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    Chap­ter 7 recounts the sig­nif­i­cant upswing in Barack Oba­ma’s 2008 pres­i­den­tial cam­paign fol­low­ing key endorse­ments from Car­o­line and Ted Kennedy, which appeared to sym­bol­ize a pass­ing of the lib­er­al torch and inject­ed the cam­paign with a com­po­si­tion of opti­mism akin to the Kennedy era. More­over, despite for­mi­da­ble chal­lenges, par­tic­u­lar­ly on Super Tues­day, strate­gic grass­roots efforts in less pop­u­lat­ed cau­cus states, such as Ida­ho, result­ed in a series of wins that bol­stered del­e­gate counts sub­stan­tial­ly against Hillary Clin­ton. Tech­nol­o­gy’s grow­ing role in the cam­paign sig­ni­fied a new era of polit­i­cal engage­ment, though Oba­ma also reflects on its dou­ble-edged nature in pol­i­tics.

    Oba­ma’s recount­ing moves into a deep­er, reflec­tive nar­ra­tion on race in Amer­i­ca, invoked by cit­ing W.E.B. Du Bois’s con­cept of “dou­ble con­scious­ness.” The per­son­al chal­lenge of nav­i­gat­ing his iden­ti­ty amidst nation­al scruti­ny becomes evi­dent with the con­tro­ver­sies around his pas­tor, Jere­mi­ah Wright, and charged accu­sa­tions cast­ing doubts on his patri­o­tism and “Amer­i­can-ness.” The back­lash against his and Michelle’s per­ceived iden­ti­ties under­scores the cam­paign’s recur­rent theme of bat­tling and bridg­ing deeply entrenched racial and social divides.

    His nar­ra­tive fur­ther unfolds the com­plex­i­ties of run­ning a large-scale, his­toric cam­paign. Evolv­ing from inti­mate con­nec­tions with staff and vol­un­teers to accom­mo­date the demand­ing secu­ri­ty pro­to­cols that iso­lat­ed him from spon­ta­neous pub­lic engage­ment, Oba­ma details the lit­er­al and metaphor­i­cal bar­ri­ers that shape a pres­i­den­tial can­di­date’s world. Despite the secu­ri­ty, the enthu­si­as­tic pub­lic recep­tions ener­gized his resolve, even as he grap­pled with the weight of their expec­ta­tions against the back­drop of polit­i­cal strat­a­gems and per­son­al sac­ri­fices.

    Obama’s recount of inter­nal cam­paign reflec­tions and deci­sions reveals a potent mix­ture of strat­e­gy, ide­al­ism, and prag­mat­ic pol­i­tics. The chap­ter mas­ter­ful­ly inter­twines tales of polit­i­cal vic­to­ries, per­son­al anec­dotes illus­trat­ing the racial dynam­ics of his can­di­da­cy, and the nov­el chal­lenges of cam­paign­ing in the dig­i­tal age. It con­cludes with the con­tem­pla­tive moments before the final pri­maries, bal­anc­ing the ten­sion of an uncer­tain future with the cama­raderie and hope that pro­pelled his ground­break­ing cam­paign for­ward.

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    Alis or for me?”
    “Both,” I said. I’d been pre­pared to take out either one of them. Or any­one else.
    His laugh was soft. “Then I won’t offer to show you around the estate. But you should stay close to
    the house, Feyre. The blight is affect­ing us in ways you can’t begin to com­pre­hend.”
    I had no instinct to reply, so I nod­ded stiffly and was grate­ful when he turned on his heel and
    walked back into the house. I stayed where I was —star­ing at the vast, sprawl­ing gar­dens spread out
    before me.
    It would take me days to walk the length of them to find a way out of the estate. Sure­ly there were
    guardians or sen­tinel beasts of some sort, lurk­ing in the depths of the for­est or wad­ing in the riv­er that
    snaked through the prop­er­ty.
    Even with Alis’s warn­ings that any­thing on the grounds might kill me out­right, I didn’t linger on the
    man­i­cured steps. A sharp lemo­ny twang lift­ed with the warm breeze as I began my self-imposed tour
    of the grounds. elsa

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    change from our father’s estate wouldn’t have made any dif­fer­ence in our lives,
    but I nev­er did. She didn’t like talk­ing about the com­pa­ny. She didn’t like
    talk­ing about any­thing hav­ing to do with Andrea and her girls, except in the
    broad­est pos­si­ble strokes of opin­ion, for instance, that they were thieves and
    liars and undoubt­ed­ly rot­ting in hell, a propo­si­tion she offered as if we were
    dis­cussing the weath­er, or the price of tea.
    When I packed my suit­case, I left room for the cam­era; it was the only thing I
    want­ed to bring with me to Choate, apart from my clothes. I would take
    pic­tures of the snow and the sea­sons as they turned, and mail them back to
    Maeve. I knew what she had giv­en up, what both our par­ents had giv­en up, so that
    I could stay on the land­ed earth. Maeve had giv­en up the world, but the two of us
    togeth­er would always be in delin­quent pos­ses­sion of one old cam­era.

    The chap­ter tra­vers­es the com­plex emo­tion­al land­scape of a broth­er and sis­ter nav­i­gat­ing the chal­lenges of loss, dis­place­ment, and the tenac­i­ty of fam­i­ly bonds. Maeve and the nar­ra­tor are thrown into a world where they must reck­on with the real­i­ty of their sud­den pover­ty and dis­in­her­i­tance, despite their father’s then-appar­ent wealth and real estate suc­cess. The chap­ter vivid­ly por­trays the awk­ward­ness of grief, the bit­ter­ness of betray­al, and the tenac­i­ty of hope as the two sib­lings attempt to rebuild their lives with the mea­ger left­overs of their once-lav­ish lifestyle. Their jour­ney is marked by legal entan­gle­ments that bring to light their father’s naivety and lack of prepa­ra­tion for the future, expos­ing them to the mer­cies of their step­moth­er’s greed. Despite the bleak cir­cum­stance, there’s an under­cur­rent of resilience and indomitable spir­it as Maeve and the nar­ra­tor sketch out a path toward recov­er­ing their agency and forge ahead with uncer­tain hope for what lies beyond the imme­di­ate hori­zon of their strug­gles.

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    In Chap­ter 7, we are intro­duced to a poignant slice of life in rur­al Ken­tucky dur­ing the late nine­teenth and the ear­ly twen­ti­eth cen­turies, focus­ing on the exploita­tion of land rights and the impact of min­ing on the local envi­ron­ment and com­mu­ni­ties. The nar­ra­tive inter­twines his­tor­i­cal con­text with the per­son­al sto­ries of the Horner fam­i­ly and Alice, a librar­i­an who makes week­ly vis­its to the Horners, illu­mi­nat­ing the pow­er of lit­er­a­cy and the trans­for­ma­tive impact of access to books. Mae Horner, a young, intel­li­gent girl, show­cas­es her new­ly acquired read­ing skills and shares her suc­cess in mak­ing a peach pie, sym­bol­iz­ing the small yet sig­nif­i­cant vic­to­ries in a life con­strained by geo­graph­ic iso­la­tion and eco­nom­ic hard­ship. Mean­while, Alice expe­ri­ences the com­plex­i­ties of her role in the com­mu­ni­ty, nav­i­gat­ing the land­scape of Appalachi­an Ken­tucky with care and resilience. The chap­ter also high­lights the strug­gles against cor­po­rate greed, through a nar­ra­tive that weaves togeth­er per­son­al loss­es, com­mu­ni­ty sol­i­dar­i­ty and activism.

    The emo­tion­al depth of the chap­ter is fur­ther enriched through the explo­ration of Alice’s char­ac­ter, grap­pling with her place in a land­scape far removed from her expec­ta­tions, sym­bol­ized by her encounter with a skunk and the kind­ness of Fred Guisler. Their inter­ac­tion, set against the back­drop of a local event fea­tur­ing Tex Lafayette, a pop­u­lar cow­boy singer, allows for a deep­er explo­ration of Alice’s iso­la­tion, not just from the com­mu­ni­ty but with­in her own mar­riage. The inci­dent involv­ing the skunk, while humor­ous on the sur­face, expos­es the under­ly­ing ten­sion and alien­ation Alice feels, cul­mi­nat­ing in a pow­er­ful encounter that forces her to con­front the harsh real­i­ties of racism and vio­lence in the com­mu­ni­ty, as well as the com­pas­sion and sol­i­dar­i­ty amongst its mem­bers.

    This chap­ter seam­less­ly blends his­tor­i­cal con­text with deeply per­son­al nar­ra­tives, high­light­ing the trans­for­ma­tive pow­er of edu­ca­tion, the resilience of com­mu­ni­ties faced with envi­ron­men­tal and eco­nom­ic exploita­tion, and the com­plex inter­play between per­son­al and com­mu­ni­ty iden­ti­ty. Through the lens of a small Ken­tucky com­mu­ni­ty, the nar­ra­tive delves into themes of lit­er­a­cy, envi­ron­men­tal activism, com­mu­ni­ty sol­i­dar­i­ty, and per­son­al growth, all while explor­ing the intri­cate rela­tion­ships that define and sus­tain these rur­al inhab­i­tants against a back­drop of his­tor­i­cal and envi­ron­men­tal chal­lenges.

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    Upon descend­ing to the kitchen, the scene is one of utter chaos. Nina, in the throes of hav­oc, has dis­as­sem­bled the con­tents of the kitchen, scat­ter­ing pots, pans, and bro­ken dish­es across the floor. Amidst her fren­zied search through the refrig­er­a­tor, she launch­es a con­tain­er of milk onto the floor, cre­at­ing a milky mael­strom amidst the kitchen­ware ruins.

    Her agi­ta­tion peaks upon spot­ting me, as she des­per­ate­ly inquires about the where­abouts of her miss­ing notes for the evening’s PTA meet­ing. Con­vinced they van­ished from the kitchen counter, her dis­tress is pal­pa­ble. Despite my uncer­tain­ty regard­ing their fate, I deny any knowl­edge of their dis­ap­pear­ance. My sug­ges­tions of alter­na­tive loca­tions for the notes only fuel her frus­tra­tion.

    The com­mo­tion sum­mons Andrew Win­ches­ter, Nina’s hus­band, whose entrance in a suave suit con­trasts sharply with the tur­moil. Observ­ing the destruc­tion, his con­cern turns towards Nina, who accus­es me of dis­card­ing her cru­cial notes. Although I attempt to defend myself, Nina’s con­vic­tion and Andrew’s pres­ence ren­der my efforts futile.

    Andrew, try­ing to mit­i­gate the dis­tress, hints at a par­tial dig­i­tal sal­va­tion of the notes, yet Nina’s dis­sat­is­fac­tion redi­rects towards me, assign­ing me the task of clean­ing the kitchen’s dev­as­ta­tion as resti­tu­tion. Seiz­ing the moment, she departs, leav­ing me to pon­der the daunt­ing cleanup ahead, a mosa­ic of kitchen­ware and dairy under­foot.

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    You are being pro­vid­ed with a book chap­ter by chap­ter. I will request you to read the book for me after each chap­ter. After read­ing the chap­ter, 1. short­en the chap­ter to no less than 300 words and no more than 400 words. 2. Do not change the name, address, or any impor­tant nouns in the chap­ter. 3. Do not trans­late the orig­i­nal lan­guage. 4. Keep the same style as the orig­i­nal chap­ter, keep it con­sis­tent through­out the chap­ter. Your reply must com­ply with all four require­ments, or it’s invalid.
    I will pro­vide the chap­ter now.

    CHAPTER
    7
    War.
    The word clanged through me, freez­ing my veins.
    “Don’t invade,” I breathed. I’d get on my knees for this. I’d crawl if I had
    to. “Don’t invade—please.”
    Rhys cocked his head, his mouth tight­en­ing. “You tru­ly think I’m a
    mon­ster, even after every­thing.”
    “Please,” I gasped out. “They’re defense­less, they won’t stand a chance
    —”
    “I’m not going to invade the mor­tal lands,” he said too qui­et­ly.
    I wait­ed for him to go on, glad for the spa­cious room, the bright air, as
    the ground start­ed to slide out from beneath me.
    “Put your damn shield up,” he growled.
    I looked inward, find­ing that invis­i­ble wall had dropped again. But I was
    so tired, and if war was com­ing, if my fam­i­ly—
    “Shield. Now.”
    The raw com­mand in his voice—the voice of the High Lord of the Night
    Court—had me act­ing on instinct, my exhaust­ed mind build­ing the wall
    brick by brick. Only when it’d ensconced my mind once more did he speak,
    his eyes soft­en­ing almost imper­cep­ti­bly. “Did you think it would end with
    Ama­ran­tha?”
    “Tam­lin hasn’t said … ” And why would he tell me? But there were so
    many patrols, so many meet­ings I wasn’t allowed to attend, such … ten­sion.
    He had to know. I need­ed to ask him—demand why he hadn’t told me—
    “The King of Hybern has been plan­ning his cam­paign to reclaim the
    world south of the wall for over a hun­dred years,” Rhys said. “Ama­ran­tha
    was an experiment—a forty-nine-year test, to see how eas­i­ly and how long
    a ter­ri­to­ry might fall and be con­trolled by one of his com­man­ders.”
    For an immor­tal, forty-nine years was noth­ing. I wouldn’t have been
    sur­prised to hear he’d been plan­ning this for far longer than a cen­tu­ry. “Will
    he attack Pry­thi­an first?”
    “Pry­thi­an,” Rhys said, point­ing to the map of our mas­sive island on the
    table, “is all that stands between the King of Hybern and the con­ti­nent. He
    wants to reclaim the human lands there—perhaps seize the faerie lands, too.
    If any­one is to inter­cept his con­quer­ing fleet before it reach­es the con­ti­nent,
    it would be us.”
    I slid into one of the chairs, my knees wob­bling so bad­ly I could hard­ly
    keep upright.
    “He will seek to remove Pry­thi­an from his way swift­ly and thor­ough­ly,”
    Rhys con­tin­ued. “And shat­ter the wall at some point in the process. There
    are already holes in it, though mer­ci­ful­ly small enough to make it dif­fi­cult
    to swift­ly pass his armies through. He’ll want to bring the whole thing
    down—and like­ly use the ensu­ing pan­ic to his advan­tage.”
    Each breath was like swal­low­ing glass. “When—when is he going to
    attack?” The wall had held steady for five cen­turies, and even then, those
    damned holes had allowed the foulest, hun­gri­est Fae beasts to sneak
    through and prey on humans. With­out that wall, if Hybern was indeed to
    launch an assult on the human world … I wished I hadn’t eat­en such a large
    break­fast.
    “That is the ques­tion,” he said. “And why I brought you here.”
    I lift­ed my head to meet his stare. His face was drawn, but calm.
    “I don’t know when or where he plans to attack Pry­thi­an,” Rhys went on.
    “I don’t know who his allies here might be.”
    “He’d have allies here?”
    A slow nod. “Cow­ards who would bow and join him, rather than fight his
    armies again.”
    I could have sworn a whis­per of dark­ness spread along the floor behind
    him. “Did … did you fight in the War?”
    For a moment, I thought he wouldn’t answer. But then Rhys nod­ded. “I
    was young—by our stan­dards, at least. But my father had sent aid to the
    mor­tal-faerie alliance on the con­ti­nent, and I con­vinced him to let me take a
    legion of our sol­diers.” He sat in the chair beside mine, gaz­ing vacant­ly at
    the map. “I was sta­tioned in the south, right where the fight­ing was thick­est.
    The slaugh­ter was … ” He chewed on the inside of his cheek. “I have no
    inter­est in ever see­ing full-scale slaugh­ter like that again.”
    He blinked, as if clear­ing the hor­rors from his mind. “But I don’t think
    the King of Hybern will strike that way—not at first. He’s too smart to
    waste his forces here, to give the con­ti­nent time to ral­ly while we fight him.
    If he makes his move to destroy Pry­thi­an and the wall, it’ll be through
    stealth and trick­ery. To weak­en us. Ama­ran­tha was the first part of that plan.
    We now have sev­er­al untest­ed High Lords, bro­ken courts with High
    Priest­esses angling for con­trol like wolves around a car­cass, and a peo­ple
    who have real­ized how pow­er­less they might tru­ly be.”
    “Why are you telling me this?” I said, my voice thin, scratchy. It made no
    sense—none—that he would reveal his sus­pi­cions, his fears.
    And Ianthe—she might be ambi­tious, but she was Tamlin’s friend. My
    friend, of sorts. Per­haps the only ally we’d have against the oth­er High
    Priest­esses, Rhys’s per­son­al dis­like for her or no …
    “I am telling you for two rea­sons,” he said, his face so cold, so calm, that
    it unnerved me as much as the news he was deliv­er­ing. “One, you’re …
    close to Tam­lin. He has men—but he also has long-exist­ing ties to Hybern
    —”
    “He’d nev­er help the king—”
    Rhys held up a hand. “I want to know if Tam­lin is will­ing to fight with
    us. If he can use those con­nec­tions to our advan­tage. As he and I have
    strained rela­tions, you have the plea­sure of being the go-between.”
    “He doesn’t inform me of those things.”
    “Per­haps it’s time he did. Per­haps it’s time you insist­ed.” He exam­ined
    the map, and I fol­lowed where his gaze land­ed. On the wall with­in Pry­thi­an
    —on the small, vul­ner­a­ble mor­tal ter­ri­to­ry. My mouth went dry.
    “What is your oth­er rea­son?”
    Rhys looked me up and down, assess­ing, weigh­ing. “You have a skill set
    that I need. Rumor has it you caught a Suriel.”
    “It wasn’t that hard.”
    “I’ve tried and failed. Twice. But that’s a dis­cus­sion for anoth­er day. I
    saw you trap the Mid­den­gard Wyrm like a rab­bit.” His eyes twin­kled. “I
    need you to help me. To use those skills of yours to track down what I
    need.”
    “What do you need? What­ev­er was tied to my read­ing and shield­ing, I’m
    guess­ing?”
    “You’ll learn of that lat­er.”
    I didn’t know why I’d even both­ered to ask. “There have to be at least a
    dozen oth­er hunters more expe­ri­enced and skilled—”
    “Maybe there are. But you’re the only one I trust.”
    I blinked. “I could betray you when­ev­er I feel like it.”
    “You could. But you won’t.” I grit­ted my teeth, and was about to say
    some­thing vicious when he added, “And then there’s the mat­ter of your
    pow­ers.”
    “I don’t have any pow­ers.” It came out so fast that there was no chance of
    it sound­ing like any­thing but denial.
    Rhys crossed his legs. “Don’t you? The strength, the speed … If I didn’t
    know bet­ter, I’d say you and Tam­lin were doing a very good job of
    pre­tend­ing you’re nor­mal. That the pow­ers you’re dis­play­ing aren’t usu­al­ly
    the first indi­ca­tions among our kind that a High Lord’s son might become
    his Heir.”
    “I’m not a High Lord.”
    “No, but you were giv­en life by all sev­en of us. Your very essence is tied
    to us, born of us. What if we gave you more than we expect­ed?” Again, that
    gaze raked over me. “What if you could stand against us—hold your own, a
    High Lady?”
    “There are no High Ladies.”
    His brows fur­rowed, but he shook his head. “We’ll talk about that lat­er,
    too. But yes, Feyre—there can be High Ladies. And per­haps you aren’t one
    of them, but … what if you were some­thing sim­i­lar? What if you were able
    to wield the pow­er of sev­en High Lords at once? What if you could blend
    into dark­ness, or shape-shift, or freeze over an entire room—an entire
    army?”
    The win­ter wind on the near­by peaks seemed to howl in answer. That
    thing I’d felt under my skin …
    “Do you under­stand what that might mean in an oncom­ing war? Do you
    under­stand how it might destroy you if you don’t learn to con­trol it?”
    “One, stop ask­ing so many rhetor­i­cal ques­tions. Two, we don’t know if I
    do have these pow­ers—”
    “You do. But you need to start mas­ter­ing them. To learn what you
    inher­it­ed from us.”
    “And I sup­pose you’re the one to teach me, too? Read­ing and shield­ing
    aren’t enough?”
    “While you hunt with me for what I need, yes.”
    I began shak­ing my head. “Tam­lin won’t allow it.”
    “Tam­lin isn’t your keep­er, and you know it.”
    “I’m his sub­ject, and he is my High Lord—”
    “You are no one’s sub­ject.”
    I went rigid at the flash of teeth, the smoke-like wings that flared out.
    “I will say this once—and only once,” Rhysand purred, stalk­ing to the
    map on the wall. “You can be a pawn, be someone’s reward, and spend the
    rest of your immor­tal life bow­ing and scrap­ing and pre­tend­ing you’re less
    than him, than Ianthe, than any of us. If you want to pick that road, then
    fine. A shame, but it’s your choice.” The shad­ow of wings rip­pled again.
    “But I know you—more than you real­ize, I think—and I don’t believe for
    one damn minute that you’re remote­ly fine with being a pret­ty tro­phy for
    some­one who sat on his ass for near­ly fifty years, then sat on his ass while
    you were shred­ded apart—”
    “Stop it—”
    “Or,” he plowed ahead, “you’ve got anoth­er choice. You can mas­ter
    what­ev­er pow­ers we gave to you, and make it count. You can play a role in
    this war. Because war is com­ing one way or anoth­er, and do not try to
    delude your­self that any of the Fae will give a shit about your fam­i­ly across
    the wall when our whole ter­ri­to­ry is like­ly to become a char­nel house.”
    I stared at the map—at Pry­thi­an, and that sliv­er of land at its south­ern
    base.
    “You want to save the mor­tal realm?” he asked. “Then become some­one
    Pry­thi­an lis­tens to. Become vital. Become a weapon. Because there might
    be a day, Feyre, when only you stand between the King of Hybern and your
    human fam­i­ly. And you do not want to be unpre­pared.”
    I lift­ed my gaze to him, my breath tight, aching.
    As if he hadn’t just knocked the world from beneath my feet, Rhysand
    said, “Think it over. Take the week. Ask Tam­lin, if it’ll make you sleep
    bet­ter. See what charm­ing Ianthe says about it. But it’s your choice to make
    —no one else’s.”
    I didn’t see Rhysand for the rest of the week. Or Mor.
    The only peo­ple I encoun­tered were Nuala and Cer­rid­wen, who deliv­ered
    my meals, made my bed, and occa­sion­al­ly asked how I was far­ing.
    The only evi­dence I had at all that Rhys remained on the premis­es were
    the blank copies of the alpha­bet, along with sev­er­al sen­tences I was to write
    every day, swap­ping out words, each one more obnox­ious than the last:
    Rhysand is the most hand­some High Lord.
    Rhysand is the most delight­ful High Lord.
    Rhysand is the most cun­ning High Lord.
    Every day, one mis­er­able sentence—with one chang­ing word of vary­ing
    arro­gance and van­i­ty. And every day, anoth­er sim­ple set of instruc­tions:
    shield up, shield down; shield up, shield down. Over and over and over.
    How he knew if I obeyed or not, I didn’t care—but I threw myself into
    my lessons, I raised and low­ered and thick­ened those men­tal shields. If only
    because it was all I had to do.
    My night­mares left me grog­gy, sweaty—but the room was so open, the
    starlight so bright that when I’d jerk awake, I didn’t rush to the toi­let. No
    walls push­ing in around me, no inky dark­ness. I knew where I was. Even if
    I resent­ed being there.
    The day before our week final­ly fin­ished, I was trudg­ing to my usu­al
    lit­tle table, already gri­mac­ing at what delight­ful sen­tences I’d find wait­ing
    and all the men­tal acro­bat­ics ahead, when Rhys’s and Mor’s voic­es float­ed
    toward me.
    It was a pub­lic space, so I didn’t both­er mask­ing my foot­steps as I neared
    where they spoke in one of the sit­ting areas, Rhys pac­ing before the open
    plunge off the moun­tain, Mor loung­ing in a cream-col­ored arm­chair.
    “Azriel would want to know that,” Mor was say­ing.
    “Azriel can go to hell,” Rhys sniped back. “He like­ly already knows,
    any­way.”
    “We played games the last time,” Mor said with a seri­ous­ness that made
    me pause a healthy dis­tance away, “and we lost. Bad­ly. We’re not going to
    do that again.”
    “You should be work­ing,” was Rhysand’s only response. “I gave you
    con­trol for a rea­son, you know.”
    Mor’s jaw tight­ened, and she at last faced me. She gave me a smile that
    was more of a cringe.
    Rhys turned, frown­ing at me. “Say what it is you came here to say, Mor,”
    he said tight­ly, resum­ing his pac­ing.
    Mor rolled her eyes for my ben­e­fit, but her face turned solemn as she
    said, “There was anoth­er attack—at a tem­ple in Cesere. Almost every
    priest­ess slain, the trove loot­ed.”
    Rhys halt­ed. And I didn’t know what to process: her news, or the utter
    rage con­veyed in one word as Rhys said, “Who.”
    “We don’t know,” Mor said. “Same tracks as last time: small group,
    bod­ies that showed signs of wounds from large blades, and no trace of
    where they came from and how they dis­ap­peared. No sur­vivors. The bod­ies
    weren’t even found until a day lat­er, when a group of pil­grims came by.”
    By the Caul­dron. I must have made some tiny noise, because Mor gave
    me a strained, but sym­pa­thet­ic look.
    Rhys, though … First the shad­ows started—plumes of them from his
    back.
    And then, as if his rage had loos­ened his grip on that beast he’d once told
    me he hat­ed to yield to, those wings became flesh.
    Great, beau­ti­ful, bru­tal wings, mem­bra­nous and clawed like a bat’s, dark
    as night and strong as hell. Even the way he stood seemed altered—steadier,
    ground­ed. Like some final piece of him had clicked into place. But
    Rhysand’s voice was still mid­night-soft and he said, “What did Azriel have
    to say about it?”
    Again, that glance from Mor, as if unsure I should be present for
    what­ev­er this con­ver­sa­tion was. “He’s pissed. Cass­ian even more so—he’s
    con­vinced it must be one of the rogue Illyr­i­an war-bands, intent on win­ning
    new ter­ri­to­ry.”
    “It’s some­thing to con­sid­er,” Rhys mused. “Some of the Illyr­i­an clans
    glee­ful­ly bowed to Ama­ran­tha dur­ing those years. Try­ing to expand their
    bor­ders could be their way of see­ing how far they can push me and get
    away with it.” I hat­ed the sound of her name, focused on it more than the
    infor­ma­tion he was allow­ing me to glean.
    “Cass­ian and Az are wait­ing—” She cut her­self off and gave me an
    apolo­getic wince. “They’re wait­ing in the usu­al spot for your orders.”
    Fine—that was fine. I’d seen that blank map on the wall. I was an
    enemy’s bride. Even men­tion­ing where his forces were sta­tioned, what they
    were up to, might be dan­ger­ous. I had no idea where Cesere even was—
    what it was, actu­al­ly.
    Rhys stud­ied the open air again, the howl­ing wind that shoved dark,
    roil­ing clouds over the dis­tant peaks. Good weath­er, I real­ized, for fly­ing.
    “Win­now­ing in would be eas­i­er,” Mor said, fol­low­ing the High Lord’s
    gaze.
    “Tell the pricks I’ll be there in a few hours,” he mere­ly said.
    Mor gave me a wary grin, and van­ished.
    I stud­ied the emp­ty space where she’d been, not a trace of her left behind.
    “How does that … van­ish­ing work?” I said soft­ly. I’d seen only a few
    High Fae do it—and no one had ever explained.
    Rhys didn’t look at me, but he said, “Win­now­ing? Think of it as … two
    dif­fer­ent points on a piece of cloth. One point is your cur­rent place in the
    world. The oth­er one across the cloth is where you want to go. Win­now­ing
    … it’s like fold­ing that cloth so the two spots align. The mag­ic does the
    folding—and all we do is take a step to get from one place to anoth­er.
    Some­times it’s a long step, and you can feel the dark fab­ric of the world as
    you pass through it. A short­er step, let’s say from one end of the room to the
    oth­er, would bare­ly reg­is­ter. It’s a rare gift, and a help­ful one. Though only
    the stronger Fae can do it. The more pow­er­ful you are, the far­ther you can
    jump between places in one go.”
    I knew the expla­na­tion was as much for my ben­e­fit as it was to dis­tract
    him­self. But I found myself say­ing, “I’m sor­ry about the temple—and the
    priest­esses.”
    The wrath still glim­mered in those eyes as he at last turned to me. “Plen­ty
    more peo­ple are going to die soon enough, any­way.”
    Maybe that was why he’d allowed me to get close, to over­hear this
    con­ver­sa­tion. To remind me of what might very well hap­pen with Hybern.
    “What are … ‚” I tried. “What are Illyr­i­an war-bands?”
    “Arro­gant bas­tards, that’s what,” he mut­tered.
    I crossed my arms, wait­ing.
    Rhys stretched his wings, the sun­light set­ting the leath­ery tex­ture
    glow­ing with sub­tle col­or. “They’re a war­rior-race with­in my lands. And
    gen­er­al pains in my ass.”
    “Some of them sup­port­ed Ama­ran­tha?”
    Dark­ness danced in the hall as that dis­tant storm grew close enough to
    smoth­er the sun. “Some. But me and mine have enjoyed our­selves hunt­ing
    them down these past few months. And end­ing them.”
    Slow­ly was the word he didn’t need to add.
    “That’s why you stayed away—you were busy with that?”
    “I was busy with many things.”
    Not an answer. But it seemed he was done talk­ing to me, and who­ev­er
    Cass­ian and Azriel were, meet­ing with them was far more impor­tant.
    So Rhys didn’t as much as say good-bye before he sim­ply walked off the
    edge of the veranda—into thin air.
    My heart stopped dead, but before I could cry out, he swept past, swift as
    the wicked wind between the peaks. A few boom­ing wing beats had him
    van­ish­ing into the storm clouds.
    “Good-bye to you, too,” I grum­bled, giv­ing him a vul­gar ges­ture, and
    start­ed my work for the day, with only the storm rag­ing beyond the house’s
    shield for com­pa­ny.
    Even as snow lashed the pro­tec­tive mag­ic of the hall, even as I toiled
    over the sentences—Rhysand is inter­est­ing; Rhysand is gor­geous; Rhysand
    is flawless—and raised and low­ered my men­tal shield until my mind was
    limp­ing, I thought of what I’d heard, what they’d said.
    I won­dered what Ianthe would know about the mur­ders, if she knew any
    of the vic­tims. Knew what Cesere was. If tem­ples were being tar­get­ed, she
    should know. Tam­lin should know.
    That final night, I could bare­ly sleep—half from relief, half from ter­ror
    that per­haps Rhysand real­ly did have some final, nasty sur­prise in store. But
    the night and the storm passed, and when dawn broke, I was dressed before
    the sun had ful­ly risen.
    I’d tak­en to eat­ing in my rooms, but I swept up the stairs, head­ing across
    that mas­sive open area, to the table at the far veran­da.
    Sprawled in his usu­al chair, Rhys was in the same clothes as yes­ter­day,
    the col­lar of his black jack­et unbut­toned, the shirt as rum­pled as his hair. No
    wings, for­tu­nate­ly. I won­dered if he’d just returned from wher­ev­er he’d met
    Mor and the oth­ers. Won­dered what he’d learned.
    “It’s been a week,” I said by way of greet­ing. “Take me home.”
    Rhys took a long sip of what­ev­er was in his cup. It didn’t look like tea.
    “Good morn­ing, Feyre.”
    “Take me home.”
    He stud­ied my teal and gold clothes, a vari­a­tion of my dai­ly attire. If I
    had to admit, I didn’t mind them. “That col­or suits you.”
    “Do you want me to say please? Is that it?”
    “I want you to talk to me like a per­son. Start with ‘good morn­ing’ and
    let’s see where it gets us.”
    “Good morn­ing.”
    A faint smile. Bas­tard. “Are you ready to face the con­se­quences of your
    depar­ture?”
    I straight­ened. I hadn’t thought about the wed­ding. All week, yes, but
    today … today I’d only thought of Tam­lin, of want­i­ng to see him, hold him,
    ask him about every­thing Rhys had claimed. Dur­ing the past sev­er­al days, I
    hadn’t shown any signs of the pow­er Rhysand believed I had, hadn’t felt
    any­thing stir­ring beneath my skin—and thank the Caul­dron.
    “It’s none of your busi­ness.”
    “Right. You’ll prob­a­bly ignore it, any­way. Sweep it under the rug, like
    every­thing else.”
    “No one asked for your opin­ion, Rhysand.”
    “Rhysand?” He chuck­led, low and soft. “I give you a week of lux­u­ry and
    you call me Rhysand?”
    “I didn’t ask to be here, or be giv­en that week.”
    “And yet look at you. Your face has some color—and those marks under
    your eyes are almost gone. Your men­tal shield is stel­lar, by the way.”
    “Please take me home.”
    He shrugged and rose. “I’ll tell Mor you said good-bye.”
    “I bare­ly saw her all week.” Just that first meeting—then that
    con­ver­sa­tion yes­ter­day. When we hadn’t exchanged two words.
    “She was wait­ing for an invitation—she didn’t want to pester you. I wish
    she extend­ed me the same cour­tesy.”
    “No one told me.” I didn’t par­tic­u­lar­ly care. No doubt she had bet­ter
    things to do, any­way.
    “You didn’t ask. And why both­er? Bet­ter to be mis­er­able and alone.” He
    approached, each step smooth, grace­ful. His hair was def­i­nite­ly ruf­fled, as if
    he’d been drag­ging his hands through it. Or just fly­ing for hours to
    what­ev­er secret spot. “Have you thought about my offer?”
    “I’ll let you know next month.”
    He stopped a hand’s breadth away, his gold­en face tight. “I told you once,
    and I’ll tell you again,” he said. “I am not your ene­my.”
    “And I told you once, so I’ll tell you again. You’re Tamlin’s ene­my. So I
    sup­pose that makes you mine.”
    “Does it?”
    “Free me from my bar­gain and let’s find out.”
    “I can’t do that.”
    “Can’t, or won’t?”
    He just extend­ed his hand. “Shall we go?”
    I near­ly lunged for it. His fin­gers were cool, sturdy—callused from
    weapons I’d nev­er seen on him.
    Dark­ness gob­bled us up, and it was instinct to grab him as the world
    van­ished from beneath my feet. Win­now­ing indeed. Wind tore at me, and
    his arm was a warm, heavy weight across my back while we tum­bled
    through realms, Rhys snick­er­ing at my ter­ror.
    But then sol­id ground—flagstones—were under me, then blind­ing
    sun­shine above, green­ery, lit­tle birds chirp­ing—
    I shoved away from him, blink­ing at the bright­ness, at the mas­sive oak
    hunched over us. An oak at the edge of the for­mal gardens—of home.
    I made to bolt for the manor house, but Rhys gripped my wrist. His eyes
    flashed between me and the manor. “Good luck,” he crooned.
    “Get your hand off me.”
    He chuck­led, let­ting go.
    “I’ll see you next month,” he said, and before I could spit on him, he
    van­ished.
    I found Tam­lin in his study, Lucien and two oth­er sen­tries stand­ing around
    the map-cov­ered work­table.
    Lucien was the first to turn to where I lurked in the door­way, falling
    silent mid-sen­tence. But then Tamlin’s head snapped up, and he was rac­ing
    across the room, so fast that I hard­ly had time to draw breath before he was
    crush­ing me against him.
    I mur­mured his name as my throat burned, and then—
    Then he was hold­ing me at arm’s length, scan­ning me from head to toe.
    “Are you all right? Are you hurt?”
    “I’m fine,” I said, notic­ing the exact moment when he real­ized the Night
    Court clothes I was wear­ing, the strip of bare skin exposed at my midriff.
    “No one touched me.”
    But he kept scour­ing my face, my neck. And then he rotat­ed me,
    exam­in­ing my back, as if he could dis­cern through the clothes. I tore out of
    his grip. “I said no one touched me.”
    He was breath­ing hard, his eyes wild. “You’re all right,” he said. And
    then said it again. And again.
    My heart cracked, and I reached to cup his cheek. “Tam­lin,” I mur­mured.
    Lucien and the oth­er sen­tries, wise­ly, made their exit. My friend caught my
    gaze as he left, giv­ing me a relieved smile.
    “He can harm you in oth­er ways,” Tam­lin croaked, clos­ing his eyes
    against my touch.
    “I know—but I’m all right. I tru­ly am,” I said as gen­tly as I could. And
    then noticed the study walls—the claw marks raked down them. All over
    them. And the table they’d been using … that was new. “You trashed the
    study.”
    “I trashed half the house,” he said, lean­ing for­ward to press his brow to
    mine. “He took you away, he stole you—”
    “And left me alone.”
    Tam­lin pulled back, growl­ing. “Prob­a­bly to get you to drop your guard.
    You have no idea what games he plays, what he’s capa­ble of doing—”
    “I know,” I said, even as it tast­ed like ash on my tongue. “And the next
    time, I’ll be care­ful—”
    “There won’t be a next time.”
    I blinked. “You found a way out?” Or per­haps Ianthe had.
    “I’m not let­ting you go.”
    “He said there were con­se­quences for break­ing a mag­i­cal bar­gain.”
    “Damn the con­se­quences.” But I heard it for the emp­ty threat it was—
    and how much it destroyed him. That was who he was, what he was:
    pro­tec­tor, defend­er. I couldn’t ask him to stop being that way—to stop
    wor­ry­ing about me.
    I rose onto my toes and kissed him. There was so much I want­ed to ask
    him, but—later. “Let’s go upstairs,” I said onto his lips, and he slid his arms
    around me.
    “I missed you,” he said between kiss­es. “I went out of my mind.”
    That was all I need­ed to hear. Until—
    “I need to ask you some ques­tions.”
    I let out a low sound of affir­ma­tion, but angled my head fur­ther. “Lat­er.”
    His body was so warm, so hard against mine, his scent so famil­iar—
    Tam­lin gripped my waist, press­ing his brow to my own. “No—now,” he
    said, but groaned soft­ly as I slid my tongue against his teeth. “While … ”
    He pulled back, rip­ping his mouth from mine. “While it’s all fresh in your
    mind.”
    I froze, one hand tan­gled in his hair, the oth­er grip­ping the back of his
    tunic. “What?”
    Tam­lin stepped back, shak­ing his head as if to clear the desire addling his
    sens­es. We hadn’t been apart for so long since Ama­ran­tha, and he want­ed to
    press me for infor­ma­tion about the Night Court? “Tam­lin.”
    But he held up a hand, his eyes locked on mine as he called for Lucien.
    In the moments that it took for his emis­sary to appear, I straight­ened my
    clothes—the top that had rid­den up my torso—and fin­ger-combed my hair.
    Tam­lin just strode to his desk and plopped down, motion­ing for me to take a
    seat in front of it. “I’m sor­ry,” he said qui­et­ly, as Lucien’s strolling foot­steps
    neared again. “This is for our own good. Our safe­ty.”
    I took in the shred­ded walls, the scuffed and chipped fur­ni­ture. What
    night­mares had he suf­fered, wak­ing and asleep, while I was away? What
    had it been like, to imag­ine me in his enemy’s hands, after see­ing what
    Ama­ran­tha had done to me?
    “I know,” I mur­mured at last. “I know, Tam­lin.” Or I was try­ing to know.
    I’d just slid into the low-backed chair when Lucien strode in, shut­ting the
    door behind him. “Glad to see you in one piece, Feyre,” he said, claim­ing
    the seat beside me. “I could do with­out the Night Court attire, though.”
    Tam­lin gave a low growl of agree­ment. I said noth­ing. Yet I under­stood
    —I real­ly did—why it’d be an affront to them.
    Tam­lin and Lucien exchanged glances, speak­ing with­out utter­ing a word
    in that way only peo­ple who had been part­ners for cen­turies could do.
    Lucien gave a slight nod and leaned back in his chair—to lis­ten, to observe.
    “We need you to tell us every­thing,” Tam­lin said. “The lay­out of the
    Night Court, who you saw, what weapons and pow­ers they bore, what Rhys
    did, who he spoke to, any and every detail you can recall.”
    “I didn’t real­ize I was a spy.”
    Lucien shift­ed in his seat, but Tam­lin said, “As much as I hate your
    bar­gain, you’ve been grant­ed access into the Night Court. Out­siders rarely
    get to go in—and if they do, they rarely come out in one piece. And if they
    can func­tion, their mem­o­ries are usu­al­ly … scram­bled. What­ev­er Rhysand
    is hid­ing in there, he doesn’t want us know­ing about it.”
    A chill slith­ered down my spine. “Why do you want to know? What are
    you going to do?”
    “Know­ing my enemy’s plans, his lifestyle, is vital. As for what we’re
    going to do … That’s nei­ther here nor there.” His green eyes pinned me.
    “Start with the lay­out of the court. Is it true it’s under a moun­tain?”
    “This feels an awful lot like an inter­ro­ga­tion.”
    Lucien sucked in a breath, but remained silent.
    Tam­lin spread his hands on the desk. “We need to know these things,
    Feyre. Or—or can you not remem­ber?” Claws glint­ed at his knuck­les.
    “I can remem­ber every­thing,” I said. “He didn’t dam­age my mind.” And
    before he could ques­tion me fur­ther, I began to speak of all that I had seen.
    Because I trust you, Rhysand had said. And maybe—maybe he had
    scram­bled my mind, even with the lessons in shield­ing, because describ­ing
    the lay­out of his home, his court, the moun­tains around them, felt like
    bathing in oil and mud. He was my ene­my, he was hold­ing me to a bar­gain
    I’d made from pure des­per­a­tion—
    I kept talk­ing, describ­ing that tow­er room. Tam­lin grilled me on the
    fig­ures on the maps, mak­ing me turn over every word Rhysand had uttered,
    until I men­tioned what had weighed on me the most this past week: the
    pow­ers Rhys believed I now pos­sessed … and Hybern’s plans. I told him
    about that con­ver­sa­tion with Mor—about that tem­ple being sacked (Cesere,
    Tam­lin explained, was a north­ern out­post in the Night Court, and one of the
    few known towns), and Rhysand men­tion­ing two peo­ple named Cass­ian
    and Azriel. Both of their faces had tight­ened at that, but they didn’t men­tion
    if they knew them, or of them. So I told him about what­ev­er the Illyr­i­ans
    were—and how Rhys had hunt­ed down and killed the trai­tors amongst
    them. When I fin­ished, Tam­lin was silent, Lucien prac­ti­cal­ly buzzing with
    what­ev­er repressed words he was dying to spew.
    “Do you think I might have those abil­i­ties?” I said, will­ing myself to hold
    his gaze.
    “It’s pos­si­ble,” Tam­lin said with equal qui­et. “And if it’s true … ”
    Lucien said at last, “It’s a pow­er oth­er High Lords might kill for.” It was
    an effort not to fid­get while his met­al eye whirred, as if detect­ing what­ev­er
    pow­er ran through my blood. “My father, for one, would not be pleased to
    learn a drop of his pow­er is missing—or that Tamlin’s bride now has it.
    He’d do any­thing to make sure you don’t pos­sess it—including kill you.
    There are oth­er High Lords who would agree.”
    That thing beneath my skin began roil­ing. “I’d nev­er use it against
    any­one—”
    “It’s not about using it against them; it’s about hav­ing an edge when you
    shouldn’t,” Tam­lin said. “And the moment word gets out about it, you will
    have a tar­get on your back.”
    “Did you know?” I demand­ed. Lucien wouldn’t meet my eyes. “Did you
    sus­pect?”
    “I’d hoped it wasn’t true,” Tam­lin said care­ful­ly. “And now that Rhys
    sus­pects, there’s no telling what he’ll do with the infor­ma­tion—”
    “He wants me to train.” I wasn’t stu­pid enough to men­tion the men­tal
    shield training—not right now.
    “Train­ing would draw too much atten­tion,” Tam­lin said. “You don’t need
    to train. I can guard you from what­ev­er comes our way.”
    For there had been a time when he could not. When he had been
    vul­ner­a­ble, and when he had watched me be tor­tured to death. And could do
    noth­ing to stop Ama­ran­tha from—
    I would not allow anoth­er Ama­ran­tha. I would not allow the King of
    Hybern to bring his beasts and min­ions here to hurt more peo­ple. To hurt
    me and mine. And bring down that wall to hurt count­less oth­ers across it. “I
    could use my pow­ers against Hybern.”
    “That’s out of the ques­tion,” Tam­lin said, “espe­cial­ly as there will be no
    war against Hybern.”
    “Rhys says war is inevitable, and we’ll be hit hard.”
    Lucien said dri­ly, “And Rhys knows every­thing?”
    “No—but … He was con­cerned. He thinks I can make a dif­fer­ence in any
    upcom­ing con­flict.”
    Tam­lin flexed his fingers—keeping those claws con­tained. “You have no
    train­ing in bat­tle or weapon­ry. And even if I start­ed train­ing you today, it’d
    be years before you could hold your own on an immor­tal bat­tle­field.” He
    took a tight breath. “So despite what he thinks you might be able to do,
    Feyre, I’m not going to have you any­where near a bat­tle­field. Espe­cial­ly if
    it means reveal­ing what­ev­er pow­ers you have to our ene­mies. You’d be
    fight­ing Hybern at your front, and have foes with friend­ly faces at your
    back.”
    “I don’t care—”
    “I care,” Tam­lin snarled. Lucien whooshed out a breath. “I care if you
    die, if you’re hurt, if you will be in dan­ger every moment for the rest of our
    lives. So there will be no train­ing, and we’re going to keep this between
    us.”
    “But Hybern—”
    Lucien inter­vened calm­ly, “I already have my sources look­ing into it.”
    I gave him a beseech­ing look.
    Lucien sighed a bit and said to Tam­lin, “If we per­haps trained her in
    secret—”
    “Too many risks, too many vari­ables,” Tam­lin coun­tered. “And there will
    be no con­flict with Hybern, no war.”
    I snapped, “That’s wish­ful think­ing.”
    Lucien mut­tered some­thing that sound­ed like a plea to the Caul­dron.
    Tam­lin stiff­ened. “Describe his map room for me again,” was his only
    response.
    End of dis­cus­sion. No room for debate.
    We stared each oth­er down for a moment, and my stom­ach twist­ed
    fur­ther.
    He was the High Lord—my High Lord. He was the shield and defend­er
    of his peo­ple. Of me. And if keep­ing me safe meant that his peo­ple could

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    In the open­ing of this chap­ter, we meet Eve­lyn, who is prepar­ing for a din­ner with Ron­nie Beel­man and sug­gests pick­ing up their cur­rent activ­i­ty tomor­row. The nar­ra­tor, who is in the process of gath­er­ing their things, engages in a brief exchange with Eve­lyn about the progress of their work togeth­er, with Eve­lyn show­ing con­fi­dence in the nar­ra­tor’s abil­i­ties.

    The scene shifts to a phone con­ver­sa­tion between the nar­ra­tor and their mom, who imme­di­ate­ly inquires about the nar­ra­tor’s life post-David, indi­cat­ing a his­to­ry of dis­ap­proval or con­cern regard­ing the nar­ra­tor’s rela­tion­ship with David. The moth­er’s ear­ly cau­tion and her ques­tion­ing the depth of the nar­ra­tor and David’s con­nec­tion are revealed, along with the nar­ra­tor’s defi­ance and the lin­ger­ing doubts about her deci­sion to get engaged to David – doubts that seem to have been val­i­dat­ed by the cur­rent state of the nar­ra­tor’s life.

    The con­ver­sa­tion with the moth­er takes a lighter turn as she men­tions a plan to vis­it, which prompts a mix of appre­hen­sive and com­fort­ing thoughts in the nar­ra­tor, weigh­ing the pros and cons of her moth­er’s vis­it. Despite the ini­tial reluc­tance, the nar­ra­tor agrees to the vis­it, acknowl­edg­ing it might be good despite not nec­es­sar­i­ly being fun.

    The dis­cus­sion moves to the pack­age sent by the moth­er that has not been received yet and then tran­si­tions into the moth­er’s eager curios­i­ty about how things are going with Eve­lyn Hugo. The nar­ra­tor reveals Eve­lyn’s inten­tion for the nar­ra­tor to write a book instead of a piece for Vivant, indi­cat­ing Eve­lyn might have been strate­gic in her approach to get what she wants. The nar­ra­tor express­es a sense of intrigue and sus­pi­cion towards Eve­lyn’s motives, sug­gest­ing a com­pli­cat­ed rela­tion­ship between what is being pre­sent­ed and the under­ly­ing inten­tions.

    This chap­ter sets up a com­plex nar­ra­tive involv­ing per­son­al strug­gles, intri­cate rela­tion­ships, and the intrigu­ing pro­fes­sion­al oppor­tu­ni­ty with a fig­ure as com­pelling and enig­mat­ic as Eve­lyn Hugo, hint­ing at poten­tial con­flicts and rev­e­la­tions to come.

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    From the moment I land­ed the role on *The Mick­ey Mouse Club*, life became a whirl­wind of dance rehearsals, singing lessons, act­ing class­es, and record­ing ses­sions, squeezed in between school­ing. The cast quick­ly formed cliques based on our shared dress­ing rooms, with Christi­na Aguil­era and Nik­ki DeLoach among my clos­est com­pan­ions, and I looked up to old­er mem­bers like Keri Rus­sell, Ryan Gosling, and the heart­throb Tony Luc­ca. Amidst this, I devel­oped a spe­cial con­nec­tion with Justin Tim­ber­lake.

    Our days on set in Orlan­do’s Dis­ney World were an amal­ga­ma­tion of hard work and exhil­a­rat­ing play, a true kid’s par­adise. How­ev­er, the joy was momen­tar­i­ly dimmed when we received news of my grand­moth­er Lily’s trag­ic pass­ing. Unable to afford the jour­ney back home, Justin Timberlake’s moth­er gen­er­ous­ly cov­ered our trav­el costs, embody­ing the famil­ial bond that had formed among us.

    Amidst these pro­found expe­ri­ences, my youth­ful crush­es and first roman­tic encoun­ters unfold­ed, mark­ing moments of inno­cent excite­ment and dis­cov­ery, includ­ing a mem­o­rable kiss from Justin to the tune of Janet Jack­son, rem­i­nis­cent of my first roman­tic thrill in third grade.

    The year and a half on the show con­clud­ed, leav­ing me at a cross­roads between pur­su­ing my bud­ding career in enter­tain­ment and return­ing to a sem­blance of nor­mal­cy in Kent­wood, Louisiana. I chose the lat­ter, crav­ing the ordi­nary teenage expe­ri­ences I had missed, from school activ­i­ties to sneak­ing cig­a­rettes and the occa­sion­al drink with my mom—a stark con­trast to the hid­den hedo­nism I found with friends.

    These for­ma­tive expe­ri­ences paved the way for my even­tu­al return to per­for­mance, spurred on by my mother’s guid­ance and con­nec­tions. Through a mix of defi­ant inde­pen­dence, youth­ful indis­cre­tions, and a deep-seat­ed love for the stage, my jour­ney was marked by a con­tin­u­al oscil­la­tion between the desire for a nor­mal life and the allure of the lime­light.

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    You are being pro­vid­ed with a book chap­ter by chap­ter. I will request you to read the book for me after each chap­ter. After read­ing the chap­ter, 1. short­en the chap­ter to no less than 300 words and no more than 400 words. 2. Do not change the name, address, or any impor­tant nouns in the chap­ter. 3. Do not trans­late the orig­i­nal lan­guage. 4. Keep the same style as the orig­i­nal chap­ter, keep it con­sis­tent through­out the chap­ter. Your reply must com­ply with all four require­ments, or it’s invalid.
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    CHAPTER 7
    All the way home Patri­cia tast­ed Ann Savage’s nephew on her lips:
    dusty spices, leather, unfa­mil­iar skin. It made the blood fizz in her
    veins, and then, over­come with guilt, she brushed her teeth twice,
    found half of an old bot­tle of Lis­ter­ine in the hall clos­et, and gar­gled
    it until her lips tast­ed like arti­fi­cial pep­per­mint fla­vor­ing.
    For the rest of the day, she lived in fear that some­one would drop
    by and ask what she’d been doing in Ann Savage’s house. She was
    ter­ri­fied she’d run into Mrs. Francine when she went to the Pig­gly
    Wig­gly. She jumped every time the phone rang, think­ing it would be
    Grace say­ing she’d heard Patri­cia tried to per­form CPR on a sleep­ing
    man.
    But night came and no one said any­thing, and even though she
    couldn’t meet Carter’s eyes at sup­per, by the time she went to bed
    she’d for­got­ten the way the nephew’s lips had tast­ed. The next
    morn­ing she for­got about Francine some­where between fig­ur­ing out
    where Korey need­ed to be dropped off and picked up all week, and
    mak­ing sure Blue was study­ing for his State and Local His­to­ry exam
    instead of read­ing about Adolf Hitler.
    She made sure Korey and Blue were enrolled in sum­mer camp
    (soc­cer for Korey and sci­ence day camp for Blue), she called Grace to
    get the phone num­ber of some­one who could look at their air
    con­di­tion­er, and she picked up gro­ceries, and packed lunch­es, and
    dropped off library books, and signed report cards (no sum­mer
    school this year, thank­ful­ly), and bare­ly saw Carter every morn­ing as
    he dashed out the door (“I promise,” he told her, “as soon as this is
    over we’ll go to the beach”), and sud­den­ly a week had passed and she
    sat at din­ner, half lis­ten­ing to Korey com­plain about some­thing she
    wasn’t very inter­est­ed in at all.
    “Are you even lis­ten­ing to me?” Korey asked.
    “Par­don?” Patri­cia asked, tun­ing back in.
    “I don’t under­stand how we can almost be out of cof­fee again,”
    Carter said from the oth­er end of the table. “Are the kids eat­ing it?”
    “Hitler said caf­feine was poi­son,” Blue said.
    “I said,” Korey repeat­ed, “Blue’s room faces the water and he can
    open his win­dows and get a breeze. And he’s got a ceil­ing fan. It’s not
    fair. Why can’t I get a fan in my room? Or stay at Laurie’s house until
    you get the air fixed?”
    “You’re not stay­ing at Laurie’s house,” Patri­cia said.
    “Why on earth would you want to live with the Gib­sons?” Carter
    asked.
    At least when their chil­dren said com­plete­ly irra­tional things they
    were on the same page.
    “Because the air con­di­tion­ing is bro­ken,” Korey said, push­ing her
    chick­en breast around her plate with her fork.
    “It’s not bro­ken,” Patri­cia said. “It’s just not work­ing very well.”
    “Did you call the air-con­di­tion­er man?” Carter asked.
    Patri­cia shot him a look in the secret lan­guage of par­ent­ing that
    said, Stay on the same page with me in front of the chil­dren and
    we’ll dis­cuss this lat­er.
    “You didn’t call him, did you?” Carter said. “Korey’s right, it’s too
    hot.”
    Clear­ly, Carter didn’t speak the same secret lan­guage of par­ent­ing.
    “I’ve got a pho­to­graph,” Miss Mary said.
    “What’s that, Mom?” Carter asked.
    Carter thought it was impor­tant his moth­er eat with them as often
    as pos­si­ble even though it was a strug­gle to get Blue to the table
    when she did. Miss Mary dropped as much food in her lap as made it
    into her mouth, and her water glass was cloudy with food she for­got
    to swal­low before tak­ing a sip.
    “You can see in the pho­to­graph that the man…,” Miss Mary said,
    “he’s a man.”
    “That’s right, Mom,” Carter said.
    That was when a roach fell off the ceil­ing and land­ed in Miss
    Mary’s water glass.
    “Mom!” Korey screamed, jump­ing back­ward out of her seat.
    “Roach!” Blue shout­ed, redun­dant­ly, scan­ning the ceil­ing for more.
    “Got it!” Carter said, spot­ting anoth­er one on the chan­de­lier, and
    reach­ing for it with one of Patricia’s good linen nap­kins.
    Patricia’s heart sank. She could already see this becom­ing a fam­i­ly
    sto­ry about what a ter­ri­ble house she kept. “Remem­ber?” they would
    ask each oth­er when they were old­er. “Remem­ber how Mom’s house
    was so dirty a roach fell off the ceil­ing into Granny Mary’s glass?
    Remem­ber that?”
    “Mom, that is dis­gust­ing!” Korey said. “Mom! Don’t let her drink
    it!”
    Patri­cia snapped out of it and saw Miss Mary pick­ing up her water
    glass, about to take a sip, the roach strug­gling in the cloudy water.
    Launch­ing her­self out of her seat, she plucked the glass from Miss
    Mary’s hand and dumped it down the sink. She ran the water and
    washed the roach and the sludge of dis­in­te­grat­ing food frag­ments
    down the drain, then turned on the garbage dis­pos­al.
    That was when the door­bell rang.
    She could still hear Korey giv­ing a per­for­mance in the din­ing room
    and she want­ed to make sure she missed that, so she shout­ed, “I’ll
    get it,” and walked through the den to the qui­et, dark front hall. Even
    from there she could hear Korey car­ry­ing on. She opened the front
    door and shame flood­ed her veins: Ann Savage’s nephew stood
    beneath the porch light.
    “I hope I’m not inter­rupt­ing,” he said. “I’ve come to return your
    casse­role dish.”
    She could not believe this was the same man. He was still pale, but
    his skin looked soft and unlined. His hair was part­ed on the left and
    looked thick and full. He wore a kha­ki work shirt tucked into new
    blue jeans, the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, expos­ing thick
    fore­arms. A faint smile played at the cor­ners of his thin lips, like they
    shared a pri­vate joke. She felt her mouth twitch­ing into a smile in
    return. In one large hand he held the glass casse­role dish. It was
    spot­less.
    “I am so sor­ry for barg­ing into your home,” she said, rais­ing her
    hand to cov­er her mouth.
    “Patri­cia Camp­bell,” he said. “I remem­bered your name and
    looked you up in the book. I know how peo­ple get about drop­ping off
    food and nev­er get­ting their plates back.”
    “You didn’t have to do that,” she said, reach­ing for the dish. He
    held onto it.
    “I’d like to apol­o­gize for my behav­ior,” he said.
    “No, I’m sor­ry,” Patri­cia said, won­der­ing how hard she could try to
    pull the dish out of his hands before she start­ed to seem rude. “You
    must think I’m a fool, I inter­rupt­ed your nap, I…I real­ly did think
    you were…I used to be a nurse. I don’t know how I made such a
    stu­pid mis­take. I’m so sor­ry.”
    He fur­rowed his fore­head, raised his eye­brows in the mid­dle, and
    looked sin­cere­ly con­cerned.
    “You apol­o­gize a lot,” he said.
    “I’m sor­ry,” she said quick­ly.
    She instant­ly real­ized what she’d done and froze, flus­tered, not
    sure where to go next, so she blun­dered ahead. “The only peo­ple who
    don’t apol­o­gize are psy­chopaths.”
    The moment it came out of her mouth she wished she hadn’t said
    any­thing. He stud­ied her for a moment, then said, “I’m sor­ry to hear
    that.”
    They stood for a moment, face to face, as she processed what he’d
    said, and then she burst out laugh­ing. After a sec­ond, he did, too. He
    let go of the casse­role dish and she pulled it to her body, hold­ing it
    across her stom­ach like a shield.
    “I’m not even going to say I’m sor­ry again,” she told him. “Can we
    start over?”
    He held out one big hand, “James Har­ris,” he said.
    She shook it. It felt cool and strong.
    “Patri­cia Camp­bell.”
    “I am gen­uine­ly sor­ry about that,” he said, indi­cat­ing his left ear.
    Remind­ed of her muti­lat­ed ear, Patri­cia turned slight­ly to the left
    and quick­ly brushed her hair over her stitch­es.
    “Well,” she said, “I sup­pose that’s why I’ve got two.”
    This time, his laugh was short and sud­den.
    “Not many peo­ple would be so gen­er­ous with their ears.”
    “I don’t remem­ber being giv­en a choice,” she said, then smiled to
    let him know she was kid­ding.
    He smiled back.
    “Were the two of you close?” she asked. “You and Mrs. Sav­age?”
    “None of our fam­i­ly are close,” he said. “But when fam­i­ly needs,
    you go.”
    She want­ed to close the door and stand on the porch and have an
    actu­al adult con­ver­sa­tion with this man. She had been so ter­ri­fied of
    him, but he was warm, and fun­ny, and he looked at her in a way that
    made her feel seen. Shrill voic­es drift­ed from the house. She smiled,
    embar­rassed, and real­ized there was one way to get him to stay.
    “Would you like to meet my fam­i­ly?” she asked.
    “I don’t want to inter­rupt your meal,” he said.
    “I’d con­sid­er it a per­son­al favor if you did.”
    He regard­ed her for a split sec­ond, expres­sion­less, siz­ing her up,
    and then he matched her smile.
    “Only if it’s a real invi­ta­tion,” he said.
    “Con­sid­er your­self invit­ed,” she said, stand­ing aside. After a
    moment he stepped over her thresh­old and into the dark front hall.
    “Mr. Har­ris?” she said. “You won’t say any­thing about”—she
    ges­tured with the casse­role dish she held in both hands—“about this,
    will you?”
    His expres­sion got seri­ous.
    “It’ll be our secret.”
    “Thank you,” she said.
    When she led him into the bright­ly lit din­ing room, every­one
    stopped talk­ing.
    “Carter,” she said. “This is James Har­ris, Ann Savage’s
    grand­nephew. James, this is my hus­band, Dr. Carter Camp­bell.”
    Carter stood up and shook hands auto­mat­i­cal­ly, as if he met the
    nephew of the woman who’d bit­ten off his wife’s ear every day. Blue
    and Korey, on the oth­er hand, looked from their moth­er to this
    enor­mous stranger in hor­ror, won­der­ing why she’d let him into their
    house.
    “This is our son, Carter Jr., although we call him Blue, and our
    daugh­ter, Korey,” Patri­cia said.
    As James shook Blue’s hand and walked around the table to shake
    Korey’s, Patri­cia saw her fam­i­ly through his eyes: Blue star­ing at him
    rude­ly. Korey stand­ing behind her chair in her Baja hood­ie and
    soc­cer shorts, gaw­ping at him like he was a zoo ani­mal. Miss Mary
    chew­ing and chew­ing even though her mouth was emp­ty.
    “This is Miss Mary Camp­bell, my moth­er-in-law, who’s stay­ing
    with us.”
    James Har­ris held out a hand to Miss Mary, who kept suck­ing her
    lips while star­ing hard at the salt and pep­per shak­ers.
    “Pleased to meet you, ma’am,” he said.
    Miss Mary raised her watery eyes to his face and stud­ied him for a
    moment, chin trem­bling, then looked back down at the salt and
    pep­per.
    “I’ve got a pho­to­graph,” she said.
    “I don’t want to inter­rupt your meal,” James Har­ris said, pulling
    his hand back. “I was just return­ing a dish.”
    “Won’t you join us for dessert?” Patri­cia asked.
    “I couldn’t…,” James Har­ris began.
    “Blue, clear the table,” Patri­cia said. “Korey, get the bowls.”
    “I do have a sweet tooth,” James Har­ris said as Blue passed him
    car­ry­ing a stack of dirty plates.
    “You can sit here,” Patri­cia said, nod­ding to the emp­ty chair on her
    left. It creaked alarm­ing­ly as James Har­ris eased him­self into it.
    Bowls appeared and the half gal­lon of Brey­ers found its place in front
    of Carter. He began to hack at the sur­face of the freez­er-burned ice
    cream with a large spoon.
    “What do you do for a liv­ing?” Carter asked.
    “All kinds of things,” James said as Korey placed a stack of ice
    cream bowls in front of her father. “But right now, I’ve got a lit­tle
    mon­ey put aside to invest.”
    Patri­cia recon­sid­ered. Was he rich?
    “In what?” Carter asked, scrap­ing long white curls of ice cream
    into everyone’s bowls and pass­ing them around the table. “Stocks
    and bonds? Small busi­ness? Microchips?”
    “I was think­ing some­thing more local,” James Har­ris said. “Maybe
    real estate.”
    Carter reached across the table and put a bowl of ice cream in front
    of James, then fit­ted a thick-han­dled spoon into his mother’s hand
    and led it to the bowl of vanil­la in front of her.
    “Not my area,” he said, los­ing inter­est.
    “You know,” Patri­cia said. “My friend Slick Paley at book club? Her
    hus­band, Leland, they’re into real estate. They might be able to tell
    you some­thing about the sit­u­a­tion here.”
    “You’re in a book club?” James asked. “I love to read.”
    “Who do you read?” Patri­cia asked as Carter ignored them and fed
    his moth­er, and Blue and Korey con­tin­ued to stare.
    “I’m a big Ayn Rand fan,” James Har­ris said. “Kesey, Gins­burg,
    Ker­ouac. Have you read Zen and the Art of Motor­cy­cle
    Main­te­nance?”
    “Are you a hip­pie?” Korey asked.
    Patri­cia felt pathet­i­cal­ly grate­ful that James Har­ris ignored her
    daugh­ter.
    “Are you look­ing for new mem­bers?” he con­tin­ued.
    “Ugh,” Korey said. “They’re a bunch of old ladies sit­ting around
    drink­ing wine. They don’t even actu­al­ly read the books.”
    Patri­cia didn’t know where these things came from. She’d chalk it
    up to Korey becom­ing a teenag­er, but Maryellen had said they
    became teenagers when you stopped lik­ing them, and she still liked
    her daugh­ter.
    “What kind of books do you read?” James asked, still ignor­ing
    Korey.
    “All kinds,” Patri­cia said. “We just read a won­der­ful book about life
    in a small Guyanese town in the 1970s.”
    She didn’t men­tion that it was Raven: The Untold Sto­ry of the
    Rev. Jim Jones and His Peo­ple.
    “They rent the movies,” Korey said. “And pre­tend to read the
    books.”
    “There wasn’t a movie for this book,” Patri­cia said, forc­ing her­self
    to smile.
    James Har­ris wasn’t lis­ten­ing. He had his eyes on Korey.
    “Is there a rea­son you’re being fresh to your moth­er?” he asked.
    “She’s not usu­al­ly like this,” Patri­cia said. “It’s all right.”
    “Some peo­ple use lit­er­a­ture to under­stand their lives,” James
    Har­ris said, con­tin­u­ing to stare at Korey, who squirmed beneath the
    inten­si­ty of his gaze. “What are you read­ing?”
    “Ham­let,” Korey said. “That’s by Shake­speare.”
    “Assigned read­ing,” James Har­ris said. “I meant, what are you
    read­ing that oth­er peo­ple didn’t pick out for you?”
    “I don’t have time to sit around read­ing books,” Korey said. “I
    actu­al­ly go to school and I’m cap­tain of the soc­cer team and the
    vol­ley­ball team.”
    “A read­er lives many lives,” James Har­ris said. “The per­son who
    doesn’t read lives but one. But if you’re hap­py just doing what you’re
    told and read­ing what oth­er peo­ple think you should read, then don’t
    let me stop you. I just find it sad.”
    “I…,” Korey began, work­ing her mouth. Then stopped. No one had
    ever called her sad before. “What­ev­er,” she said, and slumped back in
    her chair.
    Patri­cia won­dered if she should be upset. This was new ter­ri­to­ry
    for her.
    “What book are y’all talk­ing about?” Carter asked, tuck­ing more ice
    cream into his mother’s mouth.
    “Your wife’s book club,” James Har­ris said. “I guess I’m par­tial to
    read­ers. I grew up a mil­i­tary brat, and wher­ev­er I went, books were
    my friends.”
    “Because you don’t have any real ones,” Korey mum­bled.
    Miss Mary looked up, right at James Har­ris, and Patri­cia could
    almost hear her eyes zoom in on him.
    “I want my mon­ey,” Miss Mary said angri­ly. “That’s Daddy’s
    mon­ey you owe.”
    There was silence at the table.
    “What’s that, Mom?” Carter asked.
    “You came creep­ing back, you,” Miss Mary said. “But I see you.”
    Miss Mary glared at James Har­ris, fuzzy gray eye­brows fur­rowed,
    the slack skin around her mouth pulled into an angry knot. Patri­cia
    turned to James Har­ris and saw him think­ing, gen­uine­ly try­ing to
    puz­zle some­thing out.
    “She thinks you’re some­one from her past,” Carter explained. “She
    comes and goes.”
    Miss Mary’s chair scraped back­ward with an ear-grind­ing shriek.
    “Mom,” Carter said, tak­ing her arm. “Are you fin­ished? Let me
    help you.”
    She jerked her arm out of Carter’s grip and rose, eyes fixed on
    James Har­ris.
    “You’re the sev­enth son of a salt­less moth­er,” Miss Mary said, and
    took a step toward him. The wat­tles of fat beneath her chin quiv­ered.
    “When the Dog Days come we’ll put nails through your eyes.”
    She reached out and pressed her hand against the table, hold­ing
    her­self up. She swayed over James Har­ris.
    “Mom,” Carter said. “Calm down.”
    “You thought no one would rec­og­nize you,” Miss Mary said. “But
    I’ve got your pho­to­graph, Hoyt.”
    James Har­ris stared up at Miss Mary, not mov­ing. He didn’t even
    blink.
    “Hoyt Pick­ens,” Miss Mary said. Then she spat. She meant for it to
    be a coun­try hawk­er, some­thing sharp that would slap the dirt, but
    instead a wad of white sali­va thick­ened with vanil­la ice cream and
    speck­led with chick­en oozed over her low­er lip, then rolled down her
    chin and plopped onto the front of her dress.
    “Mom!” Carter said.
    Patri­cia saw Blue gag and clap his nap­kin over the low­er half of his
    face. Korey leaned back in her chair, away from her grand­moth­er,
    and Carter reached for his moth­er, nap­kin out­stretched.
    “I’m so sor­ry,” Patri­cia said to James Har­ris as she got up.
    “I know who you are,” Miss Mary shout­ed at James Har­ris. “In
    your ice cream suit.”
    Patri­cia hat­ed Miss Mary at that moment. Some­one inter­est­ing
    had come into their home to talk about books, and Miss Mary
    wouldn’t even let her have that.
    She hus­tled Miss Mary out of the din­ing room, pulling her beneath
    the armpits, not car­ing if she was a lit­tle rough. Behind her, she was
    aware of James Har­ris ris­ing as Carter and Korey both start­ed
    talk­ing at once, and she hoped he was still there when she got back.
    She hauled Miss Mary to the garage room and got her seat­ed in her
    chair with the plas­tic bowl of water and her tooth­brush and came
    back to the din­ing room. The only per­son left was Carter, suck­ing on
    his ice cream, hunched over his bowl.
    “Is he still here?” Patri­cia asked.
    “He left,” Carter said, through a mouth­ful of vanil­la. “Mom seemed
    weird tonight, don’t you think?”

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    7
    I don’t let him pick me up.
    I’d be insane to let Eddie see where I real­ly live, and the thought of him and John cross­ing paths
    is enough to make me shud­der. No, I want to exist only in Eddie’s world, like I’d sprung from
    some­where else, ful­ly formed, unknow­able.
    It’s true enough, real­ly.
    So, I meet him in Eng­lish Vil­lage, a part of Moun­tain Brook I’ve nev­er been to, although I’d heard
    Emi­ly men­tion it. There are lots of “vil­lages” in Moun­tain Brook: Caha­ba Vil­lage, Over­ton Vil­lage,
    and Moun­tain Brook Vil­lage itself. It seemed sil­ly to me, using a word like vil­lage to mean dif­fer­ent
    part of the same community—just use neigh­bor­hood, you pre­ten­tious ass­holes, we don’t live in the
    Eng­lish countryside—but what did I know?
    I park far away from the French bistro where Eddie made a reser­va­tion, pray­ing he won’t ask to
    walk me to my car lat­er, and meet him under the gold-and-black-striped awning of the restau­rant.
    He’s wear­ing char­coal slacks and a white shirt, a nice com­ple­ment to the deep egg­plant of my
    dress, and his hand is warm on my low­er back when the maître d’ shows us to our table.
    Low lights, white table­cloths, a bot­tle of wine. That’s the part that stands out to me most, how
    casu­al­ly he orders an entire bot­tle of wine while I was still look­ing at the by-the-glass prices,
    won­der­ing what would sound sophis­ti­cat­ed, but wouldn’t be too expen­sive.
    The bot­tle he selects is over a hun­dred dol­lars, and my cheeks flush at know­ing I’m worth an
    expen­sive bot­tle of wine to him. After that, I put the menu away entire­ly, hap­py to let him order for
    me.
    “What if I pick some­thing you don’t like?” he asks, but he’s smil­ing, His skin doesn’t seem as pale
    as it did that first day. His blue eyes are no longer rimmed with red, and I won­der if I’ve made him
    hap­py. It’s a heady thought, even more intox­i­cat­ing than the wine.
    “I like every­thing,” I reply. I don’t mean for the words to sound sexy, but they do, and when the
    dim­ple in his cheek deep­ens, I won­der what else I can say that will make him look at me like that.
    Then his eyes drop low­er.
    At first, I think he’s look­ing at the low neck­line of my dress, but then he says, “That neck­lace.”
    Fuck.
    It had been stu­pid to wear it. Reck­less, some­thing I very rarely was, but when I’d looked in the
    mir­ror before leav­ing, I’d looked so plain with no jew­el­ry. The chain I’d tak­en from Mrs. McLaren
    wasn’t any­thing fan­cy, no dia­monds or jew­els, just a sim­ple sil­ver chain with a lit­tle gold-and-sil­ver
    charm on it.
    A bee, I now real­ize, and my stom­ach sinks, fin­gers twist­ing in my nap­kin.
    “A friend gave it to me,” I say, striv­ing for light­ness, but I’m already touch­ing the charm, feel­ing it
    warm against my chest.
    “It’s pret­ty,” he says, then glances down. “My late wife’s com­pa­ny makes one sim­i­lar, so…”
    Eddie trails off, and his fin­gers start that drum­ming on the table again.
    “I’m sor­ry,” I say. “I … I heard about South­ern Manors, and it’s—”
    “Let’s not talk about it. Her.” His head shoots up, his smile fixed in place, but it’s not real, and I
    want to reach across the table and take his hands, but we’re not there yet, are we? I want to ask him
    every­thing about Bea, and for­get she exist­ed, all at the same time.
    I want.
    I want.
    As the wait­er approach­es with our expen­sive wine, I smile at Eddie. “Then let’s talk about you.”
    He rais­es his eye­brows, lean­ing back in his seat. “What do you want to know?” he asks.
    I wait until the serv­er has fin­ished pour­ing a sam­ple of the wine into Eddie’s glass, then wait for
    Eddie to take a sip, nod, and ges­ture for our glass­es to be filled, a thing I’ve only ever seen hap­pen in
    movies or on real­i­ty shows about rich house­wives. And now it’s hap­pen­ing to me. Now I’m one of
    the peo­ple who has those kinds of din­ners.
    Once we have full glass­es, I mim­ic Eddie’s pos­ture, sit­ting back. “Where did you grow up?”
    “Maine,” he answers eas­i­ly, “lit­tle town called Sear­sport. My mom still lives there; so does my
    broth­er. I got out as soon as I could, though. Went to col­lege in Ban­gor.” Eddie sips his wine, look­ing
    at me. “Have you ever been to Maine?”
    I shake my head. “No. But I read a lot of Stephen King as a teenag­er, so I feel like I have a good
    idea of what it’s like.”
    That makes him laugh, like I’d hoped it would. “Well, few­er pet ceme­ter­ies and killer clowns, but
    yeah, basi­cal­ly.”
    Lean­ing for­ward, I fold my arms on the table, not miss­ing the way his gaze drifts from my face to
    the neck­line of my dress. It’s a fleet­ing glance, one I’m used to get­ting from men, but com­ing from him,
    it doesn’t feel creepy or unwant­ed. I actu­al­ly like him look­ing at me.
    Anoth­er nov­el­ty. “Liv­ing here must be a big change,” I say, and he shrugs.
    “I moved around a lot after col­lege. Worked with a friend flip­ping hous­es all over the Mid­west.
    Set­tled in Cal­i­for­nia for a bit. That’s where I first got my contractor’s license. Thought I’d stay there
    for­ev­er, but then I went on vaca­tion, and…”
    He trails off, and I jump in, not want­i­ng anoth­er loaded silence.
    “Have you ever thought of going back?”
    Sur­prised, he pours him­self a lit­tle more wine. “To Maine?”
    I shrug. “Or Cal­i­for­nia.” I won­der why he stays in a place that must have so many bad mem­o­ries
    for him, a place in which he seems to stick out, just the slight­est bit, to be set apart, even with all his
    mon­ey and nice clothes.
    “Well, South­ern Manors is based here,” he replies. “I could run the con­tract­ing busi­ness from
    some­where else, but Bea was real­ly set on South­ern Manors being an Alaba­ma com­pa­ny. It would
    feel … I don’t know. Like a betray­al, I guess. Mov­ing it some­where else. Or sell­ing it.”
    His expres­sion soft­ens a lit­tle. “It’s her lega­cy, and I feel a respon­si­bil­i­ty to pro­tect it.”
    I nod, glad our food arrives just at that moment so that this con­ver­sa­tion can die a nat­ur­al death. I
    already know how impor­tant South­ern Manors is to him. In my Google stalk­ing, I found sev­er­al
    arti­cles about how just a few months after Bea went miss­ing, Eddie fought for a court order to have
    her declared legal­ly dead. It had some­thing to do with South­ern Manors, and there was a lot of
    busi­ness and legal jar­gon in it I hadn’t under­stood, but I’d got­ten the gist—Bea had to be dead on
    paper for Eddie to take over and run the com­pa­ny the way she would’ve want­ed it to be run.
    I won­dered how that had made him feel, declar­ing his wife’s death in such a for­mal, final way.
    As he cuts into his steak, he looks up at me, smil­ing a lit­tle. “Enough about me. I want to hear
    about you.”
    I pro­vide a few charm­ing anec­dotes, paint­ing Jane’s life in a flat­ter­ing light. Some of the sto­ries
    are real (high school in Ari­zona), some are half-truths, and some are stolen from friends.
    But he seems to enjoy them, smil­ing and nod­ding through­out the meal, and by the time the check
    comes, I’m more relaxed and con­fi­dent than I’d ever thought I’d be on this date.
    And when we leave, he takes my hand, slip­ping it into the crook of his elbow as we exit the
    restau­rant.
    It’s ridicu­lous, I know that. Me, here with him. Me, with my arm linked through his.
    Me, in his life.
    But here I am, and as we make our way to the side­walk, I hold my head up high­er, step­ping clos­er
    to him, the edge of my skirt brush­ing his thighs.
    The night is warm and damp, my hair curl­ing around my face, street­lights reflect­ing in pud­dles and
    pot­holes, and I won­der if he’ll kiss me.
    If he’ll ask me to stay the night.
    I’m going to.
    He’d ordered a piece of pie to go, and I think about eat­ing it with him in his gor­geous kitchen. Or
    in his bed. Is that why he’d ordered it?
    I think about walk­ing into that house at night, how pret­ty the recessed light­ing will be in the
    dark­ness. What the back­yard will look like when the sun comes up. What his sheets feel and smell
    like, what it’s like to wake up in that house.
    “You’re qui­et,” Eddie says, tuck­ing me clos­er to his side as we wan­der, and I tilt my head up to
    smile at him.
    “Can I be hon­est?”
    “Can I stop you?”
    I nudge him slight­ly at that, feel­ing how sol­id and warm he is beside me. “I was think­ing that it’s
    been a long time since I’ve been on a date.”
    “Me, too,” he replies.
    In the street­lights, he’s so hand­some it makes my chest ache, and my fin­gers rub against the
    soft­ness of his jack­et, the mate­r­i­al expen­sive and well-made. Nicer than any­thing I own.
    “I’m—” I start, and he turns his head. I think he might kiss me there, right there on the street in
    Eng­lish Vil­lage where any­one might see us, but before he can, there’s a voice.
    “Eddie!”
    We turn at almost the same time, fac­ing a man on the side­walk who looks like Tripp Ingra­ham or
    Matt McLaren or Saul Clark or any of the oth­er pas­tel guys in Thorn­field Estates.
    He’s got his face screwed up, that expres­sion of sym­pa­thy that twists mouths down and eye­brows
    togeth­er. His thin­ning blond hair looks orange in the street­lights, and when he lifts a hand to shake

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    In Chap­ter 7 of “The Beasts of Tarzan,” titled “Betrayed,” the nar­ra­tive unfolds with Kaviri and Mugam­bi, two indige­nous lead­ers, anx­ious­ly dis­cussing the alarm­ing approach of Tarzan and his fear­some jun­gle com­pan­ions towards Kavir­i’s vil­lage. The alarm­ing dis­cord ema­nat­ing from the jun­gle as Tarzan, togeth­er with Shee­ta (a pan­ther) and Akut’s men­ac­ing apes, dri­ve the vil­lagers back to their homes, reflects a strate­gic move by Tarzan to gath­er forces for an expe­di­tion on the riv­er. Under Tarzan’s unwa­ver­ing com­mand, the ter­ri­fied vil­lagers, with no alter­na­tive, resign them­selves to accom­pa­ny him, reveal­ing Tarzan’s for­mi­da­ble influ­ence over both man and beast.

    The expe­di­tion pro­ceeds deep­er into the untamed heart­lands bor­der­ing the Ugam­bi Riv­er, with Tarzan’s group encoun­ter­ing desert­ed vil­lages, a tes­ta­ment to the pall of fear his ensem­ble casts among the tribes. Despite his over­tures for inter­ac­tion with the local tribes prov­ing futile due to their with­draw­al at his approach, Tarzan’s relent­less pur­suit of the nefar­i­ous Rokoff under­scores his ded­i­ca­tion to jus­tice.

    By inge­nious­ly imper­son­at­ing a pan­ther to gain the con­fi­dence of a vil­lage’s inhab­i­tants, Tarzan’s adapt­abil­i­ty and wit are show­cased, allow­ing him to secure shel­ter and poten­tial allies. His quest reveals inter­sect­ing paths with Rokoff and an unknown par­ty which includes a woman, a man, and a child, fur­ther com­pli­cat­ing his jour­ney with per­son­al stakes.

    Tarzan’s deci­sion to momen­tar­i­ly secede from his fol­low­ers to track Rokoff alone, using his unpar­al­leled jun­gle prowess, offers a deep dive into his strate­gic mind and unpar­al­leled sur­vival skills. His inter­ac­tions with var­i­ous trib­al com­mu­ni­ties under­score the blend of respect and fear he com­mands in the wild, nav­i­gat­ing through cul­tur­al and com­mu­ni­ca­tion bar­ri­ers with ease.

    The chap­ter cul­mi­nates with Tarzan’s cal­cu­lat­ed move to rest with­in a seem­ing­ly hos­pitable vil­lage, only to be unwit­ting­ly ensnared into a trap orches­trat­ed by the vil­lage chief and Rokoff. This twist not only speaks to the per­ils that beset Tarzan in his relent­less pur­suit but also sets the stage for a con­fronta­tion fraught with dan­ger and deceit.

    Amidst the lush, treach­er­ous ter­rains of the Ugam­bi, Tarzan’s sin­gu­lar devo­tion to thwart­ing Rokof­f’s schem­ing plots unfolds with an astute blend of brute force, keen intel­li­gence, and an indomitable will, fur­ther enrich­ing the saga of this time­less jun­gle hero.

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