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    Martyr!: A novel

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    Martyr! by Ryan J. Lee is a gripping and thought-provoking novel that delves into the life of a young man, Aaron, who is driven by religious zeal and a desire for martyrdom. As he grapples with his inner demons and conflicting beliefs, Aaron’s journey leads him to radical decisions that challenge his relationships and the world around him. With raw intensity, the novel explores themes of faith, identity, and the dangerous pursuit of meaning, ultimately questioning the cost of extreme devotion.

    Sit­ting on a bench in Prospect Park, Cyrus felt a heavy weight set­tle in his chest as he lis­tened to the voice­mail from Sang, Orkideh’s gal­lerist and for­mer wife. The news of Orkide­h’s trag­ic pass­ing left him reel­ing, despite the fact that his time with her had been short-lived. In the age of instant noti­fi­ca­tions, death had become just anoth­er item on a list of dai­ly updates, but for Cyrus, this loss felt pro­found­ly per­son­al. Still, he found him­self strug­gling with the con­flict­ing feel­ings of dis­tance and dev­as­ta­tion, lead­ing him to dial Sang’s num­ber, seek­ing some kind of clar­i­ty or under­stand­ing.

    When Sang final­ly answered, her voice sound­ed lighter than in the voice­mail, but the grav­i­ty of the sit­u­a­tion quick­ly became clear. She informed him that Orkideh had made the deci­sion to end her life, a rev­e­la­tion that left Cyrus grap­pling with a wave of dis­be­lief. He couldn’t help but think back to his father’s old beliefs about sick­ness and death, and the famil­iar chill of those mem­o­ries crept up his spine. As he lis­tened, try­ing to process the truth, the con­ver­sa­tion shift­ed toward Orkideh’s thoughts on Cyrus and his grow­ing inter­est in learn­ing more about her. Sang, who had been close to Orkideh for many years, spoke in a way that revealed a deep­er emo­tion­al con­nec­tion to the deceased, mak­ing Cyrus feel like an out­sider to a his­to­ry he didn’t ful­ly under­stand. Despite offer­ing his con­do­lences, the words felt inad­e­quate, unable to bring any com­fort in the face of such an over­whelm­ing loss.

    As the con­ver­sa­tion con­tin­ued, Sang shared more about Orkideh’s life choic­es, includ­ing the cer­tain­ty with which she approached her deci­sion to end it all. Cyrus felt a tor­rent of emo­tions stir with­in him—anger, con­fu­sion, and a pro­found sense of loss as he processed what Sang was reveal­ing. With­out think­ing, he asked her why she had specif­i­cal­ly called him, his voice betray­ing his des­per­a­tion for answers. Sang’s response hit him like a punch: she revealed her anger towards Orkideh, an emo­tion Cyrus had not expect­ed to hear, and it res­onat­ed deeply with him. The emo­tion­al impact of this con­ver­sa­tion esca­lat­ed, espe­cial­ly when Cyrus asked, almost invol­un­tar­i­ly, “Was Orkideh my moth­er?” The raw­ness of the ques­tion shocked him as it left his lips, shat­ter­ing every­thing he thought he knew about his own iden­ti­ty.

    A long silence fol­lowed, as if the weight of the ques­tion had frozen time. Final­ly, Sang revealed that Orkideh had planned to tell him the truth about their con­nec­tion, but per­haps the oppor­tu­ni­ty nev­er arose. This rev­e­la­tion dev­as­tat­ed Cyrus, as he real­ized that he had been liv­ing in igno­rance about his true ori­gins, a truth that had been with­held from him for rea­sons he didn’t ful­ly com­pre­hend. Sang con­tin­ued, explain­ing that Orkideh had rec­og­nized him years lat­er, which only deep­ened Cyrus’s con­fu­sion and sor­row. As he absorbed the shock of this infor­ma­tion, he turned to his phone, scrolling through pho­tos of Orkideh, des­per­ate­ly search­ing for some sign of famil­iar­i­ty or con­nec­tion in her fea­tures. But even as he stared at her images, he strug­gled to rec­og­nize him­self in her, as if the bond he had hoped for was a dis­tant, intan­gi­ble thing.

    The con­ver­sa­tion turned to the prac­ti­cal­i­ties of their loca­tion, and Cyrus found him­self reflect­ing more deeply on the impli­ca­tions of every­thing Sang had shared. With each word, his world was shifting—what he thought he knew about him­self, his fam­i­ly, and his iden­ti­ty was all being called into ques­tion. Moments lat­er, Sang promised to come and meet him, offer­ing a glim­mer of sol­i­dar­i­ty amidst the emo­tion­al storm that Cyrus was expe­ri­enc­ing. This ges­ture marked the begin­ning of a new chap­ter in his life, one that was bound to be filled with new rev­e­la­tions, ques­tions, and an evolv­ing under­stand­ing of his place in the world. As the chap­ter closed, Cyrus was left with the weight of his new real­i­ty, uncer­tain of what lay ahead but deter­mined to con­front the truth about him­self and the fam­i­ly he had nev­er tru­ly known.

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