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    You are being pro­vid­ed with a book chap­ter by chap­ter. I will request you to read the book for me after each chap­ter. After read­ing the chap­ter, 1. short­en the chap­ter to no less than 300 words and no more than 400 words. 2. Do not change the name, address, or any impor­tant nouns in the chap­ter. 3. Do not trans­late the orig­i­nal lan­guage. 4. Keep the same style as the orig­i­nal chap­ter, keep it con­sis­tent through­out the chap­ter. Your reply must com­ply with all four require­ments, or it’s invalid.
    I will pro­vide the chap­ter now.

       
    CHAPTER 24   
    “WHOSE BID IS IT?”
    Pete Souza and I sat oppo­site Mar­vin and Reg­gie at the Air Force One con­fer­ence
    room table, all of us a bit bleary-eyed as we sort­ed through our cards. We were on our
    way to Mumbai—the first leg of a nine-day trip to Asia that would include not only
    my first vis­it to India but also a stop in Jakar­ta, a G20 meet­ing in Seoul, and an Asia-
    Pacif­ic Eco­nom­ic Coop­er­a­tion (APEC) meet­ing in Yoko­hama, Japan. The plane had
    been hum­ming with activ­i­ty ear­li­er in the flight, with staffers work­ing on lap­tops and
    pol­i­cy advi­sors hud­dling over the sched­ule. After ten hours in the air, with a refu­el­ing
    stop at Ram­stein Air Base in Ger­many, almost every­body on board (includ­ing
    Michelle, in the for­ward cab­in; Valerie, on the couch out­side the con­fer­ence room; and
    sev­er­al senior staffers stretched out at odd angles on the floor) had gone to sleep.
    Unable to wind down, I’d enlist­ed our reg­u­lar four­some for a game of Spades, and I
    was try­ing to read through my brief­ing book and sign­ing a stack of cor­re­spon­dence
    between plays. My divid­ed attention—along with Reggie’s sec­ond gin and tonic—may
    have account­ed for the fact that Mar­vin and Pete were up six games to two on us, at
    ten dol­lars a pop.
    “It’s your bid, sir,” Mar­vin said.
    “What you got, Reg?” I asked.
    “Maybe one,” Reg­gie said.
    “We’ll go board,” I said.
    “We’re going eight,” Pete said.
    Reg­gie shook his head in dis­gust. “We’re switch­ing decks after the next hand,” he
    mut­tered, tak­ing anoth­er sip of his drink. “These cards are cursed.”

    ONLY THREE DAYS had passed since the midterm elec­tions, and I was grate­ful for the
    chance to get out of Wash­ing­ton. The results had left Democ­rats shell-shocked and
    Repub­li­cans exu­ber­ant, and I’d wok­en up the next morn­ing with a mix of weari­ness,
    hurt, anger, and shame, the way a box­er must feel after com­ing out on the wrong end
    of a heavy­weight bout. The dom­i­nant sto­ry line in the post­elec­tion cov­er­age sug­gest­ed
    that the con­ven­tion­al wis­dom had been right all along: that I’d attempt­ed to do too
    much and hadn’t stayed focused on the econ­o­my; that Oba­macare was a fatal error;
    that I’d tried to res­ur­rect the kind of big-spend­ing, big-gov­ern­ment lib­er­al­ism that even
    Bill Clin­ton had pro­nounced dead years ago. The fact that in my press con­fer­ence the
    day after the elec­tion I refused to admit as much, that I seemed to cling to the idea that
    my admin­is­tra­tion had pur­sued the right policies—even if we clear­ly hadn’t man­aged
    to sell them effectively—struck pun­dits as arro­gant and delu­sion­al, the sign of a sin­ner
    who wasn’t con­trite.
    The truth was, I didn’t regret paving the way for twen­ty mil­lion peo­ple to get health
    insur­ance. Nor did I regret the Recov­ery Act—the hard evi­dence showed that aus­ter­i­ty
    in response to a reces­sion would have been dis­as­trous. I didn’t regret how we’d
    han­dled the finan­cial cri­sis, giv­en the choic­es we’d faced (although I did regret not
    hav­ing come up with a bet­ter plan to help stem the tide of fore­clo­sures). And I sure as
    hell wasn’t sor­ry I’d pro­posed a cli­mate change bill and pushed for immi­gra­tion
    reform. I was just mad that I hadn’t yet got­ten either item through Congress—mainly
    because, on my very first day in office, I hadn’t had the fore­sight to tell Har­ry Reid
    and the rest of the Sen­ate Democ­rats to revise the cham­ber rules and get rid of the
    fil­i­buster once and for all.
    As far as I was con­cerned, the elec­tion didn’t prove that our agen­da had been wrong.
    It just proved that—whether for lack of tal­ent, cun­ning, charm, or good fortune—I’d
    failed to ral­ly the nation, as FDR had once done, behind what I knew to be right.
    Which to me was just as damn­ing.
    Much to the relief of Gibbs and my press shop, I’d end­ed the press con­fer­ence
    before bar­ing my stub­born, tor­tured soul. I real­ized that jus­ti­fy­ing the past mat­tered
    less than plan­ning what to do next.
    I was going to have to find a way to recon­nect with the Amer­i­can people—not just
    to strength­en my hand in nego­ti­a­tions with Repub­li­cans but to get reelect­ed. A bet­ter
    econ­o­my would help, but even that was hard­ly assured. I need­ed to get out of the
    White House bub­ble, to engage more fre­quent­ly with vot­ers. Mean­while, Axe offered
    his own assess­ment of what had gone wrong, say­ing that in the rush to get things done,
    we’d neglect­ed our promise to change Washington—by sidelin­ing spe­cial inter­ests,
    and increas­ing trans­paren­cy and fis­cal respon­si­bil­i­ty across the fed­er­al gov­ern­ment. If
    we want­ed to win back the vot­ers who’d left us, he argued, we had to reclaim those
    themes.
    But was that right? I wasn’t so sure. Yes, we’d been hurt by the sausage-mak­ing
    around the ACA, and fair­ly or not, we’d been tar­nished by the bank bailouts. On the
    oth­er hand, I could point to scores of “good gov­ern­ment” ini­tia­tives we’d intro­duced,
    whether it was plac­ing lim­its on the hir­ing of for­mer lob­by­ists, or giv­ing the pub­lic
    access to data from fed­er­al agen­cies, or scour­ing agency bud­gets to elim­i­nate waste.
    All these actions were wor­thy on their mer­its, and I was glad we’d tak­en them; it was
    one of the rea­sons we hadn’t had a whiff of scan­dal around my admin­is­tra­tion.
    Polit­i­cal­ly, though, no one seemed to care about our work to clean up the
    government—any more than they cred­it­ed us for hav­ing bent over back­ward to solic­it
    Repub­li­can ideas on every sin­gle one of our leg­isla­tive ini­tia­tives. One of our biggest
    promis­es had been to end par­ti­san bick­er­ing and focus on prac­ti­cal efforts to address
    cit­i­zen demands. Our prob­lem, as Mitch McConnell had cal­cu­lat­ed from the start, was
    that so long as Repub­li­cans uni­form­ly resist­ed our over­tures and raised hell over even
    the most mod­er­ate of pro­pos­als, any­thing we did could be por­trayed as par­ti­san,
    con­tro­ver­sial, radical—even ille­git­i­mate. In fact, many of our pro­gres­sive allies
    believed that we hadn’t been par­ti­san enough. In their view, we’d com­pro­mised too
    much, and by con­tin­u­al­ly chas­ing the false promise of bipar­ti­san­ship, we’d not only
    empow­ered McConnell and squan­dered big Demo­c­ra­t­ic majori­ties; we’d thrown a
    giant wet blan­ket over our base—as evi­denced by the deci­sion of so many Democ­rats
    to not both­er to vote in the midterms.
    Along with hav­ing to fig­ure out a mes­sage and pol­i­cy reboot, I was now fac­ing
    sig­nif­i­cant turnover in White House per­son­nel. On the for­eign pol­i­cy team, Jim Jones
    —who, despite his many strengths, had nev­er felt ful­ly com­fort­able in a staff role after
    years of command—had resigned in Octo­ber. Luck­i­ly, Tom Donilon was prov­ing to be
    a real work­horse and had ably assumed the nation­al secu­ri­ty advi­sor role, with Denis
    McDo­nough mov­ing up to deputy nation­al secu­ri­ty advi­sor and Ben Rhodes assum­ing
    many of Denis’s old duties. On eco­nom­ic pol­i­cy, Peter Orszag and Christy Romer had
    returned to the pri­vate sec­tor, replaced by Jack Lew, a sea­soned bud­get expert who’d
    man­aged OMB under Bill Clin­ton, and Aus­tan Gools­bee, who’d been work­ing with us
    on the recov­ery. Then there was Lar­ry Sum­mers, who had stopped by the Oval one day
    in Sep­tem­ber to tell me that with the finan­cial cri­sis behind us, it was time for him to
    exit. He’d be leav­ing at year’s end.
    “What am I going to do with­out you around to explain why I’m wrong?” I asked,
    only half-jok­ing. Lar­ry smiled.
    “Mr. Pres­i­dent,” he said, “you were actu­al­ly less wrong than most.”
    I’d grown gen­uine­ly fond of those who were leav­ing. Not only had they served me
    well, but despite their var­i­ous idio­syn­crasies, they’d each brought a seri­ous­ness of
    purpose—a com­mit­ment to pol­i­cy mak­ing based on rea­son and evidence—that was
    born of a desire to do right by the Amer­i­can peo­ple. It was, how­ev­er, the impend­ing
    loss of my two clos­est polit­i­cal advi­sors, as well as the need to find a new chief of
    staff, that unset­tled me most.
    Axe had always planned to leave after the midterms. Hav­ing lived apart from his
    fam­i­ly for two years, he bad­ly need­ed a break before join­ing my reelec­tion cam­paign.
    Gibbs, who’d been in the fox­hole with me con­tin­u­ous­ly since I’d won my Sen­ate
    pri­ma­ry race, was just as worn down. Although he remained as well pre­pared and
    fear­less a press sec­re­tary as ever, the strain of stand­ing at a podi­um day after day,
    tak­ing all the hits that had been com­ing our way, had made his rela­tion­ship with the
    White House press corps com­bat­ive enough that the rest of the team wor­ried that it
    was neg­a­tive­ly affect­ing our cov­er­age.
    I was still get­ting used to the prospect of fight­ing the polit­i­cal bat­tles ahead with­out
    Axe and Gibbs at my side, though I took heart in the con­ti­nu­ity pro­vid­ed by our young
    and skill­ful com­mu­ni­ca­tions direc­tor, Dan Pfeif­fer, who had worked close­ly with them
    on mes­sag­ing since the start of our 2007 cam­paign. As for Rahm, I con­sid­ered it a
    minor mir­a­cle that he’d last­ed as long as he had with­out either killing some­body or
    drop­ping dead from a stroke. We’d made a habit of con­duct­ing our end-of-day
    meet­ings out­side when the weath­er allowed, strolling two or three times around the
    dri­ve­way that encir­cled the South Lawn as we tried to fig­ure out what to do about the
    lat­est cri­sis or con­tro­ver­sy. More than once we’d asked our­selves why we’d cho­sen
    such stress­ful lives.
    “After we’re fin­ished, we should try some­thing sim­pler,” I said to him one day. “We
    could move our fam­i­lies to Hawaii and open a smooth­ie stand on the beach.”
    “Smooth­ies are too com­pli­cat­ed,” Rahm said. “We’ll sell T‑shirts. But just white T-
    shirts. In medi­um. That’s it—no oth­er col­ors or pat­terns or sizes. We don’t want to
    have to make any deci­sions. If cus­tomers want some­thing dif­fer­ent, they can go
    some­place else.”
    I had rec­og­nized the signs that Rahm was close to burnout, but I’d assumed he’d
    wait for the new year to leave. Instead, he’d used one of our evening walks in ear­ly
    Sep­tem­ber to tell me that long­time Chica­go may­or Richard M. Daley had just
    announced that he wouldn’t be seek­ing a sev­enth con­sec­u­tive term. Rahm want­ed to
    run—it was a job he’d dreamed of since enter­ing politics—and with the elec­tion
    hap­pen­ing in Feb­ru­ary, he need­ed to leave the White House by the first of Octo­ber if
    he hoped to have a go at it.
    He looked gen­uine­ly dis­traught. “I know I’m putting you in a bind,” he said, “but
    with only five and a half months to run a race—”
    I stopped him before he could fin­ish and said he’d have my full sup­port.
    A week or so lat­er, at a pri­vate farewell cer­e­mo­ny in the res­i­dence, I pre­sent­ed him
    with a framed copy of a to-do list that I’d hand­writ­ten on a legal pad and passed to him
    dur­ing my first week in office. Almost every item had been checked off, I told the
    assem­bled staff, a mea­sure of how effec­tive he’d been. Rahm teared up—a blem­ish on
    his tough-guy image for which he lat­er cursed me.
    None of this turnover was unusu­al for an admin­is­tra­tion, and I saw the poten­tial
    ben­e­fits to shak­ing things up. More than once we’d been accused of being too insu­lar
    and tight­ly con­trolled, in need of fresh per­spec­tives. Rahm’s skill set would be less
    rel­e­vant with­out a Demo­c­ra­t­ic House to help advance leg­is­la­tion. With Pete Rouse
    serv­ing as inter­im chief of staff, I was lean­ing toward hir­ing Bill Daley, who’d been
    com­merce sec­re­tary in the Clin­ton admin­is­tra­tion and was the broth­er of Chicago’s
    out­go­ing may­or, to replace Rahm. Bald­ing and about a decade old­er than me, with a
    dis­tinc­tive South Side accent that evoked his Irish work­ing-class roots, Bill had a
    rep­u­ta­tion as an effec­tive, prag­mat­ic deal­mak­er with strong rela­tion­ships with both
    labor and the busi­ness com­mu­ni­ty; and while I didn’t know him the way I knew Rahm,
    I thought his affa­ble, non­ide­o­log­i­cal style might be well suit­ed for what I expect­ed to
    be a less fran­tic phase of my admin­is­tra­tion. And along with some new faces, I was
    thrilled that I’d be get­ting one back start­ing in Jan­u­ary when David Plouffe, fresh from
    a two-year sab­bat­i­cal with his fam­i­ly, would return as a senior advi­sor and pro­vide our
    White House oper­a­tion with the same strate­gic think­ing, intense focus, and lack of ego
    that had ben­e­fit­ed us so much dur­ing the cam­paign.
    Still, I couldn’t help feel­ing a lit­tle melan­choly over the changes the new year would
    bring: I’d be sur­round­ed by even few­er peo­ple who’d known me before I was
    pres­i­dent, and by few­er col­leagues who were also friends, who’d seen me tired,
    con­fused, angry, or defeat­ed and yet had nev­er stopped hav­ing my back. It was a
    lone­ly thought at a lone­ly time. Which prob­a­bly explains why I was still play­ing cards
    with Mar­vin, Reg­gie, and Pete when I had a full day of meet­ings and appear­ances
    sched­uled to start in less than sev­en hours.
    “Did you guys just win again?” I asked Pete after we fin­ished the hand.
    Pete nod­ded, prompt­ing Reg­gie to gath­er up all the cards, rise from his chair, and
    toss them into the trash bin.
    “Hey, Reg, that’s still a good deck!” Pete said, not both­er­ing to dis­guise his plea­sure
    at the beat­down he and Mar­vin had just admin­is­tered. “Every­body los­es some­times.”
    Reg­gie flashed a hard look at Pete. “Show me some­one who’s okay with los­ing,” he
    said, “and I’ll show you a los­er.”

    I’D NEVER BEEN to India before, but the coun­try had always held a spe­cial place in my
    imag­i­na­tion. Maybe it was its sheer size, with one-sixth of the world’s pop­u­la­tion, an
    esti­mat­ed two thou­sand dis­tinct eth­nic groups, and more than sev­en hun­dred lan­guages
    spo­ken. Maybe it was because I’d spent a part of my child­hood in Indone­sia lis­ten­ing
    to the epic Hin­du tales of the Ramayana and the Mahāb­hāra­ta, or because of my
    inter­est in East­ern reli­gions, or because of a group of Pak­istani and Indi­an col­lege
    friends who’d taught to me to cook dahl and keema and turned me on to Bol­ly­wood
    movies.
    More than any­thing, though, my fas­ci­na­tion with India had to do with Mahat­ma
    Gand­hi. Along with Lin­coln, King, and Man­dela, Gand­hi had pro­found­ly influ­enced
    my think­ing. As a young man, I’d stud­ied his writ­ings and found him giv­ing voice to
    some of my deep­est instincts. His notion of satya­gra­ha, or devo­tion to truth, and the
    pow­er of non­vi­o­lent resis­tance to stir the con­science; his insis­tence on our com­mon
    human­i­ty and the essen­tial one­ness of all reli­gions; and his belief in every society’s
    oblig­a­tion, through its polit­i­cal, eco­nom­ic, and social arrange­ments, to rec­og­nize the
    equal worth and dig­ni­ty of all people—each of these ideas res­onat­ed with me.
    Gandhi’s actions had stirred me even more than his words; he’d put his beliefs to the
    test by risk­ing his life, going to prison, and throw­ing him­self ful­ly into the strug­gles of
    his peo­ple. His non­vi­o­lent cam­paign for Indi­an inde­pen­dence from Britain, which
    began in 1915 and con­tin­ued for more than thir­ty years, hadn’t just helped over­come
    an empire and lib­er­ate much of the sub­con­ti­nent, it had set off a moral charge that
    pulsed around the globe. It became a bea­con for oth­er dis­pos­sessed, mar­gin­al­ized
    groups—including Black Amer­i­cans in the Jim Crow South—intent on secur­ing their
    free­dom.
    Michelle and I had a chance ear­ly in the trip to vis­it Mani Bha­van, the mod­est two-
    sto­ry build­ing tucked into a qui­et Mum­bai neigh­bor­hood that had been Gandhi’s home
    base for many years. Before the start of our tour, our guide, a gra­cious woman in a
    blue sari, showed us the guest­book Dr. King had signed in 1959, when he’d trav­eled to
    India to draw inter­na­tion­al atten­tion to the strug­gle for racial jus­tice in the Unit­ed
    States and pay homage to the man whose teach­ings had inspired him.
    The guide then invit­ed us upstairs to see Gandhi’s pri­vate quar­ters. Tak­ing off our
    shoes, we entered a sim­ple room with a floor of smooth, pat­terned tile, its ter­race doors
    open to admit a slight breeze and a pale, hazy light. I stared at the spar­tan floor bed
    and pil­low, the col­lec­tion of spin­ning wheels, the old-fash­ioned phone and low
    wood­en writ­ing desk, try­ing to imag­ine Gand­hi present in the room, a slight, brown-
    skinned man in a plain cot­ton dhoti, his legs fold­ed under him, com­pos­ing a let­ter to
    the British viceroy or chart­ing the next phase of the Salt March. And in that moment, I
    had the strongest wish to sit beside him and talk. To ask him where he’d found the
    strength and imag­i­na­tion to do so much with so very lit­tle. To ask how he’d recov­ered
    from dis­ap­point­ment.
    He’d had more than his share. For all his extra­or­di­nary gifts, Gand­hi hadn’t been
    able to heal the subcontinent’s deep reli­gious schisms or pre­vent its par­ti­tion­ing into a
    pre­dom­i­nant­ly Hin­du India and an over­whelm­ing­ly Mus­lim Pak­istan, a seis­mic event
    in which untold num­bers died in sec­tar­i­an vio­lence and mil­lions of fam­i­lies were
    forced to pack up what they could car­ry and migrate across new­ly estab­lished bor­ders.
    Despite his labors, he hadn’t undone India’s sti­fling caste sys­tem. Some­how, though,
    he’d marched, fast­ed, and preached well into his seventies—until that final day in
    1948, when on his way to prayer, he was shot at point-blank range by a young Hin­du
    extrem­ist who viewed his ecu­menism as a betray­al of the faith.

    IN MANY RESPECTS, mod­ern-day India count­ed as a suc­cess sto­ry, hav­ing sur­vived
    repeat­ed changeovers in gov­ern­ment, bit­ter feuds with­in polit­i­cal par­ties, var­i­ous
    armed sep­a­ratist move­ments, and all man­ner of cor­rup­tion scan­dals. The tran­si­tion to a
    more mar­ket-based econ­o­my in the 1990s had unleashed the extra­or­di­nary
    entre­pre­neur­ial tal­ents of the Indi­an people—leading to soar­ing growth rates, a
    thriv­ing high-tech sec­tor, and a steadi­ly expand­ing mid­dle class. As a chief archi­tect of
    India’s eco­nom­ic trans­for­ma­tion, Prime Min­is­ter Man­mo­han Singh seemed like a
    fit­ting emblem of this progress: a mem­ber of the tiny, often per­se­cut­ed Sikh reli­gious
    minor­i­ty who’d risen to the high­est office in the land, and a self-effac­ing tech­no­crat
    who’d won people’s trust not by appeal­ing to their pas­sions but by bring­ing about
    high­er liv­ing stan­dards and main­tain­ing a well-earned rep­u­ta­tion for not being cor­rupt.
    Singh and I had devel­oped a warm and pro­duc­tive rela­tion­ship. While he could be
    cau­tious in for­eign pol­i­cy, unwill­ing to get out too far ahead of an Indi­an bureau­cra­cy
    that was his­tor­i­cal­ly sus­pi­cious of U.S. inten­tions, our time togeth­er con­firmed my
    ini­tial impres­sion of him as a man of uncom­mon wis­dom and decen­cy; and dur­ing my
    vis­it to the cap­i­tal city of New Del­hi, we reached agree­ments to strength­en U.S.
    coop­er­a­tion on coun­tert­er­ror­ism, glob­al health, nuclear secu­ri­ty, and trade.
    What I couldn’t tell was whether Singh’s rise to pow­er rep­re­sent­ed the future of
    India’s democ­ra­cy or mere­ly an aber­ra­tion. Our first evening in Del­hi, he and his wife,
    Gur­sha­ran Kaur, host­ed a din­ner par­ty for me and Michelle at their res­i­dence, and
    before join­ing the oth­er guests in a can­dlelit court­yard, Singh and I had a few min­utes
    to chat alone. With­out the usu­al flock of min­ders and note­tak­ers hov­er­ing over our
    shoul­ders, the prime min­is­ter spoke more open­ly about the clouds he saw on the
    hori­zon. The econ­o­my wor­ried him, he said. Although India had fared bet­ter than
    many oth­er coun­tries in the wake of the finan­cial cri­sis, the glob­al slow­down would
    inevitably make it hard­er to gen­er­ate jobs for India’s young and rapid­ly grow­ing
    pop­u­la­tion. Then there was the prob­lem of Pak­istan: Its con­tin­u­ing fail­ure to work
    with India to inves­ti­gate the 2008 ter­ror­ist attacks on hotels and oth­er sites in Mum­bai
    had sig­nif­i­cant­ly increased ten­sions between the two coun­tries, in part because
    Lashkar-e-Tayy­i­ba, the ter­ror­ist orga­ni­za­tion respon­si­ble, was believed to have links to
    Pakistan’s intel­li­gence ser­vice. Singh had resist­ed calls to retal­i­ate against Pak­istan
    after the attacks, but his restraint had cost him polit­i­cal­ly. He feared that ris­ing anti-
    Mus­lim sen­ti­ment had strength­ened the influ­ence of India’s main oppo­si­tion par­ty, the
    Hin­du nation­al­ist Bharatiya Jana­ta Par­ty (BJP).
    “In uncer­tain times, Mr. Pres­i­dent,” the prime min­is­ter said, “the call of reli­gious
    and eth­nic sol­i­dar­i­ty can be intox­i­cat­ing. And it’s not so hard for politi­cians to exploit
    that, in India or any­where else.”
    I nod­ded, recall­ing the con­ver­sa­tion I’d had with Václav Hav­el dur­ing my vis­it to
    Prague and his warn­ing about the ris­ing tide of illib­er­al­ism in Europe. If glob­al­iza­tion
    and a his­toric eco­nom­ic cri­sis were fuel­ing these trends in rel­a­tive­ly wealthy nations—
    if I was see­ing it even in the Unit­ed States with the Tea Party—how could India be
    immune? For the truth was that despite the resilience of its democ­ra­cy and its
    impres­sive recent eco­nom­ic per­for­mance, India still bore lit­tle resem­blance to the
    egal­i­tar­i­an, peace­ful, and sus­tain­able soci­ety Gand­hi had envi­sioned. Across the
    coun­try, mil­lions con­tin­ued to live in squalor, trapped in sun­baked vil­lages or
    labyrinthine slums, even as the titans of Indi­an indus­try enjoyed lifestyles that the rajas
    and moguls of old would have envied. Vio­lence, both pub­lic and pri­vate, remained an
    all-too-per­va­sive part of Indi­an life. Express­ing hos­til­i­ty toward Pak­istan was still the
    quick­est route to nation­al uni­ty, with many Indi­ans tak­ing great pride in the knowl­edge
    that their coun­try had devel­oped a nuclear weapons pro­gram to match Pakistan’s,
    untrou­bled by the fact that a sin­gle mis­cal­cu­la­tion by either side could risk region­al
    anni­hi­la­tion.
    Most of all, India’s pol­i­tics still revolved around reli­gion, clan, and caste. In that
    sense, Singh’s ele­va­tion as prime min­is­ter, some­times her­ald­ed as a hall­mark of the
    country’s progress in over­com­ing sec­tar­i­an divides, was some­what deceiv­ing. He
    hadn’t orig­i­nal­ly become prime min­is­ter as a result of his own pop­u­lar­i­ty. In fact, he
    owed his posi­tion to Sonia Gandhi—the Ital­ian-born wid­ow of for­mer prime min­is­ter
    Rajiv Gand­hi and the head of the Con­gress Par­ty, who’d declined to take the job
    her­self after lead­ing her par­ty coali­tion to vic­to­ry and had instead anoint­ed Singh.
    More than one polit­i­cal observ­er believed that she’d cho­sen Singh pre­cise­ly because as
    an elder­ly Sikh with no nation­al polit­i­cal base, he posed no threat to her forty-year-old
    son, Rahul, whom she was groom­ing to take over the Con­gress Par­ty.
    Both Sonia and Rahul Gand­hi sat at our din­ner table that night. She was a strik­ing
    woman in her six­ties, dressed in a tra­di­tion­al sari, with dark, prob­ing eyes and a qui­et,
    regal pres­ence. That she—a for­mer stay-at-home moth­er of Euro­pean descent—had
    emerged from her grief after her hus­band was killed by a Sri Lankan separatist’s
    sui­cide bomb in 1991 to become a lead­ing nation­al politi­cian tes­ti­fied to the endur­ing
    pow­er of the fam­i­ly dynasty. Rajiv was the grand­son of Jawa­har­lal Nehru, India’s first
    prime min­is­ter and an icon in the inde­pen­dence move­ment. His moth­er, Nehru’s
    daugh­ter, Indi­ra Gand­hi, had spent a total of six­teen years as prime min­is­ter her­self,
    rely­ing on a more ruth­less brand of pol­i­tics than her father had prac­ticed, until 1984
    when she, too, was assas­si­nat­ed.
    At din­ner that night, Sonia Gand­hi lis­tened more than she spoke, care­ful to defer to
    Singh when pol­i­cy mat­ters came up, and often steered the con­ver­sa­tion toward her
    son. It became clear to me, though, that her pow­er was attrib­ut­able to a shrewd and
    force­ful intel­li­gence. As for Rahul, he seemed smart and earnest, his good looks
    resem­bling his mother’s. He offered up his thoughts on the future of pro­gres­sive
    pol­i­tics, occa­sion­al­ly paus­ing to probe me on the details of my 2008 cam­paign. But
    there was a ner­vous, unformed qual­i­ty about him, as if he were a stu­dent who’d done
    the course­work and was eager to impress the teacher but deep down lacked either the
    apti­tude or the pas­sion to mas­ter the sub­ject.
    As it was get­ting late, I noticed Singh fight­ing off sleep, lift­ing his glass every so
    often to wake him­self up with a sip of water. I sig­naled to Michelle that it was time to
    say our good­byes. The prime min­is­ter and his wife walked us to our car. In the dim
    light, he looked frail, old­er than his sev­en­ty-eight years, and as we drove off I
    won­dered what would hap­pen when he left office. Would the baton be suc­cess­ful­ly
    passed to Rahul, ful­fill­ing the des­tiny laid out by his moth­er and pre­serv­ing the
    Con­gress Party’s dom­i­nance over the divi­sive nation­al­ism tout­ed by the BJP?
    Some­how, I was doubt­ful. It wasn’t Singh’s fault. He had done his part, fol­low­ing
    the play­book of lib­er­al democ­ra­cies across the post–Cold War world: uphold­ing the
    con­sti­tu­tion­al order; attend­ing to the quo­tid­i­an, often tech­ni­cal work of boost­ing the
    GDP; and expand­ing the social safe­ty net. Like me, he had come to believe that this
    was all any of us could expect from democ­ra­cy, espe­cial­ly in big, mul­ti­eth­nic,
    mul­tire­li­gious soci­eties like India and the Unit­ed States. Not rev­o­lu­tion­ary leaps or
    major cul­tur­al over­hauls; not a fix for every social pathol­o­gy or last­ing answers for
    those in search of pur­pose and mean­ing in their lives. Just the obser­vance of rules that
    allowed us to sort out or at least tol­er­ate our dif­fer­ences, and gov­ern­ment poli­cies that
    raised liv­ing stan­dards and improved edu­ca­tion enough to tem­per humanity’s baser
    impuls­es.
    Except now I found myself ask­ing whether those impulses—of vio­lence, greed,
    cor­rup­tion, nation­al­ism, racism, and reli­gious intol­er­ance, the all-too-human desire to
    beat back our own uncer­tain­ty and mor­tal­i­ty and sense of insignif­i­cance by
    sub­or­di­nat­ing others—were too strong for any democ­ra­cy to per­ma­nent­ly con­tain. For
    they seemed to lie in wait every­where, ready to resur­face when­ev­er growth rates
    stalled or demo­graph­ics changed or a charis­mat­ic leader chose to ride the wave of
    people’s fears and resent­ments. And as much as I might have wished oth­er­wise, there
    was no Mahat­ma Gand­hi around to tell me what I might do to hold such impuls­es
    back.

    HISTORICALLY, CONGRESSIONAL ambi­tions tend to be low dur­ing the six- or sev­en-week
    stretch between Elec­tion Day and the Christ­mas recess, espe­cial­ly with a shift in par­ty
    con­trol about to hap­pen. The dispir­it­ed losers just want to go home; the win­ners want
    to run out the clock until the new Con­gress gets sworn in. On Jan­u­ary 5, 2011, we’d be
    seat­ing the most Repub­li­can House of Rep­re­sen­ta­tives since 1947, which meant I’d be
    unable to get any leg­is­la­tion called for a vote, much less passed, with­out the assent of
    the incom­ing Speak­er of the House, John Boehn­er. And if there was any ques­tion
    about his agen­da, Boehn­er had already announced that the first bill he’d be call­ing to a
    vote was a total repeal of the ACA.
    We did, how­ev­er, have a win­dow of oppor­tu­ni­ty dur­ing the com­ing lame-duck
    ses­sion. Hav­ing returned from my vis­it to Asia, I was intent on get­ting sev­er­al key
    ini­tia­tives across the fin­ish line before Con­gress adjourned for the hol­i­days:
    rat­i­fi­ca­tion of the New START on nuclear non­pro­lif­er­a­tion that we’d nego­ti­at­ed with
    the Rus­sians; repeal of “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell,” the law that barred gays, les­bians, and
    bisex­u­als from open­ly serv­ing in the mil­i­tary; and pas­sage of the DREAM Act, which
    would estab­lish a path to cit­i­zen­ship for a large swath of chil­dren of undoc­u­ment­ed
    immi­grants. Pete Rouse and Phil Schiliro, who between them had near­ly sev­en­ty years
    of Capi­tol Hill expe­ri­ence, looked dubi­ous when I ran through my lame-duck to-do
    list. Axe actu­al­ly chor­tled.
    “Is that it?” he asked sar­cas­ti­cal­ly.
    Actu­al­ly, it wasn’t. I’d for­got­ten to men­tion that we need­ed to pass a child nutri­tion
    bill that Michelle had made a cen­tral plank in her fight against child­hood obe­si­ty. “It’s
    good pol­i­cy,” I said, “and Michelle’s team’s done a great job lin­ing up sup­port from
    children’s health advo­cates. Plus, if we don’t get it passed, I won’t be able to go
    home.”
    I under­stood some of my staff’s skep­ti­cism about try­ing to move such an ambi­tious
    agen­da. Even if we could muster the six­ty votes need­ed for each of those con­tro­ver­sial
    bills, it wasn’t clear that Har­ry Reid could get enough coop­er­a­tion from Mitch
    McConnell to sched­ule so many votes in such a short time. Still, I didn’t think I was
    being entire­ly delu­sion­al. Almost every item on my list already had some leg­isla­tive
    trac­tion and had either cleared or seemed like­ly to clear the House. And while we
    hadn’t had much luck over­com­ing GOP-led Sen­ate fil­i­busters pre­vi­ous­ly, I knew that
    McConnell had a big-tick­et item of his own that he des­per­ate­ly want­ed to get done:
    pass­ing a law to extend the so-called Bush tax cuts, which would oth­er­wise
    auto­mat­i­cal­ly expire at the end of the year.
    This gave us lever­age.
    I’d long opposed my predecessor’s sig­na­ture domes­tic leg­is­la­tion, laws passed in
    2001 and 2003 that changed the U.S. tax code in ways that dis­pro­por­tion­ate­ly
    ben­e­fit­ed high-net-worth indi­vid­u­als while accel­er­at­ing the trend of wealth and income
    inequal­i­ty. War­ren Buf­fett liked to point out that the law enabled him to pay tax­es at a
    sig­nif­i­cant­ly low­er rate—proportionate to his income, which came almost entire­ly
    from cap­i­tal gains and dividends—than his sec­re­tary did on her salary. The laws’
    changes to the estate tax alone had reduced the tax bur­den for the top 2 per­cent of
    America’s rich­est fam­i­lies by more than $130 bil­lion. Not only that, but by tak­ing
    rough­ly $1.3 tril­lion in pro­ject­ed rev­enue out of the U.S. Trea­sury, the laws had helped
    turn a fed­er­al bud­get sur­plus under Bill Clin­ton into a bur­geon­ing deficit—a deficit
    that many Repub­li­cans were now using to jus­ti­fy their calls for cuts to Social Secu­ri­ty,
    Medicare, Med­ic­aid, and the rest of America’s social safe­ty net.
    The Bush tax cuts might have been bad pol­i­cy, but they had also mod­est­ly low­ered
    the tax bill of most Amer­i­cans, which made rolling them back polit­i­cal­ly tricky. Polls
    con­sis­tent­ly showed a strong major­i­ty of Amer­i­cans favor­ing high­er tax­es on the rich.
    But even well-to-do lawyers and doc­tors didn’t con­sid­er them­selves rich, espe­cial­ly if
    they lived in high-cost areas; and after a decade in which the bot­tom 90 per­cent of
    earn­ers had seen stag­nant wages, very few peo­ple thought their own tax­es should go
    up. Dur­ing the cam­paign, my team and I had set­tled on what we con­sid­ered a pol­i­cy
    sweet spot, propos­ing that the Bush tax cuts be repealed selec­tive­ly, affect­ing only
    those fam­i­lies with income greater than $250,000 a year (or indi­vid­u­als earn­ing more
    than $200,000). This approach had almost uni­ver­sal sup­port from con­gres­sion­al
    Democ­rats, would affect only the rich­est 2 per­cent of Amer­i­cans, and would still yield
    rough­ly $680 bil­lion over the next decade, funds we could use to expand child­care,
    health­care, job train­ing, and edu­ca­tion pro­grams for the less well-off.
    I hadn’t changed my mind on any of this—getting the rich to pay more in tax­es was
    not only a mat­ter of fair­ness but also the only way to fund new ini­tia­tives. But as had
    been true with so many of my cam­paign pro­pos­als, the finan­cial cri­sis had forced me
    to rethink when we should try to do it. Ear­ly in my term, when it looked like the
    coun­try might careen into a depres­sion, my eco­nom­ic team had per­sua­sive­ly argued
    that any increase in taxes—even those tar­get­ing rich peo­ple and For­tune 500
    companies—would be coun­ter­pro­duc­tive, since it would take mon­ey out of the
    econ­o­my pre­cise­ly at a time when we want­ed indi­vid­u­als and busi­ness­es to get out
    there and spend. With the econ­o­my bare­ly on the mend, the prospect of tax hikes still
    made the team ner­vous.
    And as it was, Mitch McConnell had threat­ened to block any­thing less than a full
    exten­sion of the Bush tax cuts. Which meant that our only option for get­ting rid of
    them right away—an option many pro­gres­sive com­men­ta­tors urged us to take—
    involved doing noth­ing and sim­ply let­ting everybody’s tax rates auto­mat­i­cal­ly revert to
    high­er, Clin­ton-era lev­els on the first of Jan­u­ary. Democ­rats could then return in the
    new year and pro­pose replace­ment leg­is­la­tion that would reduce tax rates for
    Amer­i­cans mak­ing less than $250,000 a year, essen­tial­ly dar­ing Repub­li­cans to vote
    no.
    It was a strat­e­gy we strong­ly con­sid­ered. But Joe Biden and our leg­isla­tive team
    wor­ried that giv­en how bad­ly we’d lost in the midterms, cen­trist Democ­rats might
    break ranks on the issue and then Repub­li­cans would use those defec­tions to mar­shal a
    vote that made the tax cuts per­ma­nent. Pol­i­tics aside, the prob­lem with play­ing
    chick­en with the GOP, I decid­ed, was the imme­di­ate impact it would have on a still-
    frag­ile econ­o­my. Even if we could hold our Democ­rats in line and Repub­li­cans
    ulti­mate­ly buck­led under the pres­sure, it still could take months to get any tax
    leg­is­la­tion through a divid­ed Con­gress. In the mean­time, mid­dle- and work­ing-class
    Amer­i­cans would have small­er pay­checks, busi­ness­es would rein in their invest­ments
    even fur­ther, the stock mar­ket would tank again, and the econ­o­my would almost
    cer­tain­ly end up back in a reces­sion.
    After gam­ing out var­i­ous sce­nar­ios, I sent Joe up to Capi­tol Hill to nego­ti­ate with
    McConnell. We would sup­port a two-year exten­sion of all the Bush tax cuts—but only
    if Repub­li­cans agreed to extend emer­gency unem­ploy­ment ben­e­fits, the Recov­ery
    Act’s low­er- to mid­dle-class tax cred­it (Mak­ing Work Pay), and anoth­er pack­age of
    refund­able tax cred­its ben­e­fit­ing the work­ing poor for an equiv­a­lent peri­od.
    McConnell imme­di­ate­ly balked. Hav­ing pre­vi­ous­ly declared that “the sin­gle most
    impor­tant thing we want to achieve is for Pres­i­dent Oba­ma to be a one-term
    pres­i­dent,” he was appar­ent­ly loath to let me claim that I’d cut tax­es for the major­i­ty of
    Amer­i­cans with­out Repub­li­cans hav­ing forced me to do it. I couldn’t say I was
    sur­prised; one of the rea­sons I’d cho­sen Joe to act as an intermediary—in addi­tion to
    his Sen­ate expe­ri­ence and leg­isla­tive acumen—was my aware­ness that in McConnell’s
    mind, nego­ti­a­tions with the vice pres­i­dent didn’t inflame the Repub­li­can base in quite
    the same way that any appear­ance of coop­er­at­ing with (Black, Mus­lim social­ist)
    Oba­ma was bound to do.
    After a lot of back-and-forth, and after we’d agreed to swap the Mak­ing Work Pay
    tax cred­it for a pay­roll tax cut, McConnell final­ly relent­ed and, on Decem­ber 6, 2010, I
    was able to announce that a com­pre­hen­sive agree­ment had been reached.
    From a pol­i­cy per­spec­tive, we were pleased with the out­come. While it was painful
    to keep the tax cuts for the wealthy in place for anoth­er two years, we’d man­aged to
    extend tax relief for mid­dle-class fam­i­lies while lever­ag­ing an addi­tion­al $212 bil­lion
    worth of eco­nom­ic stim­u­lus specif­i­cal­ly tar­get­ed at those Amer­i­cans most in need—
    the kind of pack­age we’d have no chance of pass­ing through a Repub­li­can-con­trolled
    House as a stand-alone bill. As for the pol­i­tics behind the deal, I explained to Valerie
    that the two-year time frame rep­re­sent­ed a high-stakes wager between the Repub­li­cans
    and me. I was bet­ting that in Novem­ber 2012, I’d be com­ing off a suc­cess­ful reelec­tion
    cam­paign, allow­ing me to end the tax cuts for the wealthy from a posi­tion of strength.
    They were bet­ting that they’d beat me—and that a new Repub­li­can pres­i­dent would
    help them make the Bush tax cuts per­ma­nent.
    The fact that the deal left so much rid­ing on the next pres­i­den­tial elec­tion might
    explain why it imme­di­ate­ly pro­voked out­rage from left-lean­ing com­men­ta­tors. They
    accused me of cav­ing to McConnell and Boehn­er and of being com­pro­mised by my
    bud­dies on Wall Street and advi­sors like Lar­ry and Tim. They warned that the pay­roll
    tax cut would weak­en the Social Secu­ri­ty Trust Funds; that the refund­able tax cred­its
    ben­e­fit­ing the work­ing poor would prove ephemer­al; and that in two years’ time, the
    Bush tax cuts for the wealthy would be made per­ma­nent, just like the Repub­li­cans had
    always want­ed.
    In oth­er words, they, too, expect­ed me to lose.
    As it so hap­pened, the same mid-Decem­ber week we announced the deal with
    McConnell, Bill Clin­ton joined me in the Oval Office din­ing room for a vis­it.
    What­ev­er ten­sions had exist­ed between us dur­ing the cam­paign had large­ly dis­si­pat­ed
    by then, and I found it use­ful to hear the lessons he’d learned after suf­fer­ing a sim­i­lar
    midterm shel­lack­ing at the hands of Newt Gin­grich in 1994. At some point, we got
    into the nit­ty-grit­ty of the tax agree­ment I’d just made, and Clin­ton couldn’t have been
    more enthu­si­as­tic.
    “You need to tell that to some of our friends,” I said, not­ing the blow­back we were
    get­ting from cer­tain Demo­c­ra­t­ic cir­cles.
    “If I have the chance, I will,” Clin­ton said.
    That gave me an idea. “How about you get the chance right now?” Before he could
    answer, I walked over to Katie’s desk and asked her to have the press team rus­tle up
    any cor­re­spon­dents who were in the build­ing. Fif­teen min­utes lat­er, Bill Clin­ton and I
    stepped into the White House brief­ing room.
    Explain­ing to the star­tled reporters that they might like to get some per­spec­tive on
    our tax deal from the per­son who’d over­seen just about the best U.S. econ­o­my we’d
    expe­ri­enced in recent his­to­ry, I turned the podi­um over to Clin­ton. It didn’t take long
    for the for­mer pres­i­dent to own the room, mus­ter­ing all of his raspy-voiced, lip-bit­ing
    Arkansas charm to make the case for our deal with McConnell. In fact, short­ly after
    the impromp­tu press con­fer­ence began, I real­ized I had anoth­er com­mit­ment to get to,
    but Clin­ton was clear­ly enjoy­ing him­self so much that I didn’t want to cut him off.
    Instead, I leaned into the micro­phone to say that I had to leave but that Pres­i­dent
    Clin­ton could stick around. Lat­er, I asked Gibbs how the whole thing had played.
    “The cov­er­age was great,” Gibbs said. “Though a few of the talk­ing heads said that
    you dimin­ished your­self by giv­ing Clin­ton the plat­form.”
    I wasn’t too wor­ried about that. I knew that Clinton’s poll num­bers were a whole lot
    high­er than mine at the time, part­ly because the con­ser­v­a­tive press that had once
    vil­i­fied him now found it use­ful to offer him up as a con­trast to me, the kind of
    rea­son­able, cen­trist Demo­c­rat, they said, that Repub­li­cans could work with. His
    endorse­ment would help us sell the deal to the broad­er pub­lic and tamp down any
    poten­tial rebel­lion among con­gres­sion­al Democ­rats. It was an irony that I—like many
    mod­ern leaders—eventually learned to live with: You nev­er looked as smart as the ex-
    pres­i­dent did on the side­lines.
    Our tem­po­rary détente with McConnell on tax­es allowed us to focus on the rest of
    my lame-duck to-do list. Michelle’s child nutri­tion bill had already received enough
    Repub­li­can sup­port to pass in ear­ly Decem­ber with rel­a­tive­ly lit­tle fuss, despite
    accu­sa­tions from Sarah Palin (now a Fox News com­men­ta­tor) that Michelle was intent
    on tak­ing away the free­dom of Amer­i­can par­ents to feed their chil­dren as they saw fit.
    Mean­while, the House was work­ing through the details of a food safe­ty bill that would
    pass lat­er in the month.
    Rat­i­fy­ing New START in the Sen­ate proved more challenging—not only because,
    as a treaty, it required 67 rather than 60 votes but because domes­ti­cal­ly there was no
    strong con­stituen­cy clam­or­ing to get it done. I had to nag Har­ry Reid to pri­or­i­tize the
    issue dur­ing the lame-duck ses­sions, explain­ing that U.S. credibility—not to men­tion
    my own stand­ing with oth­er world leaders—was at stake, and that a fail­ure to rat­i­fy the
    treaty would under­mine our efforts to enforce sanc­tions against Iran and get oth­er
    coun­tries to tight­en up their own nuclear secu­ri­ty. Once I got Harry’s grudg­ing
    com­mit­ment to bring the treaty up for a vote (“I don’t know how I’ll find the floor
    time, Mr. Pres­i­dent,” he grum­bled over the phone, “but if you tell me it’s impor­tant I’ll
    do my best, okay?”), we went to work lin­ing up Repub­li­can votes. The Joint Chiefs’
    endorse­ment of the treaty helped; so did strong sup­port from my old friend Dick
    Lugar, who remained the rank­ing Repub­li­can on the Sen­ate For­eign Rela­tions
    Com­mit­tee and right­ly viewed New START as an exten­sion of his ear­li­er work on
    nuclear non­pro­lif­er­a­tion.
    Even so, clos­ing the deal required me to com­mit to a mul­ti­year, multi­bil­lion-dol­lar
    mod­ern­iza­tion of the infra­struc­ture around the Unit­ed States’ nuclear stock­pile, at the
    insis­tence of con­ser­v­a­tive Ari­zona sen­a­tor Jon Kyl. Giv­en my long-term goal of
    elim­i­nat­ing nuclear weapons, not to men­tion all the bet­ter ways I could think of to use
    bil­lions of fed­er­al dol­lars, this con­ces­sion felt like a devil’s bar­gain, though our in-
    house experts, many of whom were ded­i­cat­ed to nuclear dis­ar­ma­ment, assured me that
    our aging nuclear weapons sys­tems did need upgrades in order to reduce the risk of a
    cat­a­stroph­ic mis­cal­cu­la­tion or acci­dent. And when New START final­ly cleared the
    Sen­ate by a 71–26 vote, I breathed a big sigh of relief.

    THE WHITE HOUSE nev­er looked more beau­ti­ful than dur­ing the hol­i­day sea­son. Huge
    pine wreaths with red vel­vet bows lined the walls along the colon­nade and the main
    cor­ri­dor of the East Wing, and the oaks and mag­no­lias in the Rose Gar­den were strewn
    with lights. The offi­cial White House Christ­mas tree, a majes­tic fir deliv­ered by horse-
    drawn car­riage, occu­pied most of the Blue Room, but trees almost as spec­tac­u­lar filled
    near­ly every pub­lic space in the res­i­dence. Over the course of three days, an army of
    vol­un­teers orga­nized by the Social Office dec­o­rat­ed the trees, halls, and Grand Foy­er
    with a daz­zling array of orna­ments, while the White House pas­try chefs pre­pared an
    elab­o­rate gin­ger­bread repli­ca of the res­i­dence, com­plete with fur­ni­ture, cur­tains, and—
    dur­ing my presidency—a minia­ture ver­sion of Bo.
    The hol­i­day sea­son also meant we host­ed par­ties prac­ti­cal­ly every after­noon and
    evening for three and a half weeks straight. These were big, fes­tive affairs, with three
    to four hun­dred guests at a time, laugh­ing and chomp­ing on lamb chops and crab cakes
    and drink­ing eggnog and wine while mem­bers of the Unit­ed States Marine Band,
    spiffy in their red coats, played all the hol­i­day stan­dards. For me and Michelle, the
    after­noon par­ties were easy—we just dropped by for a few min­utes to wish every­one
    well from behind a rope line. But the evening events called for us to posi­tion our­selves
    in the Diplo­mat­ic Recep­tion Room for two hours or more, pos­ing for pho­tos with
    near­ly every guest. Michelle didn’t mind doing this at the par­ties we host­ed for the
    fam­i­lies of Secret Ser­vice per­son­nel and the res­i­dence staff, despite what stand­ing in
    heels for that long did to her feet. Her hol­i­day spir­its dimmed, how­ev­er, when it came
    to fet­ing mem­bers of Con­gress and the polit­i­cal media. Maybe it was because they
    demand­ed more atten­tion (“Stop mak­ing so much small talk!” she’d whis­per to me
    dur­ing momen­tary breaks in the action); or because some of the same peo­ple who
    reg­u­lar­ly appeared on TV call­ing for her husband’s head on a spike some­how had the
    nerve to put their arms around her and smile for the cam­era as if they were her best
    high school chums.
    Back in the West Wing, much of my team’s ener­gy in the weeks before Christ­mas
    went toward push­ing through the two most con­tro­ver­sial bills left on my dock­et:
    “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” (DADT) and the DREAM Act. Along­side abor­tion, guns, and
    just about any­thing to do with race, the issues of LGBTQ rights and immi­gra­tion had
    occu­pied cen­ter stage in America’s cul­ture wars for decades, in part because they
    raised the most basic ques­tion in our democracy—namely, who do we con­sid­er a true
    mem­ber of the Amer­i­can fam­i­ly, deserv­ing of the same rights, respect, and con­cern
    that we expect for our­selves? I believed in defin­ing that fam­i­ly broadly—it includ­ed
    gay peo­ple as well as straight, and it includ­ed immi­grant fam­i­lies that had put down
    roots and raised kids here, even if they hadn’t come through the front door. How could
    I believe oth­er­wise, when some of the same argu­ments for their exclu­sion had so often
    been used to exclude those who looked like me?
    That’s not to say that I dis­missed those with dif­fer­ent views on LGBTQ and
    immi­gra­tion rights as heart­less big­ots. For one thing, I had enough self-awareness—or
    at least a good enough memory—to know that my own atti­tudes toward gays, les­bians,
    and trans­gen­der peo­ple hadn’t always been par­tic­u­lar­ly enlight­ened. I grew up in the
    1970s, a time when LGBTQ life was far less vis­i­ble to those out­side the com­mu­ni­ty,
    so that Toot’s sis­ter (and one of my favorite rel­a­tives), Aunt Arlene, felt oblig­ed to
    intro­duce her part­ner of twen­ty years as “my close friend Marge” when­ev­er she vis­it­ed
    us in Hawaii.
    And like many teenage boys in those years, my friends and I some­times threw
    around words like “fag” or “gay” at each oth­er as casu­al put-downs—callow attempts
    to for­ti­fy our mas­culin­i­ty and hide our inse­cu­ri­ties. Once I got to col­lege and became
    friends with fel­low stu­dents and pro­fes­sors who were open­ly gay, though, I real­ized
    the overt dis­crim­i­na­tion and hate they were sub­ject to, as well as the lone­li­ness and
    self-doubt that the dom­i­nant cul­ture imposed on them. I felt ashamed of my past
    behavior—and learned to do bet­ter.
    As for immi­gra­tion, dur­ing my youth I’d giv­en the issue lit­tle thought beyond the
    vague mythol­o­gy of Ellis Island and the Stat­ue of Lib­er­ty trans­mit­ted through pop­u­lar
    cul­ture. The pro­gres­sion of my think­ing came lat­er, when my orga­niz­ing work in
    Chica­go intro­duced me to the pre­dom­i­nant­ly Mex­i­can com­mu­ni­ties of Pilsen and
    Lit­tle Village—neighborhoods where the usu­al cat­e­gories of native-born Amer­i­cans,
    nat­u­ral­ized cit­i­zens, green-card hold­ers, and undoc­u­ment­ed immi­grants all but
    dis­solved, since many, if not most, fam­i­lies includ­ed all four. Over time, peo­ple shared
    with me what it was like to have to hide your back­ground, always afraid that the life
    you’d worked so hard to build might be upend­ed in an instant. They talked about the
    sheer exhaus­tion and expense of deal­ing with an often heart­less or arbi­trary
    immi­gra­tion sys­tem, the sense of help­less­ness that came with hav­ing to work for
    employ­ers who took advan­tage of your immi­gra­tion sta­tus to pay you sub­min­i­mum
    wages. The friend­ships I made and the sto­ries I heard in those Chica­go neigh­bor­hoods,
    and from LGBTQ peo­ple dur­ing col­lege and my ear­ly career, had opened my heart to
    the human dimen­sions of issues that I’d once thought of in main­ly abstract terms.
    For me, the “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” sit­u­a­tion was straight­for­ward: I con­sid­ered a
    pol­i­cy that pre­vent­ed LGBTQ per­sons from open­ly serv­ing in our mil­i­tary to be both
    offen­sive to Amer­i­can ideals and cor­ro­sive to the armed forces. DADT was the result
    of a flawed com­pro­mise between Bill Clinton—who’d cam­paigned on the idea of
    end­ing the out­right ban on LGBTQ peo­ple serv­ing in the military—and his Joint
    Chiefs, who’d insist­ed that such a change would dam­age morale and reten­tion. Since
    going into effect in 1994, DADT had done lit­tle to pro­tect or dig­ni­fy any­one and, in
    fact, had led to the dis­charge of more than thir­teen thou­sand ser­vice mem­bers sole­ly
    due to their sex­u­al ori­en­ta­tion. Those who remained had to hide who they were and
    who they loved, unable to safe­ly put up fam­i­ly pic­tures in their work spaces or attend
    social func­tions on base with their part­ners. As the first African Amer­i­can com­man­der
    in chief, I felt a spe­cial respon­si­bil­i­ty to end the pol­i­cy, mind­ful that Blacks in the
    mil­i­tary had tra­di­tion­al­ly faced insti­tu­tion­al prej­u­dice and been barred from lead­er­ship
    roles and for decades had been forced to serve in seg­re­gat­ed units—a pol­i­cy Har­ry
    Tru­man had final­ly end­ed with an exec­u­tive order in 1948.
    The ques­tion was how best to accom­plish the change. From the out­set, LGBTQ
    advo­cates urged me to fol­low Truman’s exam­ple and sim­ply issue an order to reverse
    the policy—particularly since I’d already used exec­u­tive orders and mem­o­ran­da to
    address oth­er reg­u­la­tions adverse­ly affect­ing LGBTQ peo­ple, includ­ing the grant­i­ng of
    hos­pi­tal vis­i­ta­tion rights and the exten­sion of ben­e­fits to domes­tic part­ners of fed­er­al
    employ­ees. But in short-cir­cuit­ing the con­sen­sus build­ing involved in pass­ing
    leg­is­la­tion, an exec­u­tive order increased the like­li­hood of resis­tance to the new pol­i­cy
    inside the mil­i­tary, and foot-drag­ging in its imple­men­ta­tion. And, of course, a future
    pres­i­dent could always reverse an exec­u­tive order with the mere stroke of a pen.
    I’d con­clud­ed that the opti­mal solu­tion was to get Con­gress to act. To do that, I
    need­ed the military’s top lead­ers as active and will­ing partners—which, in the mid­dle
    of two wars, I knew wouldn’t be easy. Pre­vi­ous Joint Chiefs had opposed repeal­ing
    DADT, rea­son­ing that the inte­gra­tion of open­ly gay ser­vice mem­bers might adverse­ly
    impact unit cohe­sion and dis­ci­pline. (Con­gres­sion­al oppo­nents of repeal, includ­ing
    John McCain, claimed that intro­duc­ing such a dis­rup­tive new pol­i­cy dur­ing wartime
    amount­ed to a betray­al of our troops.) To their cred­it, though, Bob Gates and Mike
    Mullen didn’t flinch when I told them, ear­ly in my term, that I intend­ed to reverse
    DADT. Gates said that he’d already asked his staff to qui­et­ly begin inter­nal plan­ning
    on the issue, less out of any per­son­al enthu­si­asm for the pol­i­cy change than out of a
    prac­ti­cal con­cern that fed­er­al courts might ulti­mate­ly find DADT uncon­sti­tu­tion­al and
    force a change on the mil­i­tary overnight. Rather than try to talk me out of my posi­tion,
    he and Mullen asked that I let them set up a task force to eval­u­ate the impli­ca­tions of
    the pro­posed change on mil­i­tary operations—which would ulti­mate­ly con­duct a
    com­pre­hen­sive sur­vey of troops’ atti­tudes toward hav­ing open­ly gay mem­bers in their
    ranks. The objec­tive, Gates said, was to min­i­mize dis­rup­tion and divi­sion.
    “If you’re going to do this, Mr. Pres­i­dent,” Gates added, “we should at least be able
    to tell you how to do it right.”
    I warned Gates and Mullen that I didn’t con­sid­er dis­crim­i­na­tion against LGBTQ
    peo­ple to be an issue sub­ject to plebiscite. Nev­er­the­less, I agreed to their request,
    part­ly because I trust­ed them to set up an hon­est eval­u­a­tion process but main­ly because
    I sus­pect­ed that the sur­vey would show our troops—most of whom were decades
    younger than the high-rank­ing generals—to be more open-mind­ed toward gays and
    les­bians than peo­ple expect­ed. Appear­ing before the Sen­ate Armed Ser­vices
    Com­mit­tee on Feb­ru­ary 2, 2010, Gates fur­ther val­i­dat­ed my trust when he said, “I
    ful­ly sup­port the president’s deci­sion” to reex­am­ine DADT. But it was Mike Mullen’s
    tes­ti­mo­ny before the com­mit­tee that same day that real­ly made news, as he became the
    first sit­ting senior U.S. mil­i­tary leader in his­to­ry to pub­licly argue that LGBTQ
    per­sons should be allowed to open­ly serve: “Mr. Chair­man, speak­ing for myself and
    myself only, it is my per­son­al belief that allow­ing gays and les­bians to serve open­ly
    would be the right thing to do. No mat­ter how I look at this issue, I can­not escape
    being trou­bled by the fact that we have in place a pol­i­cy which forces young men and
    women to lie about who they are in order to defend their fel­low cit­i­zens. For me
    per­son­al­ly, it comes down to integri­ty, theirs as indi­vid­u­als and ours as an insti­tu­tion.”
    Nobody in the White House had coor­di­nat­ed with Mullen on the state­ment; I’m not
    even sure that Gates had known ahead of time what Mullen planned to say. But his
    unequiv­o­cal state­ment imme­di­ate­ly shift­ed the pub­lic debate and cre­at­ed impor­tant
    polit­i­cal cov­er for fence-sit­ting sen­a­tors, who could then feel jus­ti­fied in embrac­ing the
    repeal.
    Mullen’s tes­ti­mo­ny came months before the eval­u­a­tion process he and Gates had
    request­ed was com­plet­ed, which caused some polit­i­cal headaches. Pro­po­nents of
    repeal start­ed com­ing hard at us, both pri­vate­ly and in the press, unable to under­stand
    why I wouldn’t sim­ply issue an exec­u­tive order when the chair­man of the Joint Chiefs
    sup­port­ed a pol­i­cy change—especially because, while we took our sweet time with a
    sur­vey, LGBTQ ser­vice mem­bers were still being dis­charged. Valerie and her team
    bore the brunt of the friend­ly fire, par­tic­u­lar­ly Bri­an Bond, a high­ly regard­ed gay
    activist who served as our prin­ci­pal liai­son to the com­mu­ni­ty. For months, Bri­an had to
    defend my deci­sion-mak­ing, as skep­ti­cal friends, for­mer col­leagues, and mem­bers of
    the press sug­gest­ed that he’d been co-opt­ed, ques­tion­ing his com­mit­ment to the cause.
    I can only imag­ine the toll this took on him per­son­al­ly.
    The crit­i­cism grew loud­er in Sep­tem­ber 2010 when, as Gates had pre­dict­ed, a
    fed­er­al dis­trict court in Cal­i­for­nia ruled that DADT was uncon­sti­tu­tion­al. I asked
    Gates to for­mal­ly sus­pend all dis­charges while the case was appealed. But no mat­ter
    how hard I pressed, he repeat­ed­ly refused my request, argu­ing that as long as DADT
    was in place, he was oblig­at­ed to enforce it; and I knew that order­ing him to do
    some­thing he con­sid­ered inap­pro­pri­ate might force me to have to find a new defense
    sec­re­tary. It was per­haps the only time I came close to yelling at Gates, and not just
    because I con­sid­ered his legal analy­sis faulty. He seemed to con­sid­er the frus­tra­tions
    we were hear­ing from LGBTQ advocates—not to men­tion the anguished sto­ries of gay
    and les­bian ser­vice mem­bers who were under his charge—as one more bit of “pol­i­tics”
    from which I should shield him and the Pen­ta­gon, rather than a cen­tral con­sid­er­a­tion in
    his own deci­sion-mak­ing. (Ulti­mate­ly he did at least mod­i­fy DADT’s admin­is­tra­tive
    pro­ce­dures in such a way that near­ly all actu­al dis­charges were halt­ed while we
    await­ed res­o­lu­tion on the issue.)
    Mer­ci­ful­ly, toward the end of that same month, the results from the troop study
    final­ly came in. They con­firmed what I’d sus­pect­ed: Two-thirds of those sur­veyed
    thought that allow­ing those gay, les­bian, and bisex­u­al col­leagues to serve open­ly
    would have lit­tle or no impact on—or might actu­al­ly improve—the military’s abil­i­ty to
    exe­cute its mis­sions. In fact, most troops believed that they were either already
    work­ing or had worked with LGBTQ ser­vice mem­bers and had expe­ri­enced no
    dif­fer­ence in their abil­i­ty to per­form their duties.
    Get exposed to oth­er people’s truths, I thought, and atti­tudes change.
    With the sur­vey in hand, Gates and Mullen offi­cial­ly endorsed the repeal of DADT.
    Meet­ing with me in the Oval Office, the oth­er Joint Chiefs pledged to imple­ment the
    pol­i­cy with­out undue delay. In fact, Gen­er­al James Amos, the Marine com­man­dant
    and a firm oppo­nent of repeal, drew smiles when he said, “I can promise you, Mr.
    Pres­i­dent, that none of these oth­er branch­es are going to do it faster or bet­ter than the
    U.S. Marine Corps.” And on Decem­ber 18, the Sen­ate passed the bill 65–31, with
    eight Repub­li­can votes.
    A few days lat­er, for­mer and cur­rent LGBTQ ser­vice mem­bers filled an audi­to­ri­um
    at the Depart­ment of the Inte­ri­or as I signed the bill. Many were in dress uni­form, their
    faces express­ing a med­ley of joy, pride, relief, and tears. As I addressed the crowd, I
    saw a num­ber of the advo­cates who’d been some of our fiercest crit­ics just a few
    weeks ear­li­er now smil­ing in appre­ci­a­tion. Spot­ting Bri­an Bond, I gave him a nod. But
    the biggest applause that day was reserved for Mike Mullen—a long, heart­felt stand­ing
    ova­tion. As I watched the admi­ral stand­ing on the stage, vis­i­bly moved despite the
    awk­ward grin on his face, I couldn’t have been hap­pi­er for him. It wasn’t often, I
    thought, that a true act of con­science is rec­og­nized that way.

    WHEN IT CAME to immi­gra­tion, every­one agreed that the sys­tem was bro­ken. The
    process of immi­grat­ing legal­ly to the Unit­ed States could take a decade or longer, often
    depend­ing on what coun­try you were com­ing from and how much mon­ey you had.
    Mean­while, the eco­nom­ic gulf between us and our south­ern neigh­bors drove hun­dreds
    of thou­sands of peo­ple to ille­gal­ly cross the 1,933-mile U.S.-Mexico bor­der each year,
    search­ing for work and a bet­ter life. Con­gress had spent bil­lions to hard­en the bor­der,
    with fenc­ing, cam­eras, drones, and an expand­ed and increas­ing­ly mil­i­ta­rized bor­der
    patrol. But rather than stop the flow of immi­grants, these steps had spurred an indus­try
    of smugglers—coyotes—who made big mon­ey trans­port­ing human car­go in bar­bar­ic
    and some­times dead­ly fash­ion. And although bor­der cross­ings by poor Mex­i­can and
    Cen­tral Amer­i­can migrants received most of the atten­tion from politi­cians and the
    press, about 40 per­cent of America’s unau­tho­rized immi­grants arrived through air­ports
    or oth­er legal ports of entry and then over­stayed their visas.
    By 2010, an esti­mat­ed eleven mil­lion undoc­u­ment­ed per­sons were liv­ing in the
    Unit­ed States, in large part thor­ough­ly woven into the fab­ric of Amer­i­can life. Many
    were long­time res­i­dents, with chil­dren who either were U.S. cit­i­zens by virtue of
    hav­ing been born on Amer­i­can soil or had been brought to the Unit­ed States at such an
    ear­ly age that they were Amer­i­can in every respect except for a piece of paper. Entire
    sec­tors of the U.S. econ­o­my relied on their labor, as undoc­u­ment­ed immi­grants were
    often will­ing to do the tough­est, dirt­i­est work for mea­ger pay—picking the fruits and
    veg­eta­bles that stocked our gro­cery stores, mop­ping the floors of offices, wash­ing
    dish­es at restau­rants, and pro­vid­ing care to the elder­ly. But although Amer­i­can
    con­sumers ben­e­fit­ed from this invis­i­ble work­force, many feared that immi­grants were
    tak­ing jobs from cit­i­zens, bur­den­ing social ser­vices pro­grams, and chang­ing the
    nation’s racial and cul­tur­al make­up, which led to demands for the gov­ern­ment to crack
    down on ille­gal immi­gra­tion. This sen­ti­ment was strongest among Repub­li­can
    con­stituen­cies, egged on by an increas­ing­ly nativist right-wing press. How­ev­er, the
    pol­i­tics didn’t fall neat­ly along par­ti­san lines: The tra­di­tion­al­ly Demo­c­ra­t­ic trade union
    rank and file, for exam­ple, saw the grow­ing pres­ence of undoc­u­ment­ed work­ers on
    con­struc­tion sites as threat­en­ing their liveli­hoods, while Repub­li­can-lean­ing busi­ness
    groups inter­est­ed in main­tain­ing a steady sup­ply of cheap labor (or, in the case of
    Sil­i­con Val­ley, for­eign-born com­put­er pro­gram­mers and engi­neers) often took pro-
    immi­gra­tion posi­tions.
    Back in 2007, the mav­er­ick ver­sion of John McCain, along with his side­kick
    Lind­sey Gra­ham, had actu­al­ly joined Ted Kennedy to put togeth­er a com­pre­hen­sive
    reform bill that offered cit­i­zen­ship to mil­lions of undoc­u­ment­ed immi­grants while
    more tight­ly secur­ing our bor­ders. Despite strong sup­port from Pres­i­dent Bush, it had
    failed to clear the Sen­ate. The bill did, how­ev­er, receive twelve Repub­li­can votes,
    indi­cat­ing the real pos­si­bil­i­ty of a future bipar­ti­san accord. I’d pledged dur­ing the
    cam­paign to res­ur­rect sim­i­lar leg­is­la­tion once elect­ed, and I’d appoint­ed for­mer
    Ari­zona gov­er­nor Janet Napoli­tano as head of the Depart­ment of Home­land Secu­ri­ty
    —the agency that over­saw U.S. Immi­gra­tion and Cus­toms Enforce­ment (ICE) and
    U.S. Cus­toms and Bor­der Protection—partly because of her knowl­edge of bor­der
    issues and her rep­u­ta­tion for hav­ing pre­vi­ous­ly man­aged immi­gra­tion in a way that
    was both com­pas­sion­ate and tough.
    My hopes for a bill had thus far been dashed. With the econ­o­my in cri­sis and
    Amer­i­cans los­ing jobs, few in Con­gress had any appetite to take on a hot-but­ton issue
    like immi­gra­tion. Kennedy was gone. McCain, hav­ing been crit­i­cized by the right
    flank for his rel­a­tive­ly mod­er­ate immi­gra­tion stance, showed lit­tle inter­est in tak­ing up
    the ban­ner again. Worse yet, my admin­is­tra­tion was deport­ing undoc­u­ment­ed work­ers
    at an accel­er­at­ing rate. This wasn’t a result of any direc­tive from me, but rather it
    stemmed from a 2008 con­gres­sion­al man­date that both expand­ed ICE’s bud­get and
    increased col­lab­o­ra­tion between ICE and local law enforce­ment depart­ments in an
    effort to deport more undoc­u­ment­ed immi­grants with crim­i­nal records. My team and I
    had made a strate­gic choice not to imme­di­ate­ly try to reverse the poli­cies we’d
    inher­it­ed in large part because we didn’t want to pro­vide ammu­ni­tion to crit­ics who
    claimed that Democ­rats weren’t will­ing to enforce exist­ing immi­gra­tion laws—a
    per­cep­tion that we thought could tor­pe­do our chances of pass­ing a future reform bill.
    But by 2010, immi­grant-rights and Lati­no advo­ca­cy groups were crit­i­ciz­ing our lack of
    progress, much the same way LGBTQ activists had gone after us on DADT. And
    although I con­tin­ued to urge Con­gress to pass immi­gra­tion reform, I had no real­is­tic
    path for deliv­er­ing a new com­pre­hen­sive law before the midterms.
    Enter the DREAM Act. The idea that young, undoc­u­ment­ed immi­grants who’d been
    brought to the Unit­ed States as chil­dren could be giv­en some sort of relief had been
    float­ing around for years, and at least ten ver­sions of the DREAM Act had been
    intro­duced in Con­gress since 2001, each time fail­ing to gar­ner the need­ed votes.
    Advo­cates often pre­sent­ed it as a par­tial but mean­ing­ful step on the road to wider
    reform. The act would grant “Dreamers”—as these young peo­ple had come to be
    called—temporary legal res­i­dence and a path­way to cit­i­zen­ship, so long as they met
    cer­tain cri­te­ria. Accord­ing to the most recent bill, they had to have entered the Unit­ed
    States before the age of six­teen, lived here for five con­tin­u­ous years, grad­u­at­ed from
    high school or obtained a GED, and attend­ed col­lege for two years or joined the
    military—and they could have no seri­ous crim­i­nal record. Indi­vid­ual states could make
    Dream­ers legal­ly eli­gi­ble for reduced tuition rates at pub­lic col­leges and uni­ver­si­ties—
    the only real­is­tic way many of them could afford high­er edu­ca­tion.
    Dream­ers had grown up going to Amer­i­can schools, play­ing Amer­i­can sports,
    watch­ing Amer­i­can TV, and hang­ing out at Amer­i­can malls. In some cas­es, their
    par­ents had nev­er even told them they weren’t cit­i­zens; they learned of their
    undoc­u­ment­ed sta­tus only when they tried to get a driver’s license or sub­mit­ted an
    appli­ca­tion for col­lege finan­cial aid. I’d had a chance to meet many Dream­ers, both
    before and after I entered the White House. They were smart, poised, and resilient—as
    full of poten­tial as my own daugh­ters. If any­thing, I found the Dream­ers to be less
    cyn­i­cal about Amer­i­ca than many of their native-born contemporaries—precisely
    because their cir­cum­stances had taught them not to take life in this coun­try for grant­ed.
    The case for allow­ing such young peo­ple to stay in the Unit­ed States, the only
    coun­try many of them had ever known, was so moral­ly com­pelling that Kennedy and
    McCain had incor­po­rat­ed the DREAM Act into their 2007 immi­gra­tion bill. And
    with­out the prospect of pass­ing a more com­pre­hen­sive rewrite of U.S. immi­gra­tion
    laws in the imme­di­ate future, Har­ry Reid—who, in the months lead­ing up to the
    midterms, had been locked in a tight reelec­tion con­test in his home state of Neva­da
    and need­ed a strong His­pan­ic turnout to put him over the top—had promised to call
    the DREAM Act for a vote dur­ing the lame-duck ses­sion.
    Unfor­tu­nate­ly, Har­ry made this last-minute announce­ment on the cam­paign trail
    with­out giv­ing us, his Sen­ate col­leagues, or immi­gra­tion reform groups any notice.
    Though not thrilled with Harry’s lack of coor­di­na­tion with her (“You’d think he could
    have picked up the phone”), Nan­cy Pelosi did her part, quick­ly push­ing the leg­is­la­tion
    through the House. But in the Sen­ate, McCain and Gra­ham denounced Harry’s
    deci­sion as a cam­paign stunt and said they wouldn’t vote for the DREAM Act as a
    stand-alone bill since it was no longer linked to increased enforce­ment. The five
    Repub­li­can sen­a­tors who’d vot­ed for the 2007 McCain-Kennedy bill and were still in
    office were less declar­a­tive about their inten­tions, but all sound­ed wob­bly. And since
    we couldn’t count on every Demo­c­rat to sup­port the bill—especially after the
    dis­as­trous midterms—all of us in the White House found our­selves scram­bling to
    drum up the six­ty votes need­ed to over­come a fil­i­buster dur­ing the wan­ing days before
    the Sen­ate wrapped up busi­ness for the year.
    Cecil­ia Muñoz, the White House direc­tor of inter­gov­ern­men­tal affairs, was our point
    per­son on the effort. When I was a sen­a­tor, she’d been the senior vice pres­i­dent of
    pol­i­cy and leg­isla­tive affairs at the Nation­al Coun­cil of La Raza, the nation’s largest
    Lati­no advo­ca­cy orga­ni­za­tion, and ever since she’d advised me on immi­gra­tion and
    oth­er issues. Born and raised in Michi­gan and the daugh­ter of Boli­vian immi­grants,
    Cecil­ia was mea­sured, mod­est, and—as I used to joke with her—“just plain nice,”
    bring­ing to mind everyone’s favorite young ele­men­tary or mid­dle school teacher. She
    was also tough and tena­cious (and a fanat­i­cal Michi­gan foot­ball fan). With­in a mat­ter
    of weeks, she and her team had launched an all-out media blitz in sup­port of the
    DREAM Act, pitch­ing sto­ries, mar­shal­ing sta­tis­tics, and enlist­ing prac­ti­cal­ly every
    cab­i­net mem­ber and agency (includ­ing the Defense Depart­ment) to host some kind of
    event. Most impor­tant, Cecil­ia helped bring togeth­er a crew of young Dream­ers who
    were will­ing to dis­close their undoc­u­ment­ed sta­tus in order to share their per­son­al
    sto­ries with unde­cid­ed sen­a­tors and media out­lets. Sev­er­al times, Cecil­ia and I talked
    about the courage of these young peo­ple, agree­ing that at their age we could nev­er
    have man­aged such pres­sure.
    “I just want to win so bad for them,” she told me.
    And yet, despite the count­less hours we spent in meet­ings and on the phone, the
    like­li­hood of get­ting six­ty votes for the DREAM Act began to look increas­ing­ly bleak.
    One of our best prospects was Claire McCaskill, the Demo­c­ra­t­ic sen­a­tor from
    Mis­souri. Claire was one of my ear­ly sup­port­ers and best friends in the Sen­ate, a gift­ed
    politi­cian with a razor-sharp wit, a big heart, and not an ounce of hypocrisy or
    pre­ten­sion. But she also came from a con­ser­v­a­tive, Repub­li­can-lean­ing state and was a
    juicy tar­get for the GOP in its effort to wrest back con­trol of the Sen­ate.
    “You know I want to help those kids, Mr. Pres­i­dent,” Claire said when I reached her
    by phone, “but the polling in Mis­souri is just ter­ri­ble on any­thing relat­ed to
    immi­gra­tion. If I vote for this, there’s a good chance I lose my seat.”
    I knew she wasn’t wrong. And if she lost, we might lose the Sen­ate, along with any
    pos­si­bil­i­ty of ever get­ting the DREAM Act or com­pre­hen­sive immi­gra­tion reform or
    any­thing else passed. How was I to weigh that risk against the urgent fates of the
    young peo­ple I’d met—the uncer­tain­ty and fear they were forced to live with every
    sin­gle day, the pos­si­bil­i­ty that with no notice any one of them might be round­ed up in
    an ICE raid, detained in a cell, and shipped off to a land that was as for­eign to them as
    it would be to me?
    Before hang­ing up, Claire and I made a deal to help square the cir­cle. “If your vote’s
    the one that gets us to six­ty,” I said, “then those kids are going to need you, Claire. But

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    Chap­ter 24 opens with the pro­tag­o­nist being wok­en not by dawn, but by a buzzing noise. The char­ac­ter finds them­selves in a room, tend­ed to by a faerie named Alis, whose appear­ance has dra­mat­i­cal­ly changed due to the removal of glam­ours that masked the true forms of the faerie occu­pants and their sur­round­ings. This rev­e­la­tion leads to an under­stand­ing that the pro­tag­o­nist had been pro­tect­ed from the true appear­ance of the faerie world through illu­sions cast by Tam­lin to ease their human fears.

    As the pro­tag­o­nist ven­tures down­stairs, they’re met with a bustling of pre­vi­ous­ly unseen faeries, trig­ger­ing a mix­ture of curios­i­ty and fear. This inter­ac­tion with the faerie world’s true nature con­tin­ues as they con­verse with Tam­lin and Lucien, learn­ing that their igno­rance was by design to keep them safe and unaware, a mea­sure deemed nec­es­sary by the faeries sur­round­ing them.

    The appear­ance of new faeries and the pro­tag­o­nist’s con­fronta­tion with the unvar­nished real­i­ty serve as a turn­ing point, reveal­ing the exis­tence of a care­ful­ly main­tained bal­ance between show­ing the pro­tag­o­nist the truth and pro­tect­ing them from it. Tam­lin and Lucien dis­cuss the impli­ca­tions of the pro­tag­o­nist’s pre­vi­ous actions, hint­ing at a com­plex web of pol­i­tics, glam­our, and safe­ty mea­sures enact­ed to shield the pro­tag­o­nist from the dark­er sides of the faerie realm and its inhab­i­tants.

    The chap­ter takes a dark­er turn with the dis­cov­ery of a sev­ered head in the gar­den, indi­cat­ing a threat from the Night Court, a pow­er­ful and malig­nant force with­in the faerie world. This dis­cov­ery prompts a con­ver­sa­tion about the polit­i­cal and per­son­al impli­ca­tions of such an act, hint­ing at deep­er con­flicts with­in the faerie realms and between its courts.

    The pro­tag­o­nist is con­front­ed with the harsh real­i­ties of the faerie world, from the exis­tence of the blight—a malev­o­lent force wreak­ing havoc—to the cru­el pol­i­tics of the Night Court. Through con­ver­sa­tions with Tam­lin and Lucien, they nav­i­gate the com­plex­i­ties and dan­gers inher­ent to their sit­u­a­tion, all the while grap­pling with the con­se­quences of their pres­ence in a world gov­erned by ancient, unfath­omable rules and con­flicts.

    This chap­ter lay­ers the pro­tag­o­nist’s per­son­al jour­ney with the broad­er polit­i­cal and mys­ti­cal con­flicts of the faerie world, blend­ing their quest for under­stand­ing and safe­ty with the over­ar­ch­ing nar­ra­tive of pow­er strug­gles and sur­vival in a realm far removed from human norms.

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    On the day of Margery O’Hare’s tri­al, the entire com­mu­ni­ty of Bai­leyville, Ken­tucky, came to a stand­still, under­scor­ing the grav­i­ty of the event. As the accused “mur­der­ing librar­i­an,” Margery’s fate drew mas­sive atten­tion, clos­ing down sig­nif­i­cant parts of the town and attract­ing a cir­cus of media, refresh­ment stands, and even a snake charmer out­side the cour­t­house. Amid this sur­re­al atmos­phere, Alice and her fel­low librar­i­ans faced an emo­tion­al day, torn between their reg­u­lar duties and their unwa­ver­ing sup­port for Margery.

    Margery’s tri­al unfold­ed against a back­drop of local spec­ta­cle and deep com­mu­nal divi­sions. The court pro­ceed­ings revealed a stark bias against Margery, empha­siz­ing her role as an unmar­ried, sharp-tongued woman, and the impli­ca­tions of her man­ag­ing the so-called sub­ver­sive Pack­horse Library. The court­room atmos­phere was charged with ten­sion, from the gen­dered bias­es of a male-dom­i­nat­ed jury to the vis­i­ble phys­i­cal and emo­tion­al toll on Margery, who appeared as a shad­ow of her for­mer self, taint­ed by the accu­sa­tions and the weight of soci­etal judge­ment.

    Alice’s per­son­al tur­moil mir­rored the broad­er con­flict, as she grap­pled with the impli­ca­tions of Margery’s poten­tial con­vic­tion, her fleet­ing moments of sup­port and alien­ation with­in the com­mu­ni­ty, and her own impend­ing depar­ture from Bai­leyville. Amidst the tri­al’s dra­mat­ics, includ­ing an out­burst from a wit­ness defend­ing Margery’s char­ac­ter and con­tri­bu­tions, Alice and her friends nav­i­gat­ed their con­flict­ing emo­tions and the pal­pa­ble sense of injus­tice per­vad­ing the pro­ceed­ings.

    As the tri­al pro­gressed, the defense’s and pros­e­cu­tion’s nar­ra­tives inten­si­fied, focus­ing on the night of Clem McCullough’s death, with the pros­e­cu­tion paint­ing Margery as a mur­der­ess dri­ven by famil­ial vendet­tas. Despite efforts to dis­cred­it this por­tray­al, the cloud of sus­pi­cion hung heav­i­ly over Margery, exac­er­bat­ed by the town’s gos­sipy and judg­men­tal ten­den­cies.

    Alice’s inter­ac­tions with Ben­nett, her estranged hus­band, under­scored her com­plex emo­tion­al jour­ney, reveal­ing lin­ger­ing ties and shared moments of under­stand­ing amidst their frac­tured rela­tion­ship. Bennett’s cryp­tic hints about his daugh­ters’ unheard tes­ti­monies offered a poten­tial new avenue for Margery’s defense, pro­pelling Alice and her allies to con­sid­er a dar­ing move to con­front the McCul­lough sis­ters in search of the elu­sive truth.

    As Alice decid­ed to ven­ture into the heart of the McCul­lough family’s seclud­ed life, the nar­ra­tive reached a piv­otal turn­ing point, reflect­ing the des­per­ate lengths to which those fight­ing for Margery were will­ing to go. This deci­sion demon­strat­ed the pow­er­ful bond and sense of duty that con­nect­ed the librar­i­ans, will­ing to face the unknown for the sake of jus­tice and friend­ship in a world where soci­etal bias­es and pre­con­ceived notions threat­ened to over­shad­ow the truth.

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    I will pro­vide the chap­ter now.

    TWENTY-FOUR
    I can’t go to a Broad­way show in jeans and a T‑shirt—that’s for sure. I
    checked online, and offi­cial­ly there’s no dress code, but it just feels wrong.
    Any­way, Andrew said he was going to change, so I need to wear some­thing
    nice.
    The prob­lem is, I don’t own any­thing nice.
    Well, tech­ni­cal­ly I do. I have that bag of cloth­ing Nina gave me. I hung
    up the out­fits so they wouldn’t get dam­aged but I have yet to wear any of
    them. For the most part, they’re all fan­cy dress­es, and it’s not like I’ve had
    many occa­sions to dress up while clean­ing the Win­ches­ter house. I don’t
    real­ly want to put on a ball­go­wn to do my vac­u­um­ing.
    But tonight is an occa­sion to dress up for. Maybe the only such occa­sion
    I’ll have for a long time.
    The biggest prob­lem is that all of the dress­es are so blind­ing­ly white.
    Obvi­ous­ly, it’s Nina’s favorite col­or. White is not my favorite col­or. I don’t
    even think I have a favorite col­or (any­thing but orange). But I nev­er liked
    wear­ing white because it gets dirty so eas­i­ly. I’ll have to be espe­cial­ly
    care­ful tonight. And I won’t be wear­ing all white, because I don’t have any
    white shoes. All I’ve got are some black pumps, so that’s what I’m wear­ing.
    I look through the dress­es, try­ing to fig­ure out which one would be most
    appro­pri­ate for tonight. They’re all beau­ti­ful, and also extreme­ly sexy. I
    select a form-fit­ting cock­tail dress that falls just above my knees with a lace
    hal­ter neck­line. I had assumed since Nina is quite a bit heav­ier than I am, it
    would be loose on me. But she must have pur­chased it many years ago—it
    fits me so per­fect­ly, I couldn’t have found some­thing bet­ter if I’d bought it
    specif­i­cal­ly for myself.
    I take it easy with the make­up. Just a few dabs of lip­stick, a tiny bit of
    eye­lin­er, and that’s it. What­ev­er else hap­pens tonight, I’m going to behave
    myself. The last thing I want is any trou­ble.
    And I have no doubt that if Nina sus­pects a whiff of any­thing between
    me and her hus­band, she’ll make it her mis­sion to destroy me.
    Andrew is already in the liv­ing room when I descend the stairs. He’s
    wear­ing a gray suit jack­et and a match­ing tie, and he’s tak­en the time to
    show­er and shave off that stub­ble on his chin. He looks… God, he looks
    incred­i­ble. Dev­as­tat­ing­ly hand­some. So hand­some, I want to grab him by
    the lapels. But the most amaz­ing thing is the way his eyes fly open when he
    catch­es sight of me, and he inhales audi­bly.
    And then for a few moments, the two of us are just star­ing at each oth­er.
    “Jesus, Mil­lie.” His hand is shak­ing a bit as he adjusts his tie. “You
    look…”
    He doesn’t com­plete his thought, which is prob­a­bly a good thing.
    Because he’s not look­ing at me in a way you’re sup­posed to be look­ing at a
    woman who is not your wife.
    I open my mouth, won­der­ing if I should ask him if this is a bad idea. If
    maybe we should call off the whole thing. But I can’t quite make myself
    say that.
    Andrew man­ages to rip his eyes away from me and looks down at his
    watch. “We bet­ter get going. Park­ing can be a pain around Broad­way.”
    “Yes, of course. Let’s go.”
    There’s no turn­ing back now.
    I feel almost like a celebri­ty when I’m slid­ing into the cool leather seat
    of Andrew’s BMW. This car is noth­ing like my Nis­san. Andrew climbs into
    the dri­ver seat and that’s when I notice my skirt is rid­ing up my thighs.
    When I put on the dress, it came near­ly down to my knees, but sit­ting down,
    it’s some­how mid-thigh. I tug at it but the sec­ond I let go, it rides back up.
    For­tu­nate­ly, Andrew’s eyes are on the road as we exit the gate
    sur­round­ing the prop­er­ty. He is a good, faith­ful hus­band. Just because he
    looked like he was near­ly going to pass out when he saw me in this dress,
    that doesn’t mean he’s not going to be able to con­trol him­self.
    “I’m so excit­ed about this,” I com­ment as he makes his way to the Long
    Island Express­way. “I can’t believe I’m going to see Show­down.”
    He nods. “I’ve heard it’s incred­i­ble.”

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    CHAPTER
    24
    It took hours for Elain to work her charm on the staff to swift­ly pack their
    bags and leave, each with a purse of mon­ey to has­ten the process. Mrs.
    Lau­rent, though the last to depart, promised to keep what she’d seen to
    her­self.
    I didn’t know where Rhys, Cass­ian, and Azriel had been wait­ing, but
    when Mrs. Lau­rent had hauled her­self into the car­riage crammed with the
    last of the staff, head­ing down to the vil­lage to catch trans­porta­tion to
    wher­ev­er they all had fam­i­ly, there was a knock on the door.
    The light was already fad­ing, and the world out­side was thick with
    shades of blue and white and gray, stained gold­en as I opened the front door
    and found them wait­ing.
    Nes­ta and Elain were in the large din­ing room—the most open space in
    the house.
    Look­ing at Rhys, Cass­ian, and Azriel, I knew I’d been right to select it as
    the meet­ing spot.
    They were enormous—wild and rough and ancient.
    Rhys’s brows lift­ed. “You’d think they’d been told plague had befall­en
    the house.”
    I pulled the door open wide enough to let them in, then quick­ly shut it
    against the bit­ter cold. “My sis­ter Elain can con­vince any­one to do any­thing
    with a few smiles.”
    Cass­ian let out a low whis­tle as he turned in place, sur­vey­ing the grand
    entry hall, the ornate fur­ni­ture, the paint­ings. All of it paid for by Tam­lin—
    ini­tial­ly. He’d tak­en such care of my fam­i­ly, yet his own … I didn’t want to
    think about his fam­i­ly, mur­dered by a rival court for what­ev­er rea­son no
    one had ever explained to me. Not now that I was liv­ing amongst them—
    He’d been good—there was a part of Tam­lin that was good—
    Yes. He’d giv­en me every­thing I need­ed to become myself, to feel safe.
    And when he got what he want­ed … He’d stopped. Had tried, but not real­ly.
    He’d let him­self remain blind to what I need­ed after Ama­ran­tha.
    “Your father must be a fine mer­chant,” Cass­ian said. “I’ve seen cas­tles
    with less wealth.”
    I found Rhys study­ing me, a silent ques­tion writ­ten across his face. I
    answered, “My father is away on business—and attend­ing a meet­ing in
    Neva about the threat of Pry­thi­an.”
    “Pry­thi­an?” Cass­ian said, twist­ing toward us. “Not Hybern?”
    “It’s pos­si­ble my sis­ters were mistaken—your lands are for­eign to them.
    They mere­ly said ‘above the wall.’ I assumed they thought it was Pry­thi­an.”
    Azriel came for­ward on feet as silent as a cat’s. “If humans are aware of
    the threat, ral­ly­ing against it, then that might give us an advan­tage when
    con­tact­ing the queens.”
    Rhys was still watch­ing me, as if he could see the weight that had pressed
    into me since arriv­ing here. The last time I’d been in this house, I’d been a
    woman in love—such fran­tic, des­per­ate love that I went back into Pry­thi­an,
    I went Under the Moun­tain, as a mere human. As frag­ile as my sis­ters now
    seemed to me.
    “Come,” Rhys said, offer­ing me a sub­tle, under­stand­ing nod before
    motion­ing to lead the way. “Let’s make this intro­duc­tion.”
    My sis­ters were stand­ing by the win­dow, the light of the chan­de­liers
    coax­ing the gold in their hair to glis­ten. So beau­ti­ful, and young, and alive
    —but when would that change? How would it be to speak to them when I
    remained this way while their skin had grown paper-thin and wrin­kled, their
    backs curved with the weight of years, their white hands speck­led?
    I would be bare­ly into my immor­tal exis­tence when theirs was wiped out
    like a can­dle before a cold breath.
    But I could give them a few good years—safe years—until then.
    I crossed the room, the three males a step behind, the wood­en floors as
    shin­ing and pol­ished as a mir­ror beneath us. I had removed my cloak now
    that the ser­vants were gone, and it was to me—not the Illyrians—that my
    sis­ters first looked. At the Fae clothes, the crown, the jew­el­ry.
    A stranger—this part of me was now a stranger to them.
    Then they took in the winged males—or two of them. Rhys’s wings had
    van­ished, his leathers replaced with his fine black jack­et and pants.
    My sis­ters both stiff­ened at Cass­ian and Azriel, at those mighty wings
    tucked in tight to pow­er­ful bod­ies, at the weapons, and then at the
    dev­as­tat­ing­ly beau­ti­ful faces of all three males.
    Elain, to her cred­it, did not faint.
    And Nes­ta, to hers, did not hiss at them. She just took a not-so-sub­tle step
    in front of Elain, and ducked her fist­ed hand behind her sim­ple, ele­gant
    amethyst gown. The move­ment did not go unno­ticed by my com­pan­ions.
    I halt­ed a good four feet away, giv­ing my sis­ters breath­ing space in a
    room that had sud­den­ly been deprived of all air. I said to the males, “My
    sis­ters, Nes­ta and Elain Archeron.”
    I had not thought of my fam­i­ly name, had not used it, for years and years.
    Because even when I had sac­ri­ficed and hunt­ed for them, I had not want­ed
    my father’s name—not when he sat before that lit­tle fire and let us starve.
    Let me walk into the woods alone. I’d stopped using it the day I’d killed
    that rab­bit, and felt its blood stain my hands, the same way the blood of
    those faeries had marred it years lat­er like an invis­i­ble tat­too.
    My sis­ters did not curt­sy. Their hearts wild­ly pound­ed, even Nesta’s, and
    the tang of their ter­ror coat­ed my tongue—
    “Cass­ian,” I said, inclin­ing my head to the left. Then I shift­ed to the right,
    grate­ful those shad­ows were nowhere to be found as I said, “Azriel.” I half
    turned. “And Rhysand, High Lord of the Night Court.”
    Rhys had dimmed it, too, I real­ized. The night rip­pling off him, the
    oth­er­world­ly grace and thrum of pow­er. But look­ing in those star-flecked
    vio­let eyes, no one would ever mis­take him for any­thing but extra­or­di­nary.
    He bowed to my sis­ters. “Thank you for your hospitality—and
    gen­eros­i­ty,” he said with a warm smile. But there was some­thing strained in
    it.
    Elain tried to return the smile but failed.
    And Nes­ta just looked at the three of them, then at me, and said, “The
    cook left din­ner on the table. We should eat before it goes cold.” She didn’t
    wait for my agree­ment before strid­ing off—right to the head of the pol­ished
    cher­ry table.
    Elain rasped, “Nice to meet you,” before hus­tling after her, the silk skirts
    of her cobalt dress whis­per­ing over the par­quet floor.
    Cass­ian was gri­mac­ing as we trailed them, Rhys’s brows were raised, and
    Azriel looked more inclined to blend into the near­est shad­ow and avoid this
    con­ver­sa­tion all togeth­er.
    Nes­ta was wait­ing at the head of the table, a queen ready to hold court.
    Elain trem­bled in the uphol­stered, carved wood chair to her left.
    I did them all a favor and took the one to Nesta’s right. Cass­ian claimed
    the spot beside Elain, who clenched her fork as if she might wield it against
    him, and Rhys slid into the seat beside me, Azriel on his oth­er side. A faint
    smile bloomed upon Azriel’s mouth as he noticed Elain’s fin­gers white-
    knuck­led on that fork, but he kept silent, focus­ing instead, as Cass­ian was
    sub­tly try­ing to do, on adjust­ing his wings around a human chair. Caul­dron
    damn me. I should have remem­bered. Though I doubt­ed either would
    appre­ci­ate it if I now brought in two stools.
    I sighed through my nose and yanked the lids off the var­i­ous dish­es and
    casseroles. Poached salmon with dill and lemon from the hot­house,
    whipped pota­toes, roast chick­en with beets and turnips from the root cel­lar,
    and some casse­role of egg, game meat, and leeks. Sea­son­al food—whatever
    they had left at the end of the win­ter.
    I scooped food onto my plate, the sounds of my sis­ters and com­pan­ions
    doing the same fill­ing the silence. I took a bite and fought my cringe.
    Once, this food would have been rich and fla­vor­ful.
    Now it was ash in my mouth.
    Rhys was dig­ging into his chick­en with­out hes­i­ta­tion. Cass­ian and Azriel
    ate as if they hadn’t had a meal in months. Per­haps being war­riors, fight­ing
    in wars, had giv­en them the abil­i­ty to see food as strength—and put taste
    aside.
    I found Nes­ta watch­ing me. “Is there some­thing wrong with our food?”
    she said flat­ly.
    I made myself take anoth­er bite, each move­ment of my jaw an effort.
    “No.” I swal­lowed and gulped down a healthy drink of water.
    “So you can’t eat nor­mal food anymore—or are you too good for it?” A
    ques­tion and a chal­lenge.
    Rhys’s fork clanked on his plate. Elain made a small, dis­tressed noise.
    And though Nes­ta had let me use this house, though she’d tried to cross
    the wall for me and we’d worked out a ten­ta­tive truce, the tone, the dis­gust
    and dis­ap­proval …
    I laid my hand flat on the table. “I can eat, drink, fuck, and fight just as
    well as I did before. Bet­ter, even.”
    Cass­ian choked on his water. Azriel shift­ed on his seat, angling to spring
    between us if need be.
    Nes­ta let out a low laugh.
    But I could taste fire in my mouth, hear it roar­ing in my veins, and—
    A blind, sol­id tug on the bond, cool­ing dark­ness sweep­ing into me, my
    tem­per, my sens­es, calm­ing that fire—
    I scram­bled to throw my men­tal shields up. But they were intact.
    Rhys didn’t so much as blink at me before he said even­ly to Nes­ta, “If
    you ever come to Pry­thi­an, you will dis­cov­er why your food tastes so
    dif­fer­ent.”
    Nes­ta looked down her nose at him. “I have lit­tle inter­est in ever set­ting
    foot in your land, so I’ll have to take your word on it.”
    “Nes­ta, please,” Elain mur­mured.
    Cass­ian was siz­ing up Nes­ta, a gleam in his eyes that I could only
    inter­pret as a war­rior find­ing him­self faced with a new, inter­est­ing
    oppo­nent.
    Then, Moth­er above, Nes­ta shift­ed her atten­tion to Cass­ian, notic­ing that
    gleam—what it meant. She snarled soft­ly, “What are you look­ing at?”
    Cassian’s brows rose—little amuse­ment to be found now. “Some­one who
    let her youngest sis­ter risk her life every day in the woods while she did
    noth­ing. Some­one who let a four­teen-year-old child go out into that for­est,
    so close to the wall.” My face began heat­ing, and I opened my mouth. To
    say what, I didn’t know. “Your sis­ter died—died to save my peo­ple. She is
    will­ing to do so again to pro­tect you from war. So don’t expect me to sit
    here with my mouth shut while you sneer at her for a choice she did not get
    to make—and insult my peo­ple in the process.”
    Nes­ta didn’t bat an eye­lash as she stud­ied the hand­some fea­tures, the
    mus­cled tor­so. Then turned to me. Dis­miss­ing him entire­ly.
    Cassian’s face went almost fer­al. A wolf who had been cir­cling a doe …
    only to find a moun­tain cat wear­ing its hide instead.
    Elain’s voice wob­bled as she not­ed the same thing and quick­ly said to
    him, “It … it is very hard, you under­stand, to … accept it.” I real­ized the
    dark met­al of her ring … it was iron. Even though I had told them about
    iron being use­less, there it was. The gift from her Fae-hat­ing soon-to-be-
    husband’s fam­i­ly. Elain cast plead­ing eyes on Rhys, then Azriel, such
    mor­tal fear coat­ing her fea­tures, her scent. “We are raised this way. We hear
    sto­ries of your kind cross­ing the wall to hurt us. Our own neigh­bor, Clare
    Bed­dor, was tak­en, her fam­i­ly mur­dered …”
    A naked body spiked to a wall. Bro­ken. Dead. Nailed there for months.
    Rhys was star­ing at his plate. Unmov­ing. Unblink­ing.
    He had giv­en Ama­ran­tha Clare’s name—given it, despite know­ing I’d
    lied to him about it.
    Elain said, “It’s all very dis­ori­ent­ing.”
    “I can imag­ine,” Azriel said. Cass­ian flashed him a glare. But Azriel’s
    atten­tion was on my sis­ter, a polite, bland smile on his face. Her shoul­ders
    loos­ened a bit. I won­dered if Rhys’s spy­mas­ter often got his infor­ma­tion
    through stone-cold man­ners as much as stealth and shad­ows.
    Elain sat a lit­tle high­er as she said to Cass­ian, “And as for Feyre’s
    hunt­ing dur­ing those years, it was not Nesta’s neglect alone that is to blame.
    We were scared, and had received no train­ing, and every­thing had been
    tak­en, and we failed her. Both of us.”
    Nes­ta said noth­ing, her back rigid.
    Rhys gave me a warn­ing look. I gripped Nesta’s arm, draw­ing her
    atten­tion to me. “Can we just … start over?”
    I could almost taste her pride roil­ing in her veins, bark­ing to not back
    down.
    Cass­ian, damn him, gave her a taunt­ing grin.
    But Nes­ta mere­ly hissed, “Fine.” And went back to eat­ing.
    Cass­ian watched every bite she took, every bob of her throat as she
    swal­lowed.
    I forced myself to clean my plate, aware of Nesta’s own atten­tion on my
    eat­ing.
    Elain said to Azriel, per­haps the only two civ­i­lized ones here, “Can you
    tru­ly fly?”
    He set down his fork, blink­ing. I might have even called him self-
    con­scious. He said, “Yes. Cass­ian and I hail from a race of faeries called
    Illyr­i­ans. We’re born hear­ing the song of the wind.”
    “That’s very beau­ti­ful,” she said. “Is it not—frightening, though? To fly
    so high?”
    “It is some­times,” Azriel said. Cass­ian tore his relent­less atten­tion from
    Nes­ta long enough to nod his agree­ment. “If you are caught in a storm, if
    the cur­rent drops away. But we are trained so thor­ough­ly that the fear is
    gone before we’re out of swad­dling.” And yet, Azriel had not been trained
    until long after that. You get used to the word­ing, he’d told me ear­li­er. How
    often did he have to remind him­self to use such words? Did “we” and “our”
    and “us” taste as for­eign on his tongue as they did on mine?
    “You look like High Fae,” Nes­ta cut in, her voice like a honed blade.
    “But you are not?”
    “Only the High Fae who look like them,” Cass­ian drawled, wav­ing a
    hand to me and Rhys, “are High Fae. Every­one else, any oth­er dif­fer­ences,
    mark you as what they like to call ‘less­er’ faeries.”
    Rhysand at last said, “It’s become a term used for ease, but masks a long,
    bloody his­to­ry of injus­tices. Many less­er faeries resent the term—and wish
    for us all to be called one thing.”
    “Right­ly so,” Cass­ian said, drink­ing from his water.
    Nes­ta sur­veyed me. “But you were not High Fae—not to begin. So what
    do they call you?” I couldn’t tell if it was a jab or not.
    Rhys said, “Feyre is who­ev­er she choos­es to be.”
    Nes­ta now exam­ined us all, rais­ing her eyes to that crown. But she said,
    “Write your let­ter to the queens tonight. Tomor­row, Elain and I will go to
    the vil­lage to dis­patch it. If the queens do come here,” she added, cast­ing a
    frozen glare at Cass­ian, “I’d sug­gest brac­ing your­selves for prej­u­dices far
    deep­er than ours. And con­tem­plat­ing how you plan to get us all out of this
    mess should things go sour.”
    “We’ll take that into account,” Rhys said smooth­ly.
    Nes­ta went on, utter­ly unim­pressed by any of us, “I assume you’ll want
    to stay the night.”
    Rhys glanced at me in silent ques­tion. We could eas­i­ly leave, the males
    find­ing the way home in the dark, but … Too soon, per­haps, the world
    would go to hell. I said, “If it’s not too much trou­ble, then yes. We’ll leave
    after break­fast tomor­row.”
    Nes­ta didn’t smile, but Elain beamed. “Good. I think there are a few
    bed­rooms ready—”
    “We’ll need two,” Rhys inter­rupt­ed qui­et­ly. “Next to each oth­er, with two
    beds each.”
    I nar­rowed my brows at him.
    Rhys explained to me, “Mag­ic is dif­fer­ent across the wall. So our shields,
    our sens­es, might not work right. I’m tak­ing no chances. Espe­cial­ly in a
    house with a woman betrothed to a man who gave her an iron engage­ment
    ring.”
    Elain flushed a bit. “The—the bed­rooms that have two beds aren’t next to
    each oth­er,” she mur­mured.
    I sighed. “We’ll move things around. It’s fine. This one,” I added with a
    glare in Rhys’s direc­tion, “is only cranky because he’s old and it’s past his
    bed­time.”
    Rhys chuck­led, Cassian’s wrath slip­ping enough that he grinned, and
    Elain, notic­ing Azriel’s ease as proof that things weren’t indeed about to go
    bad­ly, offered one of her own as well.
    Nes­ta just rose to her feet, a slim pil­lar of steel, and said to no one in
    par­tic­u­lar, “If we’re done eat­ing, then this meal is over.”
    And that was that.
    Rhys wrote the let­ter for me, Cass­ian and Azriel chim­ing in with
    cor­rec­tions, and it took us until mid­night before we had a draft we all
    thought sound­ed impres­sive, wel­com­ing, and threat­en­ing enough.
    My sis­ters cleaned the dish­es while we worked, and had excused
    them­selves to bed hours before, men­tion­ing where to find our rooms.
    Cass­ian and Azriel were to share one, Rhys and I the oth­er.
    I frowned at the large guest bed­room as Rhys shut the door behind us.
    The bed was large enough for two, but I wasn’t shar­ing it. I whirled to him,
    “I’m not—”
    Wood thumped on car­pet, and a small bed appeared by the door. Rhys
    plopped onto it, tug­ging off his boots. “Nes­ta is a delight, by the way.”
    “She’s … her own crea­ture,” I said. It was per­haps the kind­est thing I
    could say about her.
    “It’s been a few cen­turies since some­one got under Cassian’s skin that
    eas­i­ly. Too bad they’re both inclined to kill the oth­er.”
    Part of me shud­dered at the hav­oc the two would wreak if they decid­ed to
    stop fight­ing.
    “And Elain,” Rhys said, sigh­ing as he removed his oth­er boot, “should
    not be mar­ry­ing that lord’s son, not for about a dozen rea­sons, the least of
    which being the fact that you won’t be invit­ed to the wed­ding. Though
    maybe that’s a good thing.”
    I hissed. “That’s not fun­ny.”
    “At least you won’t have to send a gift, either. I doubt her father-in-law
    would deign to accept it.”
    “You have a lot of nerve mock­ing my sis­ters when your own friends have
    equal­ly as much melo­dra­ma.” His brows lift­ed in silent ques­tion. I snort­ed.
    “Oh, so you haven’t noticed the way Azriel looks at Mor? Or how she
    some­times watch­es him, defends him? And how both of them do such a
    good job let­ting Cass­ian be a buffer between them most of the time?”
    Rhys lev­eled a look at me. “I’d sug­gest keep­ing those obser­va­tions to
    your­self.”
    “You think I’m some busy­body gos­sip? My life is mis­er­able enough as it
    is—why would I want to spread that mis­ery to those around me as well?”
    “Is it mis­er­able? Your life, I mean.” A care­ful ques­tion.
    “I don’t know. Every­thing is hap­pen­ing so quick­ly that I don’t know what
    to feel.” It was more hon­est than I’d been in a while.
    “Hmmm. Per­haps once we return home, I should give you the day off.”
    “How con­sid­er­ate of you, my lord.”
    He snort­ed, unbut­ton­ing his jack­et. I real­ized I stood in all my fin­ery—
    with noth­ing to wear to sleep.
    A snap of Rhys’s fin­gers, and my nightclothes—and some flim­sy
    underthings—appeared on the bed. “I couldn’t decide which scrap of lace I
    want­ed you to wear, so I brought you a few to choose from.”
    “Pig,” I barked, snatch­ing the clothes and head­ing to the adjoin­ing
    bathing room.
    The room was toasty when I emerged, Rhys in the bed he’d sum­moned
    from wher­ev­er, all light gone save for the mur­mur­ing embers in the hearth.
    Even the sheets were warm as I slid between them.
    “Thank you for warm­ing the bed,” I said into the dim­ness.
    His back was to me, but I heard him clear­ly as he said, “Ama­ran­tha nev­er
    once thanked me for that.”
    Any warmth leeched away. “She didn’t suf­fer enough.”
    Not even close, for what she had done. To me, to him, to Clare, to so
    many oth­ers.
    Rhys didn’t answer. Instead he said, “I didn’t think I could get through
    that din­ner.”
    “What do you mean?” He’d been rather … calm. Con­tained.
    “Your sis­ters mean well, or one of them does. But see­ing them, sit­ting at
    that table … I hadn’t real­ized it would hit me as strong­ly. How young you
    were. How they didn’t pro­tect you.”
    “I man­aged just fine.”
    “We owe them our grat­i­tude for let­ting us use this house,” he said qui­et­ly,
    “but it will be a long while yet before I can look at your sis­ters with­out
    want­i­ng to roar at them.”
    “A part of me feels the same way,” I admit­ted, nestling down into the
    blan­kets. “But if I hadn’t gone into those woods, if they hadn’t let me go
    out there alone … You would still be enslaved. And per­haps Ama­ran­tha
    would now be ready­ing her forces to wipe out these lands.”
    Silence. Then, “I am pay­ing you a wage, you know. For all of this.”
    “You don’t need to.” Even if … even if I had no mon­ey of my own.
    “Every mem­ber of my court receives one. There’s already a bank account
    in Velaris for you, where your wages will be deposit­ed. And you have lines
    of cred­it at most stores. So if you don’t have enough on you when you’re
    shop­ping, you can have the bill sent to the House.”
    “I—you didn’t have to do that.” I swal­lowed hard. “And how much,
    exact­ly, am I get­ting paid each month?”
    “The same amount the oth­ers receive.” No doubt a generous—likely too
    generous—salary. But he sud­den­ly asked, “When is your birth­day?”
    “Do I even need to count them any­more?” He mere­ly wait­ed. I sighed.
    “It’s the Win­ter Sol­stice.”
    He paused. “That was months ago.”
    “Mmmh­mm.”
    “You didn’t … I don’t remem­ber see­ing you cel­e­brate it.”

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    A RI DROPPED ME FROM ANY pro­duc­tions with­in Sun­set and start­ed
    offer­ing to loan me out to Colum­bia. After being forced to do two
    for­get­table roman­tic comedies—both of them so bad that it was a
    fore­gone con­clu­sion they would fail spectacularly—the oth­er stu­dios
    didn’t want much of me, either.
    Don was on the cov­er of Life, grace­ful­ly com­ing out of the ocean
    onto the shore, smil­ing as if it was the best day of his life.
    When the 1960 Acad­e­my Awards came around, I was offi­cial­ly
    per­sona non gra­ta.
    “You know that I would take you,” Har­ry said when he called that
    after­noon to check in on me. “You just say the word, and I’ll come pick
    you up. I’m sure you have a stun­ning dress you can slip on, and I’ll be
    the envy of every­body with you on my arm.”
    I was at Celia’s apart­ment, get­ting ready to leave before her hair
    and make­up peo­ple came over. She was in the kitchen, drink­ing lemon
    water, avoid­ing eat­ing any­thing so she could fit into her dress.
    “I know you would,” I said into the phone. “But you and I both know
    it would only hurt your rep­u­ta­tion to be aligned with me right now.”
    “I do mean it, though,” Har­ry said.
    “I know you do,” I said. “But you also know I’m too smart to take
    you up on it.”
    Har­ry laughed.
    “Do my eyes look puffy?” Celia asked when I got off the phone with
    Har­ry. She opened them big­ger and stared at me, as if this would help
    me answer the ques­tion.
    I saw bare­ly any­thing out of the ordi­nary. “They look gor­geous. And
    any­way, you know Gwen will make you look fab­u­lous. What are you
    wor­ried about?”
    “Oh, for heaven’s sake, Eve­lyn,” Celia said, teas­ing me. “I think we
    all know what I’m wor­ried about.”
    I took her by the waist. She was wear­ing a thin satin slip, edged in
    lace. I was wear­ing a short-sleeved sweater and shorts. Her hair was
    wet. When Celia’s hair was wet, she didn’t smell like sham­poo. She
    smelled like clay.
    “You’re going to win,” I said, pulling her toward me. “It isn’t even a
    con­test.”
    “I might not. They might give it to Joy or to Ellen Matt­son.”
    “They would no soon­er give it to Ellen Matt­son than throw it in the
    L.A. Riv­er. And Joy, bless her heart, is no you.”
    Celia blushed, put her head in her hands briefly, and then looked
    back at me. “Am I intol­er­a­ble?” she said. “Obsess­ing over this? Mak­ing
    you talk to me about it? When you’re . . .”
    “On the skids?”
    “I was going to say black­balled.”
    “If you are intol­er­a­ble, let me be the one to tol­er­ate you,” I said, and
    then I kissed her and tast­ed the lemon juice on her lips.
    I checked my watch, know­ing that hair and make­up would be there
    any moment, and grabbed my keys.
    She and I had been tak­ing great pains not to be seen togeth­er. It
    was one thing when we real­ly were just friends, but now that we had
    some­thing to hide, we had to start hid­ing it.
    “I love you,” I said. “I believe in you. Break a leg.”
    When my hand turned the door­knob, she called to me. “If I don’t
    win,” she said, her wet hair drip­ping onto the spaghet­ti straps of her
    slip, “will you still love me?”
    I thought she was jok­ing until I looked direct­ly into her eyes.
    “You could be a nobody liv­ing in a card­board box, and I’d still love
    you,” I said. I’d nev­er said that before. I’d nev­er meant it before.
    Celia smiled wide. “Me too. The card­board box and all of it.”
      *  *  *  
    HOURS LATER, BACK at the home I used to share with Don but now
    could say was entire­ly my own, I made myself a Cape Cod­der, sat on
    the couch, and tuned the TV to NBC, watch­ing all my friends and the
    woman I loved walk the red car­pet at the Pan­tages The­atre.
    It all seems much more glam­orous on-screen. I hate to break it to
    you, but in per­son, the the­ater is small­er, the peo­ple are paler, and the
    stage is less impos­ing.
    It’s all curat­ed to make the audi­ence at home feel like out­siders, to
    make you feel like a fly on the wall of a club you aren’t good enough to
    get into. And I was sur­prised by how effec­tive it was on me, how easy
    it was to fall for, even for a per­son who had just recent­ly been at the
    very cen­ter of it.
    I was two cock­tails in and drown­ing in self-pity by the time they
    announced Best Sup­port­ing Actress. But the minute the cam­era
    panned to Celia, I swear I sobered up and clasped my hands togeth­er
    as tight­ly as pos­si­ble for her, as if the hard­er I pressed them togeth­er,
    the high­er her chances of win­ning.
    “And the award goes to . . . Celia St. James for Lit­tle Women.”
    I jumped up out of my seat and shout­ed for her. And then my eyes
    got teary as she walked up to the stage.
    As she stood there, behind the micro­phone, hold­ing the stat­uette, I
    was mes­mer­ized by her. By her fab­u­lous boat­neck dress, her sparkling
    dia­mond and sap­phire ear­rings, and that absolute­ly flaw­less face of
    hers.
    “Thank you to Ari Sul­li­van and Har­ry Cameron. Thank you to my
    agent, Roger Colton. To my fam­i­ly. And to the amaz­ing cast of women
    that I felt so lucky to be a part of, to Joy and Ruby. And to Eve­lyn
    Hugo. Thank you.”
    When she said my name, I swelled with pride and joy and love. I
    was so god­damn hap­py for her. And then I did some­thing mor­ti­fy­ing­ly
    inane. I kissed the tele­vi­sion set.
    I kissed her right on her grayscale face.
    The clink I heard reg­is­tered before the pain. And as Celia waved to
    the crowd and then stepped away from the podi­um, I real­ized I’d
    chipped my tooth.
    But I didn’t care. I was too hap­py. Too excit­ed to con­grat­u­late her
    and tell her how proud I was.
    I made anoth­er cock­tail and forced myself to watch the rest of the
    spec­ta­cle. They announced Best Pic­ture, and as the cred­its rolled, I
    turned off the TV.
    I knew that Har­ry and Celia would be out all night. So I shut off the
    lights and went upstairs to bed. I took off my make­up. I put on cold
    cream. I turned down the cov­ers. I was lone­ly, liv­ing all alone.
    Celia and I had dis­cussed it and come to the con­clu­sion that we
    could not move in togeth­er. She was less con­vinced of this than I was,
    but I was stead­fast in my resolve. Even though my career was in the
    gut­ter, hers was thriv­ing. I couldn’t let her risk it. Not for me.
    My head was on the pil­low, but my eyes were wide open when I
    heard some­one pull into the dri­ve­way. I looked out the win­dow to see
    Celia slip­ping out of a car and wav­ing good night to her dri­ver. She had
    an Oscar in her hand.
    “You look com­fort­able,” Celia said, once she’d made her way to me
    in the bed­room.
    “Come here,” I said to her.
    She’d had a glass or three. I loved her drunk. She was her­self but
    hap­pi­er, so bub­bly I some­times wor­ried she’d float away.
    She took a run­ning start and hopped into the bed. I kissed her.
    “I’m so proud of you, dar­ling.”
    “I missed you all night,” she said. The Oscar was still in her hand,
    and I could tell it was heavy; she kept allow­ing it to tip over onto the
    mat­tress. The space for her name was blank.
    “I don’t know if I was sup­posed to take this one,” she said, smil­ing.
    “But I didn’t want to give it back.”
    “Why aren’t you out cel­e­brat­ing? You should be at the Sun­set
    par­ty.”
    “I only want­ed to cel­e­brate with you.”
    I pulled her clos­er to me. She kicked off her shoes.
    “Noth­ing means any­thing with­out you,” she said. “Every­thing that
    isn’t you is a pile of dog shit.”
    I tossed my head back and laughed.
    “What hap­pened to your tooth?” Celia asked.
    “Is it that notice­able?”

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    One of the peo­ple who was kind­est to me when I real­ly need­ed kind­ness was
    Paris Hilton. So much of Amer­i­ca dis­missed her as a par­ty girl, but I found her
    elegant—the way she posed on the red car­pet and always had an arched eye­brow
    when any­one was mean about her.
    She saw that I had babies and that I was su�ering from the breakup, and I
    think she felt sor­ry for me. She came over to my house, and she helped me out so
    much. She was just so sweet to me. Aside from that night in Vegas with Jason
    Traw­ick, it felt like no one had been sweet like that to me in ages. We start­ed
    hang­ing out. She encour­aged me to try to have fun for the �rst time in a long
    time.
    With Paris, I went through my par­ty stage. But let’s be clear: it was nev­er as
    wild as the press made it out to be. There was a time when I nev­er went out at
    all. Final­ly, when—with the kids prop­er­ly super­vised at home by capa­ble
    caregivers—I did leave home for a few hours, stayed out late, and drank like any
    oth­er twen­tysome­thing, I heard noth­ing but that I was the worst moth­er who’d
    ever lived and a ter­ri­ble per­son, too. The tabloids were full of accu­sa­tions: She’s a
    slut! She’s on drugs!
    I nev­er had a drink­ing prob­lem. I liked to drink, but it was nev­er out of
    con­trol. Do you want to know my drug of choice? The only thing I real­ly did
    except for drink­ing? Adder­all, the amphet­a­mine that’s giv­en to kids for ADHD.
    Adder­all made me high, yes, but what I found far more appeal­ing was that it
    gave me a few hours of feel­ing less depressed. It was the only thing that worked
    for me as an anti­de­pres­sant, and I real­ly felt like I need­ed one of those.
    I have nev­er had any inter­est in hard drugs. I saw plen­ty of peo­ple in the
    music world doing all that, but it wasn’t for me. Where I grew up, what we did

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    You are being pro­vid­ed with a book chap­ter by chap­ter. I will request you to read the book for me after each chap­ter. After read­ing the chap­ter, 1. short­en the chap­ter to no less than 300 words and no more than 400 words. 2. Do not change the name, address, or any impor­tant nouns in the chap­ter. 3. Do not trans­late the orig­i­nal lan­guage. 4. Keep the same style as the orig­i­nal chap­ter, keep it con­sis­tent through­out the chap­ter. Your reply must com­ply with all four require­ments, or it’s invalid.
    I will pro­vide the chap­ter now.

    CHAPTER 24
    It made Patri­cia ner­vous when Carter used his cel­lu­lar phone while
    dri­ving, but he was the bet­ter dri­ver and they were already run­ning
    late for book club, which meant it was going to be hard to find
    park­ing.
    “And you’ll upgrade me to a king,” Carter said, let­ting go of the
    wheel with one hand to put on his turn sig­nal.
    Their dark red BMW took the turn into Creek­side smooth and
    easy. Patri­cia didn’t like it when he drove like this, but on the oth­er
    hand this was one of the few times he didn’t have Rush Lim­baugh on
    the radio, so she took her bless­ings where she could.
    “You can make the check out to Camp­bell Clin­i­cal Con­sult­ing,”
    Carter said. “The address is on the invoice I faxed.”
    He snapped his phone shut and hummed a lit­tle tune.
    “That’s the sixth talk,” he said. “It’s going to be busy this fall.
    You’re sure you’re all right with me being gone so much?”
    “I’ll miss you,” she said. “But col­lege isn’t free.”
    He steered them down the cool tun­nels formed by Creekside’s
    trees, dying sun­light flick­er­ing between the leaves, strob­ing over the
    wind­shield and hood.
    “If you still want to remod­el the kitchen, you can,” Carter said. “We
    have enough.”
    Up ahead, Patri­cia saw the back of Horse’s Chevy Blaz­er parked at
    the end of a long line of Saabs, Aud­is, and Infini­tis. They were still a
    block from Slick and Leland’s house, but the parked cars stretched all
    the way back here.
    “Are you sure?” Patri­cia asked. “We still don’t know where Korey’s
    think­ing of going.”
    “Or if she’s even think­ing,” Carter said, pulling up behind Horse’s
    Chevy but leav­ing a big buffer zone between their cars. It didn’t pay
    to park too close to Horse these days.
    “What if she picks some­where like NYU or Welles­ley?” Patri­cia
    said, undo­ing her seat belt.
    “The chances of Korey get­ting into NYU or Welles­ley, I’ll take
    those odds,” Carter said, giv­ing her a peck on the cheek. “Quit
    wor­ry­ing. You’ll make your­self sick.”
    They got out of the car. Patri­cia hat­ed get­ting out of cars.
    Accord­ing to the bath­room scale, she’d gained eleven pounds and she
    felt them hang­ing from her hips and stom­ach, and they made her feel
    unsteady on her feet. She didn’t think she looked bad with a fuller
    face as long as she sprayed her hair a lit­tle big­ger, but get­ting in and
    out of cars made her feel grace­less.
    She waddled—walked—up the street with Carter, the Octo­ber chill
    prick­ling her arms with goose bumps. She read­just­ed her grip on this
    month’s book—why did Tom Clan­cy need more pages than the Bible
    to tell a story?—and Carter opened the gate in the lit­er­al white pick­et
    fence around Slick and Leland’s front yard. Togeth­er, they went up
    the path of the Paleys’ large, barn-red Cape Cod that looked like it
    belonged in New Eng­land, right down to the dec­o­ra­tive mill­stone in
    the front yard.
    Carter rang the bell and the door instant­ly swung open to reveal
    Slick. She was gelled and moussed and her mouth was too small for
    her lip­stick, but she looked gen­uine­ly hap­py to see them.
    “Carter! Patri­cia!” she cried, beam­ing. “You look fab­u­lous.”
    Recent­ly, Patri­cia had sur­prised her­self when she real­ized that the
    main rea­son she kept com­ing to book club was to see Slick.
    “You look won­der­ful, too,” Patri­cia said, with a gen­uine smile.
    “Isn’t this vest adorable?” Slick spread her arms. “Leland bought it
    for me at Kerrison’s for almost noth­ing.”
    It didn’t mat­ter how many Paley Real­ty signs sprang up all over
    Mt. Pleas­ant, or how much Slick talked about mon­ey, or showed off
    things Leland bought for her, or tried to gos­sip about Albe­mar­le
    Acad­e­my now that Tiger had final­ly got­ten in. To Patri­cia she was a
    per­son of sub­stance.
    “Come on back!” Slick said, lead­ing them into the claus­tro­pho­bic,
    over­stuffed roar of book club.
    Peo­ple spilled out of Slick’s din­ing room, and Patri­cia twist­ed her
    hips to avoid bump­ing into any­one as Slick led them past the stairs,
    past all the dis­play cas­es for her collections—the Lenox Gar­den bird
    fig­urines, lit­tle ceram­ic cot­tages, minia­ture ster­ling sil­ver fur­ni­ture—
    past new wall plaques bear­ing even more devo­tion­al quo­ta­tions, past
    the col­lectible wrist­watch­es mount­ed in shad­ow box­es.
    “Hel­lo, hel­lo!” Patri­cia said to Louise Gibbes as they went by.
    “You look fab­u­lous, Loret­ta,” Patri­cia said to Loret­ta Jones.
    “Your Game­cocks took a whup­ping Sat­ur­day,” Carter said to
    Arthur Rivers, clap­ping him on one shoul­der, nev­er slow­ing down.
    They emerged from the hall into the new addi­tion at the back of
    the house and the ceil­ing sud­den­ly shot up over their heads, soar­ing
    to a series of sky­lights. The addi­tion stretched almost to the Paleys’
    prop­er­ty line, a mas­sive barn for enter­tain­ing, and every inch was
    crammed with peo­ple. There must be forty mem­bers these days, and
    Slick was just about the only per­son with enough house for all of
    them.
    “Help your­selves,” Slick said over the roar of con­ver­sa­tion
    bounc­ing off the high ceil­ings and the far walls, which were hung
    with pic­turesque farm imple­ments. “I have to find Leland. Did you
    see this? He gave me a Mick­ey Mouse watch. Isn’t it fun?”
    She waved her spark­ly wrist at Patri­cia, then slipped away into a
    for­est of backs and arms hold­ing rental glass­es and hands hold­ing
    rental plates and every­one with copies of Clear and Present Dan­ger
    tucked beneath their elbows, or rest­ing on the backs of chairs.
    Patri­cia looked for some­one she knew, and saw Mar­jorie Fretwell
    over by the buf­fet. They kissed on both cheeks, the way peo­ple did
    these days.
    “You look won­der­ful,” Mar­jorie said.
    “Have you lost weight?” Patri­cia asked.
    “Are you doing some­thing dif­fer­ent with your hair?” Mar­jorie
    asked back. “I love it.”
    Some­times it both­ered Patri­cia how much time they spent telling
    each oth­er how good they looked, how won­der­ful they seemed, how
    fan­tas­tic they were. Three years ago she would have sus­pect­ed Carter
    had called ahead and told every­one to make sure they kept Patricia’s
    spir­its up, but now she real­ized that all of them did it, all the time.
    But what was wrong with enjoy­ing their bless­ings? They had so
    many good things in their lives. Why not cel­e­brate?
    “Hey, man!” a loud voice said, and Patri­cia saw Horse’s red face
    ris­ing up over Marjorie’s shoul­der. “Is that hus­band of yours
    around?”
    He leaned in unsteadi­ly to peck Patri­cia on the cheek. He hadn’t
    shaved, and a yeasty cloud of beer hov­ered around his head.
    “A horse is a horse, of course, of course,” Carter said, com­ing up
    behind Patri­cia.
    “You won’t believe it, but we’re rich again,” Horse said, putting one
    hand on Carter’s shoul­der to steady him­self. “Next time we go to the
    club, drinks are on me.”
    “Don’t for­get, we’ve got four more who want to go to col­lege,” Kit­ty
    said, step­ping into the cir­cle and giv­ing Patri­cia a one-armed hug.
    “Don’t be cheap, woman!” Horse bel­lowed.
    “We signed the papers today,” Kit­ty explained.
    “When I see Jim­my H. I’m gonna kiss him,” Horse said. “Right on
    the lips!”
    Patri­cia smiled. James Har­ris had total­ly trans­formed Kit­ty and
    Horse’s lives. He’d straight­ened out the man­age­ment of See­wee
    Farms, hired them a young man to run things, and con­vinced Horse
    to sell 110 acres to a devel­op­er. That was what had final­ly come
    through today.
    It wasn’t just them. All of them, includ­ing Patri­cia and Carter, had
    invest­ed more and more mon­ey in Gra­cious Cay, and as out­side
    investors kept com­ing in they’d all tak­en out cred­it lines against their
    shares. It felt like mon­ey just kept falling out of the sky.
    “You got to come with me Sat­ur­day,” Horse told Carter. “Do some
    boat shop­ping.”
    “How are the chil­dren?” Patri­cia asked Kit­ty, because that was the
    kind of thing you said.
    “We final­ly con­vinced Pony to look at the Citadel,” Kit­ty said. “I
    can’t stand the idea of him up at Car­oli­na or Wake For­est. He’d be so
    far away.”
    “It’s bet­ter when they stay local,” Mar­jorie nod­ded.
    “And Horse wants anoth­er Citadel man in the fam­i­ly,” Kit­ty said.
    “That class ring opens doors,” Mar­jorie said. “It real­ly does.”
    As Mar­jorie and Kit­ty talked, the room began to close in around
    Patri­cia. She didn’t know why everyone’s voic­es sound­ed so loud, or
    why the small of her back felt cold and greasy with sweat, or why her
    under­arms itched. Then she smelled the Swedish meat­balls bub­bling
    away in the sil­ver chaf­ing dish on the buf­fet table beside her.
    Carter and Horse laughed uproar­i­ous­ly over some­thing and Horse
    put his beer down on the buf­fet table and he already had anoth­er one
    in his hand and Kit­ty said some­thing about Korey, and the famil­iar
    reek of boil­ing ketchup filled Patricia’s skull and coat­ed her throat.
    She forced her­self to stop think­ing about it. It was bet­ter not to
    think about it. Her life was back to nor­mal now. Her life was bet­ter
    than nor­mal.
    “Did you see on the news about that school in New York?” Kit­ty
    asked. “The chil­dren have to get there at five a.m. because it takes
    them two and a half hours to go through the met­al detec­tors.”
    “But you can’t put a price on safe­ty,” Mar­jorie said.
    “Excuse me,” Patri­cia said.
    She pushed her way past shoul­ders and backs, need­ing to get away
    from that smell, twist­ing her hips to the side, ter­ri­fied she’d knock
    someone’s drink out of their hands, forc­ing her way through scraps
    of con­ver­sa­tion.
    “…tak­ing him up to tour the cam­pus…”
    “…have you lost weight…”
    “…divest into Netscape…”
    “…the president’s just a Bub­ba, it’s his wife…”
    Kit­ty hadn’t vis­it­ed her in the hos­pi­tal.
    She didn’t want to keep score like this but for the first time in years
    it just popped into her mind.
    “You were in and out so quick­ly,” Kit­ty had told Patri­cia over the
    phone. “I was going to come just as soon as I got orga­nized but by the
    time that hap­pened, you were already home.”
    She remem­bered Kit­ty beg­ging for reas­sur­ance. “With all those
    pills, you just mixed up your pre­scrip­tion, didn’t you?”
    That was what had hap­pened, she agreed, and Kit­ty had been so
    grate­ful it didn’t have to go any fur­ther or get any messier and she
    had been so grate­ful that every­one had let it drop and nev­er talked
    about it again that she hadn’t real­ized how much it hurt that none of
    them came by the hos­pi­tal. At the time, she was just grate­ful. She
    was grate­ful no one called her a sui­cide and treat­ed her dif­fer­ent. She
    was grate­ful it had been so easy to slip back into her old life. She was
    grate­ful for the new dock and the trip to Lon­don and the surgery to
    fix her ear and the back­yard cook­outs and the new car. She was
    grate­ful for so many things.
    “Ice water, please,” she said to the black man in white gloves
    behind the bar.
    The only one who came to the hos­pi­tal had been Slick. She showed
    up at sev­en in the morn­ing and knocked gen­tly on the open door and
    came in and sat down next to Patri­cia. She didn’t say much. She
    didn’t have any advice or insight, no ideas or opin­ions. She didn’t
    need to be con­vinced it had all been an acci­dent. She just sat there,
    hold­ing Patricia’s hand in a kind of silent prayer, and around sev­en
    forty-five she said, “We all need you to get bet­ter,” and left.
    She was the only one of them Patri­cia cared about any­more. She
    didn’t hold any­thing too much against Kit­ty and Maryellen and they
    saw each oth­er social­ly, but the only time she came near Grace now
    was at book club. When she saw Grace she thought about things
    she’d said that she didn’t want to remem­ber.
    She turned, cold glass in one hand, grate­ful she couldn’t smell the
    meat­balls any­more, and saw Grace and Ben­nett stand­ing behind her.
    “Hel­lo, Grace,” she said. “Ben­nett.”
    Grace didn’t move; Ben­nett stood motion­less. No one leaned
    for­ward for a hug. Ben­nett had an iced tea in his hand instead of a
    beer. Grace had lost weight.
    “It’s quite a turnout,” Grace said, sur­vey­ing the room.
    “Did you enjoy this month’s book?” Patri­cia asked.
    “I’ve cer­tain­ly learned a lot about the war on drugs,” Grace said.
    I hat­ed it, Patri­cia want­ed to say. Every­one talked in the same
    terse, man­ly sen­tences you’d expect from an insur­ance sales­man
    fan­ta­siz­ing about war. Every sen­tence dripped with DDOs and DDIs
    and LPIs and E‑2s and F‑15s and MH-53Js and C‑141s. She didn’t
    under­stand half of what she read, there were no women in it except
    fools and pros­ti­tutes, it had noth­ing to say about their lives, and it
    felt like a recruit­ment ad for the army.
    “It was very illu­mi­nat­ing,” she agreed.
    James Har­ris had turned their book club into this. He’d start­ed
    get­ting the hus­bands to attend, and they’d start­ed read­ing more and
    more books by Pat Con­roy (“He’s a local author”) and Michael
    Crich­ton (“Fas­ci­nat­ing con­cepts”), and The Horse Whis­per­er and All
    the Pret­ty Hors­es and Bra­vo Two Zero, and some­times Patri­cia
    despaired over what were they going to read next—The Celes­tine
    Prophe­cy? Chick­en Soup for the Soul?—but most­ly she mar­veled at
    how many peo­ple came.
    It was bet­ter not to dwell on it. Every­thing changes, and was it
    real­ly so bad that more peo­ple want­ed to dis­cuss books?
    “We need to find seats,” Grace said. “Excuse us.”
    Patri­cia watched them retreat into the crowd. The track light­ing
    got brighter as the sky out­side got dark­er, and she made her way
    back to her group. As she got near­er she smelled san­dal­wood and
    leather. Peo­ple part­ed and she saw Carter talk­ing excit­ed­ly to
    some­one, and then she passed the last per­son block­ing her view and
    saw James Har­ris, dressed in a blue oxford shirt with the sleeves
    rolled up just so, and his khakis pressed exact­ly right, his hair
    tou­sled by experts, and his skin glow­ing with health.
    “You wouldn’t believe the sched­ule they have me on this fall,”
    Carter was telling him. “Six talks before Jan­u­ary. You’ll have to keep
    an eye on the old home­stead.”
    “You know you love it,” James Har­ris said, and they both laughed.
    Patricia’s steps fal­tered and she cursed her­self for not want­i­ng to
    see James Har­ris, who had done so much for all of them, and she
    forced her­self to walk toward him with a big smile. James Har­ris was
    Leland’s busi­ness advi­sor these days. He called him­self a con­sul­tant.
    He made up for not being able to go out­side dur­ing the day by
    work­ing through the night. He pored over the plans for Gra­cious Cay,
    he wooed out­side investors at catered din­ners he host­ed at his home,
    and some­times when Patri­cia walked down Mid­dle Street ear­ly in the
    morn­ing she could still smell cig­ar smoke lin­ger­ing in the street
    out­side his house. He worked the phones, he encour­aged peo­ple to
    get out­side their com­fort zones, he con­vinced Leland to grow a
    pony­tail. He car­ried them into the future.
    “We’re going to have to get you mar­ried so you can know what it’s
    like to be tied down,” Carter said to James Har­ris.
    “I still haven’t met some­one worth giv­ing up my free­dom for,”
    James said.
    He and Carter were almost like broth­ers these days. He was the
    one who’d con­vinced Carter to go into pri­vate prac­tice. He was the
    one who’d talked Carter into get­ting on the lec­ture cir­cuit, where he
    extolled the virtues of Prozac and Rital­in to doc­tors on paid vaca­tions
    in Hilton Head, and Myr­tle Beach, and Atlanta, cour­tesy of Eli Lil­ly
    and Novar­tis. He was the one respon­si­ble for all the mon­ey pil­ing up
    in their bank account that would let them send Korey to col­lege, and

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    are you okay?”
    The chap­ter from July 24 delves into the pro­tag­o­nist’s life, show­cas­ing a mix­ture of mun­dane and omi­nous events. The pro­tag­o­nist is ful­ly com­mit­ted to her rela­tion­ship with Eddie, pur­chas­ing a wed­ding dress and engag­ing in dis­cus­sions about their upcom­ing small wed­ding. Despite the oppres­sive sum­mer heat, she finds solace in ear­ly morn­ing jogs, enjoy­ing the soli­tude and the cool­ing sweat. Her encoun­ters with Emi­ly and Camp­bell dur­ing these runs hint at under­ly­ing ten­sions, par­tic­u­lar­ly with Camp­bel­l’s forced smile.

    The nar­ra­tive takes a dark­er turn with the pro­tag­o­nist’s thoughts on Tripp, a rich white man charged with first-degree mur­der but still enjoy­ing the com­fort of his home. This dis­par­i­ty in treat­ment high­lights soci­etal inequal­i­ties and the pro­tag­o­nist’s own fears stem­ming from a past inci­dent involv­ing some­one named Mr. Brock. Her reflec­tions on the priv­i­lege that allows Tripp to remain at home while await­ing tri­al con­trast sharply with her imag­ined imme­di­ate incar­cer­a­tion had she been caught in a sim­i­lar sit­u­a­tion.

    Trip­p’s case is cen­tral to the chap­ter, with rev­e­la­tions about the death of Blanche, who had a mas­sive frac­ture in her skull. Sus­pi­cion falls heav­i­ly on Tripp, espe­cial­ly since he had bought a ham­mer short­ly before Blanche’s demise. Despite the absence of con­crete evi­dence, espe­cial­ly con­cern­ing anoth­er poten­tial vic­tim named Bea, the case against Tripp hinges on cir­cum­stan­tial evi­dence. The pro­tag­o­nist’s obses­sion with fol­low­ing the case, cou­pled with Eddie’s cyn­i­cal view of the jus­tice sys­tem’s lenien­cy towards wealthy defen­dants, adds a lay­er of com­plex­i­ty to their dai­ly lives.

    The chap­ter crescen­dos with the pro­tag­o­nist expe­ri­enc­ing a fright­en­ing moment alone in her house, hear­ing thumps rem­i­nis­cent of the night they learned about Blanche’s death. This inci­dent, though seem­ing­ly minor, esca­lates her anx­i­ety, mak­ing a sim­ple phone call from Eddie a nec­es­sary com­fort to assuage her fears. The blend of per­son­al com­mit­ment, soci­etal cri­tique, and moments of sus­pense cap­tures a day in the life of the pro­tag­o­nist, filled with love, antic­i­pa­tion, and a loom­ing sense of dread.

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    Chap­ter 24 of “The Ten­ant of Wild­fell Hall” by Anne Bron­të begins with Helen doc­u­ment­ing her wor­ry over her hus­band Arthur’s increas­ing dis­in­ter­est in their qui­et life togeth­er and his pref­er­ence for talk­ing about his past amorous adven­tures, which dis­tress­es her great­ly. Helen tries to main­tain a calm demeanor in response to Arthur’s sto­ries that boast of his exploits at the expense of oth­er women, despite ini­tial­ly react­ing with anger and tears. These inter­ac­tions deep­en her inner tur­moil and doubts about her mar­riage deci­sion but solid­i­fy her resolve to not com­plain or show signs of jeal­ousy, which Arthur often teas­es her for.

    The nar­ra­tive takes a turn when Arthur shares the detailed sto­ry of his past involve­ment with Lady F—, mak­ing Helen ques­tion her deci­sion to mar­ry him more than ever before. A sub­se­quent argu­ment ensues over Arthur’s past behav­ior and his rea­sons for mar­ry­ing Helen, which leads to Helen ques­tion­ing whether she would have mar­ried him had she known about these escapades before­hand. Their dis­agree­ments esca­late, result­ing in Helen iso­lat­ing her­self from Arthur.

    They main­tain a cold dis­tance from each oth­er, filled with silent treat­ments and pas­sive-aggres­sive behav­ior. Arthur’s bore­dom and rest­less­ness due to bad weath­er and lack of enter­tain­ment options are evi­dent. Helen, try­ing to assert some lev­el of inde­pen­dence and dis­dain for Arthur’s atti­tudes, pays him lit­tle atten­tion, push­ing Arthur to ten­ta­tive attempts at rec­on­cil­i­a­tion which Helen rebuffs, seek­ing a clear sign of Arthur’s remorse.

    Arthur’s sud­den plan to depart for Lon­don alarms Helen, fear­ing the con­se­quences of his escape from their dire sit­u­a­tion. A mis­com­mu­ni­ca­tion about the depar­ture, pre­cip­i­tat­ed by a prob­lem with the hors­es, opens a dia­logue between them. The chap­ter con­cludes on a some­what hope­ful note, with Arthur express­ing a desire to stay on the con­di­tion of Helen’s for­give­ness and a poten­tial for rec­on­cil­i­a­tion, hint­ing at an unre­solved yet slight­ly more opti­mistic future for their rela­tion­ship. This encap­su­lat­ed ten­sion between Helen’s hope for a lov­ing mar­riage and the real­i­ty of Arthur’s unchang­ing char­ac­ter dri­ves the nar­ra­tive towards an antic­i­pa­tion of whether true change is pos­si­ble in Arthur.

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