Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    In the chap­ter titled “Sun­day,” Cyrus Shams finds him­self grap­pling with his emo­tions and mem­o­ries as he spends his third day in Brook­lyn. He attempts to con­nect with his uncle Arash after a sig­nif­i­cant event—the funer­al of his father. The chap­ter begins with Cyrus mak­ing a hes­i­tant call to Zee, reflect­ing his uncer­tain feel­ings of remorse. Instead of leav­ing a mes­sage, he opts to rem­i­nisce about the sparse atten­dees at his father’s bur­ial, which includ­ed Ali’s boss, his Eng­lish teacher Mr. Orenn, his girl­friend Shireen, and friends, all shar­ing a somber pres­ence.

    Cyrus reflects on his uncle’s furi­ous response when he final­ly informed him about his father’s pass­ing, feel­ing the gap that dis­tance has cre­at­ed. Seek­ing solace, he opens the hotel win­dow to let the cold air in, momen­tar­i­ly staving off his chaot­ic thoughts, and reach­es out to Arash on What­sApp. Their con­ver­sa­tion reveals a mix of famil­ial warmth and the com­plex­i­ties of their rela­tion­ship. Arash greets him with affec­tion, despite the dis­tance and years apart, demon­strat­ing his car­ing nature through light-heart­ed ban­ter about learn­ing French from his assis­tant.

    The dia­logue unfolds with Arash shar­ing his mus­ings on life and death, illus­trat­ing a remark­able under­stand­ing of exis­tence through anec­do­tal sto­ries, such as his love for music and the impact of Mozart’s “Mis­erere.” This con­ver­sa­tion evokes a sense of nos­tal­gia for Cyrus as he grap­ples with his iden­ti­ty in con­trast to his uncle’s pro­found expe­ri­ences. Arash’s sto­ries touch on heav­ier top­ics, like the reper­cus­sions of their pasts and the absur­di­ty of life’s fleet­ing nature.

    As their con­ver­sa­tion pro­gress­es, Cyrus reveals a paint­ing that remind­ed him of Arash, strad­dling mem­o­ries of fam­i­ly and loss. He tries to bridge their emo­tion­al dis­tance through sto­ry­telling, but hears Arash empha­size the weight of shared his­to­ry, under­scor­ing that many bear sim­i­lar sto­ries. In the end, the chap­ter encap­su­lates Cyrus’s blend of anx­i­ety, long­ing, and the com­fort of con­nec­tion, as he con­tem­plates his uncle’s words, ready­ing him­self to absorb the sig­nif­i­cance of the music that links them across cul­tures and expe­ri­ences.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    Cyrus Shams sits at an out­door café named Day­light in Brook­lyn, brac­ing against the cold as he waits for his friend Zee Novak. His mind is pre­oc­cu­pied with thoughts from a con­ver­sa­tion with Orkideh, a mys­te­ri­ous fig­ure who had ref­er­enced a plane crash relat­ed to his mother—something he nev­er men­tioned to her. He exchanges texts with his spon­sor, Gabe, who con­firms Cyrus is still sober. Reflect­ing on grief, Cyrus grap­ples with his unre­solved emo­tions regard­ing his moth­er’s death, not­ing that although he feels a con­nec­tion to his father, his moth­er’s absence remains abstract.

    Cyrus then scrolls through the news, encoun­ter­ing an arti­cle fea­tur­ing “Pres­i­dent Invec­tive,” a name he and Zee use dis­mis­sive­ly for the pres­i­dent, sym­bol­iz­ing their dis­dain for his lead­er­ship style. This prompts Cyrus to con­sid­er how West­ern lead­ers aspire to infal­li­bil­i­ty, con­trast­ing them with his­tor­i­cal fig­ures who showed vul­ner­a­bil­i­ty, such as Jesus and Muham­mad. Cyrus express­es frus­tra­tion over the lack of emo­tion­al­ly ground­ed lead­er­ship in the mod­ern world, yearn­ing for a leader who acknowl­edges the com­plex­i­ty of human expe­ri­ence.

    While wait­ing, Cyrus reflects on his fam­i­ly, recall­ing his moth­er’s vora­cious curios­i­ty and his father’s ret­i­cence about knowl­edge. He admires his moth­er’s habit of seek­ing answers, which instilled in him a com­fort with uncer­tain­ty. This con­tem­pla­tion leads him to observe soci­etal pain—people’s belief that hap­pi­ness is their nat­ur­al state, believ­ing exter­nal forces cause their dis­con­tent.

    Zee final­ly arrives, dressed casu­al­ly as he shows off records he’s col­lect­ed. Their con­ver­sa­tion turns seri­ous as Cyrus recounts his ear­li­er talk with Orkideh, par­tic­u­lar­ly her unex­pect­ed men­tion of the flight asso­ci­at­ed with his mother’s death. Zee ques­tions whether Orkideh might know Cyrus’s father from Iran, but Cyrus thinks it’s unlike­ly. They dis­cuss Orkide­h’s artis­tic career, with Cyrus search­ing her name online. He finds scant infor­ma­tion but dis­cov­ers a pow­er­ful image from one of her works depict­ing a bat­tle­field with a rid­er resem­bling his uncle Arash, who once fought in the Iran-Iraq War. This rev­e­la­tion strikes Cyrus deeply, inter­twin­ing his fam­i­ly’s his­to­ry with Orkide­h’s art, ampli­fy­ing his emo­tion­al tur­moil .

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    In the chap­ter titled “Sun­day,” the nar­ra­tive unfolds in Brook­lyn, where Cyrus Shams and Zee Novak enjoy a laid-back evening filled with piz­za and TV. The atmos­phere is casu­al, with Zee reflect­ing on the para­dox of doing noth­ing in a city full of oppor­tu­ni­ties, cit­ing “oppor­tu­ni­ty cost” in a humor­ous debate over whether fruit belongs on piz­za. Their evening segues into a con­ver­sa­tion about the chang­ing land­scape of com­e­dy and media, with Cyrus assert­ing that many beloved shows, like *The Office*, would strug­gle to be made today due to evolv­ing stan­dards of accept­abil­i­ty. This dis­course leads to rec­ol­lec­tions about past films and lit­er­a­ture that now bear prob­lem­at­ic elements—like John Hugh­es’ works or *The Bell Jar*—triggering a blend of nos­tal­gia and dis­com­fort.

    Post-show­er, Cyrus and Zee share a pro­found exchange about Cyrus’s inten­tions for the next day at the muse­um, where he plans to seek out Orkideh for answers con­nect­ed to his fam­i­ly. Despite their cama­raderie, con­flict­ing emo­tions sur­face as Zee warns Cyrus about the poten­tial for emo­tion­al upheaval, empha­siz­ing the weight of the past and imply­ing Cyrus’s ten­den­cy to view his life through a lens of despair and iso­la­tion.

    Their dia­logue becomes more intense as Zee con­fronts Cyrus, chal­leng­ing his dis­mis­sive view of his own life and strug­gles. Zee express­es frus­tra­tion over Cyrus’s ten­den­cy to spi­ral into self-pity, sug­gest­ing that Cyrus over­looks the impact he has on those around him. The con­ver­sa­tion deep­ens, reveal­ing vul­ner­a­ble feel­ings that Cyrus has tried to shield, as Zee pas­sion­ate­ly artic­u­lates how inter­twined their lives have become.

    How­ev­er, Cyrus’s insis­tence on desir­ing to make a sig­nif­i­cant impact clash­es with Zee’s emo­tion­al needs. The dis­cus­sion crescen­dos into a con­fronta­tion, reveal­ing under­ly­ing ten­sions in their friend­ship. As Cyrus real­izes the depth of the strain between them, Zee departs, sym­bol­iz­ing a rup­ture that high­lights their emo­tion­al dis­con­nect. The chap­ter encap­su­lates a moment of both inti­ma­cy and con­flict, reflect­ing the com­plex­i­ties of their rela­tion­ship against the back­drop of a seem­ing­ly mun­dane evening.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    In the chap­ter titled “Sun­day,” Cyrus Shams finds him­self in Brook­lyn on the third day of his vis­it. He aims to arrive at the muse­um before it opens to engage Orkideh, an artist bat­tling can­cer, in a mean­ing­ful con­ver­sa­tion. On his way, he buys two cof­fees, attempt­ing to offer one to Orkideh as a ges­ture of thought­ful­ness. This moment reminds him of the term “son­der,” the real­iza­tion that every­one has com­plex lives, stir­ring mixed feel­ings about his self-absorp­tion when per­form­ing this small act of kind­ness.

    Arriv­ing at the muse­um, Cyrus real­izes he can­not car­ry the cof­fee inside due to strict reg­u­la­tions. Anx­ious about wast­ing the drink, he briefly con­sid­ers giv­ing it to a home­less per­son out­side but ulti­mate­ly decides to toss it. This inci­dent evokes mem­o­ries from his child­hood, where waste­ful­ness was heav­i­ly rep­ri­mand­ed by his father. He reflects on how this upbring­ing influ­ences his adult behav­ior, often lead­ing him to con­sume left­overs rather than waste them.

    Upon enter­ing the gallery, Cyrus is struck by the sight of Orkideh, who sits alone, sur­round­ed by artis­tic and unset­tling imagery, includ­ing an oxy­gen tank that adds a somber lay­er to the expe­ri­ence. Their con­ver­sa­tion begins with a warm greet­ing, but Cyrus quick­ly feels regret for his ini­tial ques­tion regard­ing her health. Orkideh’s cheer­ful accep­tance of her con­di­tion sparks a deep­er dis­cus­sion about life, art, and the nature of exis­tence.

    She express­es pride in her iden­ti­ty as an artist, empha­siz­ing the per­ma­nence of art in con­trast to fleet­ing rela­tion­ships. Cyrus grap­ples with the impli­ca­tions of mar­tyr­dom and fam­i­ly con­nec­tions, shar­ing per­son­al anec­dotes about his par­ents and the impact of their deaths. Orkideh shares her own life expe­ri­ences, chal­leng­ing Cyrus to con­sid­er the rel­a­tiv­i­ty of grief and its expec­ta­tions.

    As their dia­logue pro­gress­es, Cyrus feels lib­er­at­ed to share his past strug­gles with loss and grief, mak­ing the exchange both vul­ner­a­ble and cathar­tic. Orkideh’s reac­tions show she admires his open­ness. She urges him to embrace the nuances of life rather than seek­ing for­mu­la­ic res­o­lu­tions, sug­gest­ing that gen­uine clo­sure often arrives unex­pect­ed­ly.

    By the end of their meet­ing, Cyrus feels a deep sense of con­nec­tion and grat­i­tude for Orkide­h’s insights. He leaves the muse­um pre­oc­cu­pied with both the conversation’s depth and unre­solved ques­tions about his writ­ing and per­son­al expe­ri­ences, hint­ing at a jour­ney of intro­spec­tion that lies ahead .

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Cover of Martyr!: A novel
    Biography

    Martyr!: A novel

    by testsuphomeAdmin
    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    0 Comments

    Heads up! Your comment will be invisible to other guests and subscribers (except for replies), including you after a grace period.
    Note