more alien. He wonders aloud where he might belong, hoping perhaps to be counted among the thinkers. But Scogan, with a dry smile, suggests that Denis fits nowhere—too timid for passion, too muddled for intellect.
This offhand remark stings more than Denis is willing to admit. It confirms a fear he already carries: that he is out of place in every system, real or imagined. He neither burns brightly nor thinks clearly enough to lead. He only observes, half hoping to be noticed, half afraid of being seen too clearly. The jest about the “lethal chamber” hovers in the air, too absurd to take seriously, but too close to his hidden self-doubt to ignore. Still, Denis doesn’t protest. There’s a part of him that agrees. Not that he wishes to vanish, but that he cannot yet see a version of himself that belongs or matters. The walk continues, but the energy has shifted. Denis feels smaller in Scogan’s theoretical world, and even smaller in his own skin.
What the chapter captures is more than a stroll or an argument—it’s a snapshot of internal dissonance. Denis’s personal disillusionment with love mirrors his disillusionment with purpose. The grandeur of Scogan’s Rational State only emphasizes the limitations Denis feels in himself. He cannot love with confidence, nor can he argue with certainty. He exists in between—aware, self-critical, but ultimately unsure of how to act. The ideas may be grand, but for Denis, they remain as distant as Anne’s affection. All he wants is clarity—a role to play, a feeling to trust, a response that confirms he belongs. But clarity continues to elude him.
As they return to the estate, the world regains its familiar shape. The grass, the bowls, the sounds of others at play—these remind Denis of where he is, though not who he should be. Scogan, content with his theories, seems untouched by doubt. Denis, however, walks away more entangled in his own. This chapter doesn’t resolve anything—it simply deepens the questions. In the collision of grand ideas and private emotions, Denis remains the quiet witness to both, searching for meaning in a world that offers only fragments.