The Ministry of Time
Chapter III
by testsuphomeAdminGore lies in his cabin, reflecting on his deteriorating condition. He recalls Stanley’s comment about “Debility,” a reference to the scurvy affecting the crew, leaving them melancholic and physically weakened. The imagery of despair is vivid—men lamenting for home, dealing with joint pain, and suffering from loose teeth. Gore feels the poignant ache of memories associated with the word “Mother” as old wounds resurface.
As he stretches his fingers, he remembers a past injury from a gun accident while with Captain Stokes in Australia. The incident unfolds in his mind: while preparing to shoot a bird during an expedition up a river, a thunderous report shakes him back. His recollection fades at that moment, leaving him lying in the boat with Stokes looking pale and shaken. The moment was marked by dark humor—Gore’s awkward remark of having “killed the bird” prompts laughter from Stokes, a sign of camaraderie now missed.
Longing fills Gore as he thinks of Australia, yearning for the warmth and vitality of the land. He misses the freshness of exploration, even the trivial misadventures of mishaps with local berries. However, the harsh, barren landscape he currently inhabits leaves him detached. Though he ponders his family back in New South Wales, he avoids dwelling on it, preferring not to provoke memories of his body, which he feels has become overly skeletal.
Gore considers his physical state; he’s notably thinner, and his body has transformed into something almost alien to him. Still, he knows he has great skills as a hunter. Tomorrow, he plans to go out again, hoping to secure better game. He recalls a previous successful hunt at twenty-six with Robert McClure, underscoring the loneliness he feels for absent friends and companions who have faded from his life, leaving him to grapple with the solitude of his current existence. Despite his physical suffering, he finds strength in his remarkable aim, taking solace in the act of killing, which confirms his sense of being loved.
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