You are being provided with a book chapter by chapter. I will request you to read the book for me after each chapter. After reading the chapter, 1. shorten the chapter to no less than 300 words and no more than 400 words. 2. Do not change the name, address, or any important nouns in the chapter. 3. Do not translate the original language. 4. Keep the same style as the original chapter, keep it consistent throughout the chapter. Your reply must comply with all four requirements, or it’s invalid.
I will provide the chapter now.
CHAPTER
52
There was a deep, sunken tub in the floor of the mountain cabin—large
enough to accommodate Illyrian wings. I filled it with water near-scalding,
not caring how the magic of this house operated, only that it worked.
Hissing and wincing, I climbed in.
Three days without a bath and I could have wept at the warmth and
cleanliness of it.
No matter that I’d once gone weeks without one—not when drawing hot
water for it in my family’s cottage had been more trouble than it was worth.
Not when we didn’t even have a bathtub and it required buckets and
buckets to get clean.
I washed with dark soap that smelled of smoke and pine, and when I was
done, I sat there, watching the steam slither amongst the few candles.
Mate.
The word chased me from the bath sooner than I wanted, and hounded
me as I pulled on the clothes I’d found in a drawer of the bedroom: dark
leggings, a large, cream-colored sweater that hung to mid-thigh, and thick
socks. My stomach grumbled, and I realized I hadn’t eaten since the day
before, because—
Because he’d been injured, and I’d gone out of my mind—absolutely
insane—when he’d been taken from me, shot out of the sky like a bird.
I’d acted on instinct, on a drive to protect him that had come from so
deep in me …
So deep in me—
I found a container of soup on the wood counter that Mor must have
brought in, and scrounged up a cast iron pot to heat it. Fresh, crusty bread
sat near the stove, and I ate half of it while waiting for the soup to warm.
He’d suspected it before I’d even freed us from Amarantha.
My wedding day … Had he interrupted to spare me from a horrible
mistake or for his own ends? Because I was his mate, and letting me bind
myself to someone else was unacceptable?
I ate my dinner in silence, with only the murmuring fire for company.
And beneath the barrage of my thoughts, a throb of relief.
My relationship with Tamlin had been doomed from the start. I had left—
only to find my mate. To go to my mate.
If I were looking to spare us both from embarrassment, from rumor, only
that—only that I had found my true mate—would do the trick.
I was not a lying piece of traitorous filth. Not even close. Even if Rhys …
Rhys had known I was his mate.
While I’d shared a bed with Tamlin. For months and months. He’d
known I was sharing a bed with him, and hadn’t let it show. Or maybe he
didn’t care.
Maybe he didn’t want the bond. Had hoped it’d vanish.
I’d owed nothing to Rhys then—had nothing to apologize for.
But he’d known I’d react badly. That it’d hurt me more than help me.
And what if I had known?
What if I had known that Rhys was my mate while I’d loved Tamlin?
It didn’t excuse his not telling me. Didn’t excuse the recent weeks, when
I’d hated myself so much for wanting him so badly—when he should have
told me. But … I understood.
I washed the dishes, swept the crumbs off the small dining table between
the kitchen and living area, and climbed into one of the beds.
Just last night, I’d been curled beside him, counting his breaths to make
sure he didn’t stop making them. The night before, I’d been in his arms, his
fingers between my legs, his tongue in my mouth. And now … though the
cabin was warm, the sheets were cold. The bed was large—empty.
Through the small glass window, the snow-blasted land around me
glowed blue in the moonlight. The wind was a hollow moan, brushing
great, sparkling drifts of snow past the cabin.
I wondered if Mor had told him where I was.
Wondered if he’d indeed come looking for me.
Mate.
My mate.
Sunlight on snow awoke me, and I squinted at the brightness, cursing
myself for not closing the curtains. It took me a moment to remember
where I was; why I was in this isolated cabin, deep in the mountains of—I
did’t know what mountains these were.
Rhys had once mentioned a favorite retreat that Mor and Amren had
burned to cinders in a fight. I wondered if this was it; if it had been rebuilt.
Everything was comfortable, worn, but in relatively good shape.
Mor and Amren had known.
I couldn’t decide if I hated them for it.
No doubt, Rhys had ordered them to keep quiet, and they’d respected his
wishes, but …
I made the bed, fixed breakfast, washed the dishes, and then stood in the
center of the main living space.
I’d run away.
Precisely how Rhys expected me to run—how I’d told him anyone in
their right mind would run from him. Like a coward, like a fool, I’d left him
injured in the freezing mud.
I’d walked away from him—a day after I’d told him he was the only
thing I’d never walk away from.
I’d demanded honesty, and at the first true test, I hadn’t even let him give
it to me. I hadn’t granted him the consideration of hearing him out.
You see me.
Well, I’d refused to see him. Maybe I’d refused to see what was right in
front of me.
I’d walked away.
And maybe … maybe I shouldn’t have.
Boredom hit me halfway through the day.
Supreme, unrelenting boredom, thanks to being trapped inside while the
snow slowly melted under the mild spring day, listening to it drip-drip-
dripping off the roof.
It made me nosy—and once I’d finished going through the drawers and
closets of both bedrooms (clothes, old bits of ribbon, knives and weapons
tucked between as if one of them had chucked them in and just forgotten),
the kitchen cabinets (food, preserved goods, pots and pans, a stained
cookbook), and the living area (blankets, some books, more weapons
hidden everywhere), I ventured into the supply closet.
For a High Lord’s retreat, the cabin was … not common, because
everything had been made and appointed with care, but … casual. As if this
were the sole place where they might all come, and pile into beds and on
the couch, and not be anyone but themselves, taking turns with who cooked
that night and who hunted and who cleaned and—
A family.
It felt like a family—the one I’d never quite had, had never dared really
hope for. Had stopped expecting when I’d grown used to the space and
formality of living in a manor. To being a symbol for a broken people, a
High Priestess’s golden idol and puppet.
I opened the storeroom door, a blast of cold greeting me, but candles
sputtered to life, thanks to the magic that kept the place hospitable. Shelves
free of dust (another magical perk, no doubt) gleamed with more food
stores. Books, sporting equipment, packs and ropes and, big surprise, more
weapons. I sorted through it all, these remnants of adventures past and
future, and almost missed them as I walked past.
Half a dozen cans of paint.
Paper, and a few canvases. Brushes, old and flecked with paint from lazy
hands.
There were other art supplies—pastels and watercolors, what looked to
be charcoal for sketching, but … I stared at the paint, the brushes.
Which of them had tried to paint while stuck here—or enjoying a holiday
with them all?
I told myself my hands were trembling with the cold as I reached for the
paint and pried open the lid.
Still fresh. Probably from the magic preserving this place.
I peered into the dark, gleaming interior of the can I’d opened: blue.
And then I started gathering supplies.
I painted all day.
And when the sun vanished, I painted all through the night.
The moon had set by the time I washed my hands and face and neck and
stumbled into bed, not even bothering to undress before unconsciousness
swept me away.
I was up, brush in hand, before the spring sun could resume its work
thawing the mountains around me.
I paused only long enough to eat. The sun was setting again, exhausted
from the dent it’d made in the layer of snow outside, when a knock sounded
on the front door.
Splattered in paint—the cream-colored sweater utterly wrecked—I froze.
Another knock, light, but insistent. Then—“Please don’t be dead.”
I didn’t know whether it was relief or disappointment that sank in my
chest as I opened the door and found Mor huffing hot air into her cupped
hands.
She looked at the paint on my skin, in my hair. At the brush in my hand.
And then at what I had done.
Mor stepped in from the brisk spring night and let out a low whistle as
she shut the door. “Well, you’ve certainly been busy.”
Indeed.
I’d painted nearly every surface in the main room.
And not with just broad swaths of color, but with decorations—little
images. Some were basic: clusters of icicles drooping down the sides of the
threshold. They melted into the first shoots of spring, then burst into full
blooms of summer, before brightening and deepening into fall leaves. I’d
painted a ring of flowers round the card table by the window; leaves and
crackling flames around the dining table.
But in between the intricate decorations, I’d painted them. Bits and
pieces of Mor, and Cassian, and Azriel, and Amren … and Rhys.
Mor went up to the large hearth, where I’d painted the mantel in black
shimmering with veins of gold and red. Up close, it was a solid, pretty bit of
paint. But from the couch … “Illyrian wings,” she said. “Ugh, they’ll never
stop gloating about it.”
But she went to the window, which I’d framed in tumbling strands of
gold and brass and bronze. Mor fingered her hair, cocking her head. “Nice,”
she said, surveying the room again.
Her eyes fell on the open threshold to the bedroom hallway, and she
grimaced. “Why,” she said, “are Amren’s eyes there?”
Indeed, right above the door, in the center of the archway, I’d painted a
pair of glowing silver eyes. “Because she’s always watching.”
Mor snorted. “That simply won’t do. Paint my eyes next to hers. So the
males of this family will know we’re both watching them the next time they
come up here to get drunk for a week straight.”
“They do that?”
“They used to.” Before Amarantha. “Every autumn, the three of them
would lock themselves in this house for five days and drink and drink and
hunt and hunt, and they’d come back to Velaris looking halfway to death
but grinning like fools. It warms my heart to know that from now on, they’ll
have to do it with me and Amren staring at them.”
A smile tugged on my lips. “Who does this paint belong to?”
“Amren,” Mor said, rolling her eyes. “We were all here one summer, and
she wanted to teach herself to paint. She did it for about two days before
she got bored and decided to start hunting poor creatures instead.”
A quiet chuckle rasped out of me. I strode to the table, which I’d used as
my main surface for blending and organizing paints. And maybe I was a
coward, but I kept my back to her as I said, “Any news from my sisters?”
Mor started rifling through the cabinets, either to look for food or assess
what I needed. She said over a shoulder, “No. Not yet.”
“Is he … hurt?” I’d left him in the freezing mud, injured and working the
poison out of his system. I’d tried not to dwell on it while I’d painted.
“Still recovering, but fine. Pissed at me, of course, but he can shove it.”
I combined Mor’s yellow gold with the red I’d used for the Illyrian
wings, and blended until vibrant orange emerged. “Thank you—for not
telling him I was here.”
A shrug. Food began popping onto the counter: fresh bread, fruit,
containers of something that I could smell from across the kitchen and
made me nearly groan with hunger. “You should talk to him, though. Make
him stew over it, of course, but … hear him out.” She didn’t look at me as
she spoke. “Rhys always has his reasons, and he might be arrogant as all
hell, but he’s usually right about his instincts. He makes mistakes, but …
You should hear him out.”
I’d already decided that I would, but I said, “How was your visit to the
Court of Nightmares?”
She paused, her face going uncharacteristically pale. “Fine. It’s always a
delight to see my parents. As you might guess.”
“Is your father healing?” I added the cobalt of Azriel’s Siphons to the
orange and mixed until a rich brown appeared.
A small, grim smile. “Slowly. I might have snapped some more bones
when I visited. My mother has since banished me from their private
quarters. Such a shame.”
Some feral part of me beamed in savage delight at that. “A pity indeed,” I
said. I added a bit of frost white to lighten the brown, checked it against the
gaze she slid to me, and grabbed a stool to stand on as I began painting the
threshold. “Rhys really makes you do this often? Endure visiting them?”
Mor leaned against the counter. “Rhys gave me permission the day he
became High Lord to kill them all whenever I pleased. I attend these
meetings, go to the Court of Nightmares, to … remind them of that
sometimes. And to keep communication between our two courts flowing,
however strained it might be. If I were to march in there tomorrow and
slaughter my parents, he wouldn’t blink. Perhaps be inconvenienced by it,
but … he would be pleased.”
I focused on the speck of caramel brown I painted beside Amren’s eyes.
“I’m sorry—for all that you endured.”
“Thank you,” she said, coming over to watch me. “Visiting them always
leaves me raw.”
“Cassian seemed concerned.” Another prying question.
She shrugged. “Cassian, I think, would also savor the opportunity to
shred that entire court to pieces. Starting with my parents. Maybe I’ll let
him do it one year as a present. Him and Azriel both. It’d make a perfect
solstice gift.”
I asked perhaps a bit too casually. “You told me about the time with
Cassian, but did you and Azriel ever … ?”
A sharp laugh. “No. Azriel? After that time with Cassian, I swore off any
of Rhys’s friends. Azriel’s got no shortage of lovers, though, don’t worry.
He’s better at keeping them secret than we are, but … he has them.”
“So if he were ever interested would you … ?”
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