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    by Alderton, Dolly
    Good Material by Dolly Alderton follows Andy Dawson, a 35-year-old comedian grappling with the end of a long-term relationship. The novel explores male heartbreak, emotional vulnerability, and the complexities of adult friendships. It provides a nuanced portrayal of navigating loss, dating, and self-discovery in one’s thirties, highlighting the often overlooked emotional struggles men face after breakups.
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    Saturday 6th July 2019

    by Alderton, Dolly

    The chap­ter opens with the nar­ra­tor wak­ing up in his mother’s house, grap­pling with the fresh real­i­ty of his recent breakup with Jen, which coin­cides with the end of their rental con­tract. He reflects on the lone­li­ness that now per­vades his belong­ings left behind in their flat, under­scor­ing a sense of iso­la­tion and loss. His imme­di­ate instinct is to check his phone for any mes­sages from Jen, only to find silence. Despite this, he com­pul­sive­ly views her Insta­gram sto­ry, search­ing for clues about why their rela­tion­ship end­ed, yet only encoun­ters a mun­dane image from her morn­ing run, inten­si­fy­ing his emo­tion­al tur­moil.

    As he ven­tures into town on an errand for his moth­er, the nar­ra­tor is haunt­ed by sen­so­ry mem­o­ries of Jen, par­tic­u­lar­ly the scent of her per­fume, which trig­gers a vis­cer­al reac­tion. He con­trasts her usu­al metic­u­lous­ness with this one care­less choice that now relent­less­ly fol­lows him, sym­bol­iz­ing the inescapable pres­ence of their past rela­tion­ship. The phys­i­cal absence of Jen among the crowd stark­ly high­lights his soli­tude. Seek­ing refuge, he choos­es a bright pros­ec­co bar over his usu­al gloomy haunt, where he attempts to drown his sor­rows in cheap wine while lis­ten­ing to a pod­cast, momen­tar­i­ly find­ing solace in the shift­ing effects of alco­hol.

    The encounter with Deb­bie, a fam­i­ly friend, brings a moment of con­nec­tion and sup­port. Deb­bie, empa­thet­ic to his sit­u­a­tion, encour­ages him to active­ly erase Jen from his life to heal, empha­siz­ing the neces­si­ty of wip­ing away mem­o­ries to move for­ward. Their con­ver­sa­tion, though part­ly lost on the nar­ra­tor amidst his swirling thoughts, plants a seed of hope and the promise of rebuild­ing social ties. This inter­ac­tion rep­re­sents a turn­ing point where the nar­ra­tor begins to con­sid­er recov­ery and per­son­al growth beyond his heart­break.

    The chap­ter clos­es with a some­what com­ic yet poignant scene in a phar­ma­cy, where the nar­ra­tor clum­si­ly seeks out Jen’s sig­na­ture per­fume, Armani She. His awk­ward­ness and insis­tence on pur­chas­ing mul­ti­ple bot­tles reflect a com­plex mix­ture of denial, attach­ment, and the strug­gle to let go. The sales assistant’s warm response con­trasts with his inter­nal chaos, under­scor­ing the theme of human con­nec­tion amid per­son­al pain. This moment encap­su­lates the narrator’s con­flict­ed state — caught between cling­ing to the past and the ten­ta­tive steps toward accep­tance.

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    FAQs

    • 1. How does the narrator describe his emotional state upon waking up, and what does this reveal about his situation?

      Answer:
      The narrator describes waking up after a “ten-hour dreamless sleep” and feeling a deep sense of loss and self-pity. He immediately acknowledges his changed reality: he is alone in his mum’s house, his girlfriend Jen has broken up with him, and her belongings have been removed. His pity extends humorously even to inanimate objects like his toothbrush and record collection, which are “all alone in NW5,” symbolizing his isolation. This vivid depiction reveals the narrator’s profound grief and disorientation following the breakup, setting a tone of vulnerability and emotional rawness that permeates the chapter.

      2. What role does social media, specifically Instagram, play in the narrator’s process of coping with the breakup?

      Answer:
      Instagram serves as a double-edged sword for the narrator. He instinctively checks Jen’s story updates, hoping for information about the breakup yet fearing the loss of dignity involved. The platform’s algorithms, which know his habits and emotional state, exacerbate his pain by prominently displaying Jen’s posts. The Instagram story he views—a simple photo of a park during her morning run—offers no closure but instead intensifies his obsession as he searches for hidden “signals.” This illustrates how social media can deepen emotional wounds by keeping one tethered to an ex-partner’s life, complicating the healing process.

      3. Analyze the significance of the perfume “Armani She” in the narrator’s experience of grief and memory.

      Answer:
      The perfume “Armani She” is a powerful sensory trigger for the narrator, symbolizing his lingering attachment to Jen. Despite Jen’s meticulousness about aesthetics and brands, she chose this common perfume, which haunts him as it evokes vivid memories of her presence—her skin, hair, clothes, and even their shared bed. Encountering the scent unexpectedly in a crowd causes an involuntary physical reaction, highlighting how deeply sensory memories can affect emotional healing. The perfume represents both the intimacy they shared and the pain of its loss, underscoring how small details can hold outsized emotional significance in grief.

      4. How does the interaction with Debbie, the family friend, contribute to the narrator’s journey toward acceptance?

      Answer:
      Debbie acts as a compassionate and pragmatic figure in the narrator’s life during this difficult time. Her advice to “WIPE her”—meaning to remove Jen from his life and memories—is delivered with both humor and earnestness. This advice encourages the narrator to actively work towards moving on rather than passively suffering. Although much of their conversation doesn’t fully register due to his emotional state, the narrator feels a sense of connection and friendship with Debbie, promising to spend more time with her. This interaction marks a subtle turning point, suggesting that support from others can be crucial in the healing process.

      5. What does the narrator’s choice of drinking location and behavior reveal about his coping mechanisms?

      Answer:
      The narrator chooses a bright, public prosecco bar filled with mother-daughter pairs and casual shoppers, which contrasts with his usual preference for a dimly lit, intimate dive bar. This choice, driven by circumstance (“needs must”), makes his drunkenness more visible and awkward, as seen when he knocks over a sun cream display and trips over a basket. His rapid consumption of cheap red wine and his shift into a “different state of consciousness” reveal his attempt to numb emotional pain through alcohol. The scene portrays a man struggling to regain composure, using drinking both as a temporary escape and as a way to convince himself he can accept the breakup.

    Quotes

    • 1. “Sobbing is a sedative. I wake up after a ten-hour dreamless sleep and it takes me a few seconds less than yesterday morning to adjust to my new reality.”

      This opening line poignantly captures the narrator’s emotional state and sets the tone for the chapter, highlighting the numbing yet exhausting nature of grief and heartbreak.

      2. “Never has there been a worse time for all of my algorithms to understand my interior life better than I do.”

      This quote reflects the narrator’s bitter irony about technology, illustrating how digital connections can deepen personal pain by mirroring one’s emotional turmoil, emphasizing the modern intersection of technology and intimacy.

      3. “‘If there’s one thing I’d say to you, it’s this: you’ve got to WIPE her.’ She did a vigorous wiping motion with her hand, like she was miming a rag on a car window. ‘WIPE. That’s the only way you’ll move on. Wipe her from your life, wipe her from your memories.’”

      A crucial piece of advice offered to the narrator, this quote encapsulates the chapter’s theme of emotional cleansing and the difficult process of moving on after a breakup.

      4. “The one thing she chose thoughtlessly was the one thing that would follow me around forever; that reminded me of her skin and hair and clothes and bed.”

      This line powerfully conveys how small, seemingly trivial details—like a perfume—can become haunting reminders of lost love, underscoring the inescapability of memory in the aftermath of separation.

      5. “I gulp down the first glass, which tastes astringent on my empty stomach, and then halfway down my second, tastes completely delicious. It is a familiar black magic that happens in the space of one sip.”

      This passage metaphorically describes the narrator’s gradual emotional shift through drinking, symbolizing the complex interplay between pain and temporary relief, and marking a turning point in his coping process.

    Quotes

    1. “Sobbing is a sedative. I wake up after a ten-hour dreamless sleep and it takes me a few seconds less than yesterday morning to adjust to my new reality.”

    This opening line poignantly captures the narrator’s emotional state and sets the tone for the chapter, highlighting the numbing yet exhausting nature of grief and heartbreak.

    2. “Never has there been a worse time for all of my algorithms to understand my interior life better than I do.”

    This quote reflects the narrator’s bitter irony about technology, illustrating how digital connections can deepen personal pain by mirroring one’s emotional turmoil, emphasizing the modern intersection of technology and intimacy.

    3. “‘If there’s one thing I’d say to you, it’s this: you’ve got to WIPE her.’ She did a vigorous wiping motion with her hand, like she was miming a rag on a car window. ‘WIPE. That’s the only way you’ll move on. Wipe her from your life, wipe her from your memories.’”

    A crucial piece of advice offered to the narrator, this quote encapsulates the chapter’s theme of emotional cleansing and the difficult process of moving on after a breakup.

    4. “The one thing she chose thoughtlessly was the one thing that would follow me around forever; that reminded me of her skin and hair and clothes and bed.”

    This line powerfully conveys how small, seemingly trivial details—like a perfume—can become haunting reminders of lost love, underscoring the inescapability of memory in the aftermath of separation.

    5. “I gulp down the first glass, which tastes astringent on my empty stomach, and then halfway down my second, tastes completely delicious. It is a familiar black magic that happens in the space of one sip.”

    This passage metaphorically describes the narrator’s gradual emotional shift through drinking, symbolizing the complex interplay between pain and temporary relief, and marking a turning point in his coping process.

    FAQs

    1. How does the narrator describe his emotional state upon waking up, and what does this reveal about his situation?

    Answer:
    The narrator describes waking up after a “ten-hour dreamless sleep” and feeling a deep sense of loss and self-pity. He immediately acknowledges his changed reality: he is alone in his mum’s house, his girlfriend Jen has broken up with him, and her belongings have been removed. His pity extends humorously even to inanimate objects like his toothbrush and record collection, which are “all alone in NW5,” symbolizing his isolation. This vivid depiction reveals the narrator’s profound grief and disorientation following the breakup, setting a tone of vulnerability and emotional rawness that permeates the chapter.

    2. What role does social media, specifically Instagram, play in the narrator’s process of coping with the breakup?

    Answer:
    Instagram serves as a double-edged sword for the narrator. He instinctively checks Jen’s story updates, hoping for information about the breakup yet fearing the loss of dignity involved. The platform’s algorithms, which know his habits and emotional state, exacerbate his pain by prominently displaying Jen’s posts. The Instagram story he views—a simple photo of a park during her morning run—offers no closure but instead intensifies his obsession as he searches for hidden “signals.” This illustrates how social media can deepen emotional wounds by keeping one tethered to an ex-partner’s life, complicating the healing process.

    3. Analyze the significance of the perfume “Armani She” in the narrator’s experience of grief and memory.

    Answer:
    The perfume “Armani She” is a powerful sensory trigger for the narrator, symbolizing his lingering attachment to Jen. Despite Jen’s meticulousness about aesthetics and brands, she chose this common perfume, which haunts him as it evokes vivid memories of her presence—her skin, hair, clothes, and even their shared bed. Encountering the scent unexpectedly in a crowd causes an involuntary physical reaction, highlighting how deeply sensory memories can affect emotional healing. The perfume represents both the intimacy they shared and the pain of its loss, underscoring how small details can hold outsized emotional significance in grief.

    4. How does the interaction with Debbie, the family friend, contribute to the narrator’s journey toward acceptance?

    Answer:
    Debbie acts as a compassionate and pragmatic figure in the narrator’s life during this difficult time. Her advice to “WIPE her”—meaning to remove Jen from his life and memories—is delivered with both humor and earnestness. This advice encourages the narrator to actively work towards moving on rather than passively suffering. Although much of their conversation doesn’t fully register due to his emotional state, the narrator feels a sense of connection and friendship with Debbie, promising to spend more time with her. This interaction marks a subtle turning point, suggesting that support from others can be crucial in the healing process.

    5. What does the narrator’s choice of drinking location and behavior reveal about his coping mechanisms?

    Answer:
    The narrator chooses a bright, public prosecco bar filled with mother-daughter pairs and casual shoppers, which contrasts with his usual preference for a dimly lit, intimate dive bar. This choice, driven by circumstance (“needs must”), makes his drunkenness more visible and awkward, as seen when he knocks over a sun cream display and trips over a basket. His rapid consumption of cheap red wine and his shift into a “different state of consciousness” reveal his attempt to numb emotional pain through alcohol. The scene portrays a man struggling to regain composure, using drinking both as a temporary escape and as a way to convince himself he can accept the breakup.

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