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    Adventure Fiction

    I Cheerfully Refuse

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    I Cheerfully Refuse by Geoffrey W. Berman is a witty and insightful memoir that blends humor with sharp social commentary. The book follows Berman’s experiences as he navigates the challenges of modern life, refusing to conform to societal expectations while embracing individuality and free thought. Through personal anecdotes and thoughtful reflections, Berman explores themes of resistance, authenticity, and the importance of staying true to oneself in an often conformist world.

    “When You See Him Stand­ing in Your Kitchen”, the chap­ter begins with the nar­ra­tor and Kel­lan work­ing togeth­er to restore an old Ranchero, a task that proves far more chal­leng­ing than they had ini­tial­ly antic­i­pat­ed. In their attempt to find help, they reach out to sev­er­al local experts, includ­ing Roy Ess, a mechan­ic who insists on tak­ing Sun­days off, and Maudie Antoinette, a well-informed woman with a deep con­nec­tion to her grown chil­dren. Unfor­tu­nate­ly, nei­ther of them is able to offer the assis­tance they need, which forces the duo to return home and tack­le the repairs them­selves. As they strug­gle to locate the ball joint under lay­ers of dirt and rust, dis­as­ter strikes when Kellan’s weight caus­es the car to fall, a mishap that leads to over­whelm­ing feel­ings of guilt. The weight of their fail­ure sits heav­i­ly on both of them, leav­ing them with no choice but to step away from the project, their frus­tra­tion grow­ing with every pass­ing moment.

    In an attempt to escape the grow­ing ten­sion, Kel­lan retreats to the attic, where he finds com­fort in using nitrous oxide, a sub­stance he appears to rely on when things become too over­whelm­ing. The nar­ra­tor stum­bles upon him in this vul­ner­a­ble state and is shown a series of strange and cryp­tic draw­ings. Among these draw­ings are unset­tling sketch­es of a girl, smeared beyond recog­ni­tion, and an old­er man, both of which seem to reflect parts of Kellan’s inner tur­moil. As Kel­lan speaks, his words become more reveal­ing, men­tion­ing Wer­ryck, a fig­ure that he is clear­ly ter­ri­fied of. Describ­ing Wer­ryck as a loom­ing pres­ence, Kellan’s fear is tan­gi­ble, and the idea of his arrival fills both of them with unease. This char­ac­ter, Wer­ryck, seems to hold pow­er over Kel­lan, and his men­tion rais­es more ques­tions than answers, sug­gest­ing a deeply buried past of trau­ma and unre­solved con­flict.

    The more Kel­lan speaks about Wer­ryck, the more the ten­sion builds, with Kel­lan insist­ing that if Wer­ryck shows up, they must leave qui­et­ly, as the dan­ger of the sit­u­a­tion is far too great to ignore. The nar­ra­tor, attempt­ing to make sense of Kellan’s cryp­tic warn­ings, reflects on his own past, par­tic­u­lar­ly a child­hood mem­o­ry of a dev­as­tat­ing pan­dem­ic. The mem­o­ry is tied to the cre­ation of trav­el­ing hos­pi­tals, orga­nized by a wealthy ship­ping mag­nate, a con­cept that seems strange­ly linked to Kellan’s ref­er­ence to a “med­i­cine ship.” This men­tion sparks curios­i­ty in the nar­ra­tor, hint­ing that Kel­lan and the nar­ra­tor might have shared some com­mon expe­ri­ences tied to a far dark­er his­to­ry, one marked by health crises and sur­vival. The con­nec­tion between the two men goes beyond just the present moment and reach­es deep into their past, where per­son­al tragedies may have shaped their present fears and reac­tions.

    Lat­er, the nar­ra­tor turns to Lark, shar­ing the events of the day and offer­ing her some insight into what has been hap­pen­ing. Lark, how­ev­er, is dis­tract­ed by the excite­ment of a recent discovery—a book cache she has stum­bled upon, which sparks a joy that con­trasts sharply with Kellan’s inter­nal strug­gles. Her enthu­si­asm for her new find con­trasts with the weight of Kellan’s bur­dens, high­light­ing the emo­tion­al divide between the two char­ac­ters. While Kel­lan wres­tles with his fears and mem­o­ries, Lark finds com­fort in the tan­gi­ble world of books, some­thing to focus on amidst the chaos of their lives. The dif­fer­ence in how they cope with their respec­tive chal­lenges under­scores the com­plex­i­ty of human nature, as each per­son seeks solace in their own way. The chap­ter also empha­sizes the idea of seek­ing peace in dif­fer­ent forms, whether through work, art, or dis­trac­tion, and how these cop­ing mech­a­nisms can either bring peo­ple togeth­er or push them fur­ther apart.

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